7: New faces

Gemmy and I shared by the far one of the best nights of my lif- afterlife... We ended up laying next to each other talking about songs we've written and what they mean. I didn't dare ask about her sad alter ego... She said she's never written a love song.. She's only written a few that deal with life issues. When I asked her why she said she's never been in love and she can't put feelings she doesn't have into a song..

The one thing that caught my attention was the fact that there was a slight sparkle to her eyes that made doubt her explanation.. I'd like to think I've changed that and maybe she'll write a song about me. Hah yeah right... Even if that were true I can't and I won't do anything about it. This is all so new to me and especially to her.. Even though we carry on like this is all a normal thing it really isn't.. Then apart from all that there's the getting to know one another, and feelings stupid, stupid feelings..

I ended up having to bring up the covers so she wouldn't get cold and having to turn her lights off.. She fell asleep as I played a long to that song she sung to me.. What was it called? I don't think she told me or else I'd remember.. She laughed at me for playing the familiar tune, “it's kinda stuck in my head” I chuckled and before I knew it she was out like a light. I set the guitar down beside me I didn't want to get up from this spot, I'm watching her sleep from so close up and it's even better than the nice evening we had... I wish I could sleep and feel what's its like to dream again. I mean really dream, because my dreams used to be nightmares.. They started after my dad died and I guess that was understandable. But I found myself barely sleeping which only added to my misery..

As I watch Gemmy sleep I noticed her lips twitch up into a small smile, she must be dreaming.. Could it be about me? I mean she did call my name the last time.. No don't be stupid mate..

I was sitting out in the garden when Niall came to join me with a glass of iced tea for each of us. The sun was shining and the breeze was filled with the smell of the coming fall. “It's almost as beautiful as you out today” Niall spoke up and I scoffed and nudged him, “yeah very original Niall” I rolled my eyes playfully, managing to make a cheeky grin take over his features.

“I'll miss you tomorrow”

“It's just school, plus its not like I'm not coming back” I giggle.

“I know but still..” He sighs, and I take his hand in mine lacing our fingers together.

“You should come with me” I offer cheerfully.

“Ha I wish, you know I can't do that” he brings my hand to his lips and places a chaste kiss on my knuckles.

“Why not?” I ask my smile fading as I wait for his reply.

“Gem, you know why..” He sighs with a smile and I think I do but not fully

“Remind me again...” I suggest hesitantly and he sighs heavily, his blue eyes dilating as they stare into mine. “Because babe.. This isn't real, We aren't real.. Your just dreaming with your heart. You know this.." He pauses and holds our entwined hands up, “we can't do this in our reality” he grins and goes back to staring off into the distance. My mouth drops open and I suddenly remember.. He's right this is all just in my head it isn't real, we aren't really together... We can never be...

I watch as a small crease forms between her brows and it instantly worries me. Her pink lips turn from a smile into a frown, and she begins to toss and turn.

“No.. why..”

“Gemmy..” I call to her but she can't seem to hear me, I reach out to her but my attempts are in vain I thought that it'd be like the time she almost fell where I caught her.. But it's not working, she's started to cry in her sleep and its tearing me apart she doesn't wake up, why isn't she waking up yet?!

As realization hits everything goes dark and i'm left alone, he's gone yet again. Is he the one who's invading my dreams like this? And why haven't I woken up yet? “Why?” I sob into my hands, why did it have to be him, he's not even alive. Why was I given such a terrible gift.. I don't want it anymore.. “Are you sure about that?” a male voice echos in the darkness and I look up from my hands,”who's there?” I look around and a face is given to the voice as he steps into the only light around me. “A friend” he smiles, his blue eyes crinkle at the corners as they shine bright, even in the lack of light. who the heck is he? There is something in his eyes that puts me at ease, they look so familiar.. His short brown hair is greying at the sides and his skin is pale from lack of sun I believe. “Gemmy don't be afraid” he comes closer and i'm surprised I don't flinch back, “Who are you how do you know my name?” I wipe the tears from my eyes, as they mirror his. “Just call me Bobby” his warm smile calms the sadness I feel within.

“Why am I still here? This is just a dream..”

“Your here because you want to be.”

“No I-”

“Gemmy.. about what you said earlier, did you mean it?” huh? What is he.. “You know about not wanting the gift you have” he answers my question before I can think about it. “Yes..” I squeak and the look in his eyes don't take in my lie.

“Okay, no..”

“I thought so” he smiles once more, and I'm confused what's going on? “You don't know me..” I sigh. “I know more than you think” he puts his hands in his pocket and I eye him up and down.

“Like what?” I test him.

“Hmmm, I know you love Niall and you'd give anything to be able to feel closer to him than you already do. A closeness you can't even begin to understand..”

“What- How-”

“And where you really come from” he grins and gives me a wink. And I feel my heart race, what does he mean by really come from?

“What are you talking ab-”

I think it's time you go now, we'll have other opportunities to talk” he comes closer and wipes away a stray tear I must have looked over.. “Wait!” I call to him as he turns and disappears into the darkness.

“Wait!” she jolts up right and her eyes are wide as she looks around the room, she's drenched in sweat and her breathing is heavy. “Gemmy..” my voice comes out quieter than I wanted, she looks over to me her eyes still wide and her pupils dilated leaving only a bit of the blue in her eyes visible. “N-Niall..” she tries to control her breathing. “Are you okay? I was worried.. I mean you were having a nightmare yeh?” I gulp and she wipes the sweat from her forehead, brushing back the hair from her face. “Yeah...” she sighs and puts her face in her hands, “Do you um.. wanna talk about it?” she nods against it, her face still in her hands. “Okay” I sigh and before I know it I'm placing a hand on her back for support.

I answer Niall with a mere nod and just as he agrees to let it go, I feel something on my back I can just barely feel it.. I look up from my hands at Niall who's hand is “on” my back, I blink a few times to make sure this isn't still a dream. “Ni-Niall..” I gulp and his eyes are wide like mine were a few minutes ago, they're focused on the his hand on my back.

“H-how..”

“I d-don't know..” I stutter, and he lowers his hand and I sit and face him. “I could just barely feel it..” I whisper and he licks his lips as his eyes flicker from his hand to me. I take my hand and hold it up, “Do you think it's permanent?”

“Dunno..” he blinks away the shock and we move our hands closer so there's only a centimeter of space between them.. Slowly I press my fingers to his but I don't feel it.. my hand passes right through his and I gasp but try to hide it.. What's going on..?

Gemmy's hand goes through mine and she tried to hide her disappointment, she wanted it as much as I did.. I let my hand drop and I can't bare to look at Gemmy.. I thought, I felt her I.. It was probably all in my head.. But she felt it too.. didn’t she? Gemmy yelps as the sound of her very loud alarm clock goes off.. “I have to get ready for my first day..” she clears her throat, “Alright..” I don't look at her and move back to my usual spot on the seat of the bay window. I need to just forget what just happened, yes it bothers me but like i've said before nothing more can come up between me and Gemmy. It won't be healthy for her, and I don't deserve her anyway.

I got up and walked into the bathroom taking one last look at Niall at his usual spot on the window seat before closing the door. I pressed my forehead against the wooden door and took a deep breath, whatever it was that just happened out there only adds to the stress that, that nightmare caused. Who is that Bobby guy? And what did he mean when he said he knows more about me than I think? I've never seen him before, but I guess if he's in my dreams or nightmares I should say.. Then he isn't real? Maybe it's a form of giving my subconscious a face? I always thought my subconscious was a girl because well duh, I am a girl. I laughed at my silly ideas and decided I'll worry about it later, it was just a dream after all and I hate to quote Niall in the dream but, it isn't real.. I shouldn't worry..

I didn't even let the thoughts of me being able to touch Niall in I don't need it right now, I have enough to worry about with being the new girl today.. I hurried and brushed my teeth and hopped in the shower.

When I came out in my towel I checked to make sure Niall wasn't in here, thankfully he wasn't but I still felt weird getting taking the towel off. “Niall?” I called to him I waited a minute or two to see if he'd reply or come upstairs but he didn't. I went over to my dresser and picked out my polka dot bra and matching panties. Cautiously I dropped my towel and slipped on my undergarments.

I was walking back up the stairs from being in my dads old office which now belongs to Gemmy's dad.. When I heard her call to me, I wonder what she could want. I decided I wasn't going to let this morning get to me, nothing happened or else things would be different right now.. I hadn't looked up until I was at the top of the stairs and I was speechless Gemmy was wander about in just her bra and underwear. My eyes scanned over her body I couldn't help but stare that is until she realized I was in the room. “NIALL!” She shrieked and I covered my eyes and turned around tripping over my feet and practically falling down the stairs. “Niall! Ugh what were you doing!” she yelled and I didn't dare look at her now, “I'm sorry I heard you calling me and then I came up and you were there” I explained, “Yeah I called you like 10 minutes ago!”

“I know I didn't come sooner because I was doing something downstairs I'm sorry!” I called back and I heard foot steps coming from downstairs. “Gemmy? Are you okay whats all the noise about?!” Her moms voice echoed.

“Nothing mom I saw a bug!” I called back as I slipped on my shorts and my white t-shirt. “Are you sure?!” Her voice was closer and I think she's at the bottom of the steps, “Yeah i'll be down in a minute!” I huffed, “Okay..” she sounded unconvinced but I waited until I heard the clanking of her heels fade down to the bottom floor. “You can look now” I whispered harshly at Niall and he turned around a hand still over his eyes, “Sorry..” he half smiled and peeked through his fingers. I sighed and rolled my eyes as I tucked in the front of my shirt into my shorts, I tightened the string that held my shorts up and went to put on my black Keds. Niall stayed at the top of the stairs as he watched me move around the room. I looked over at the clock it was 7:45 and school starts at 8 ugh I need to hurry so I can have some breakfast..

I set to putting on some make up, a little mascara and semi thick winged eyeliner. I colored in my eyebrows a little before fixing my hair. I left it out to finish air drying and the somewhat messy look went with my outfit. “Ready?” Niall asked and I looked over at him sitting on the floor, “I guess..” I sighed and picked up my tribal patterned backpack and slinging it over my left shoulder.

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I watched as Gemmy left the house, from her bedroom window, as usual this will be my position until she gets back. She turned and waved slightly before she headed down the street, I wish I could walk her to school.. I mean maybe I could I've never really tried.. But that'll be for another time. I don't think i'm ready to leave my comfort zone just yet. “She's beautiful isn't she? Like an angel” I turned my head to look in the direction of the familiar voice, my mouth dropped open and I was speechless. “Hello son” my dad gave me a weary smile.

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Who was it that invaded Gemmy's dream? can you guess? ;) And what does he know about Gemmy that she doesn't? :O AND Niall's dad is back? So much going on haha :D  Anyways enjoy :) x

Picture of Gemmy's outfit on the side (: >