parkbeanch panics

Alice;

You smiled softly at the idea of them all wanting to hang out more. You would love to get to know my idols better.

They all seem to have some kind of thing for me. You fell like it's sympathy  for what they think happened witch most think it's just a bad falling out.

But it was so much more.

You sat up from my poolside spot and walked in going to my closet picking something our cute but comfy.

Your white tennis skirt  with shorts underneath- black sheer Leggings and my blue tube top with the small white checkers on it, And a checkered open cardgen that was blue and white checkered it  had small ribbions, and my platform black flats.

You went and took a quick shower washing my hair in the frist time in a few weeks due to how dizzy it was getting it got hard to do that. Finally the dizziness disspeared.

You grabed my Alice and wonderland themed mini backpack that glows in the dark putting my wallet and i-phone in grabbing  out a earbud and putting on my chill-out Playlist, frist song playing was;

'Juniper by Flower face'

You put my case in grabbing out my  phone to text them you are heading out their now.

"Where you going honey?" Youre mother asked, not expecting you to have any friends.

"Sam and colby, their friends want to meet me at the park." You replie.

"Oh those boys totally like you" she teased you, "hope they treat you right this time."

You blush softly, this was one of times you hoped you're mother was right about someone being into you - You wore in bad for the boys have been for awhile.

Since the  summer before freshmen year when they wore 17-19.

You wave and headed out and packed a small sandwich bag of your favorite sea salt and vinegar  chips, putting it in the bag. And then went out the front door closing it and headed down to the park inside of the enclosed neighborhood.

This nigbahood was like its own small community in, a big ol town. It was originally ment for retirement, but to many so they moved to a bigger place and left it as a gated hoa ridden neighborhood as long as I can remember.

I'm socked, they'd let sam and colby live here, they hate everything technology.

You walk onto the sidewalk by the park and look around enjoying what's left of the song as it switches in another song. You quickly  spot the boys getting you're earbud out of its case and put it in as you walk up.

"Theirs the bueaty" Jake said softly taking my hand and kissing it.

You giggle blushing softly, "how sweet of you jakey"

He only smiled as nate hit him on the head. "Were here to get  to know her more not enchant  her"

You giggle, "you wouldn't have to do much of that regardless" you Said in a joke tone, though truly you ment it.

Jake led you over to the others like you wore a princess showing you to the seat they wore saving for you, right between sam and colby.

Sam wrapped a arm around ur shoulders as you sat with a soft smile. "Acting so romantic, are we boys?" You tease.

Jhonnie hummed with a small lip bite, something you always found attractive. "Hard not to be when were grazed with you're presences" he said with a sly smirk as he watched you turn red.

"Oh please, I'm not that spical" you murmered, you wouldn't never belive that again, after the harm you wore put through by youre so-called friends.

Colby slowly turned his head to you, "not spical huh babygirl? You are getting every girls dream right now getting my crew flirtin' with em" he commented, "what's got you felling this way. You are absolutely stunning"

You look down fiddling with you're figures struggling  to find words to explain. "Well..." You croked out.

"If you're not comfortable, with it yet we can move on. You don't know much about us hut what we probably  put on for the world to see" Sam reinsured, softly stroking his figures through  your hair. "But one day, we'd hope you find comfort ehnogh to tell us what's got you feeling so negative of yourself."

You nod, "what had happend with my old friends kinda pushed it.." You murmer quietly, clearly it's all you'd say on the matter of the time.

"So- any questions for us honey"  Seth asked with a soft smile.

I had tons, but my brain drew a blank as I looked at them blankly.

"Have we enchanted  you, that fast you've drawn a blank" Colby said with a infectious smirk and soft chuckle, trying to lighten the mood.

Their was a tension lingering  after you mentioned you're friends, or so called at most.

"Yeah, I honstly had so many questions when I watched. But like you never really expect to met, what was a teenage  idol to you" you explain, "let alone live near them"

They nodded. "I hope as time goes on we subconsciously answers you're  questions and help build that confidence you seem to have gotten taken from you, by utter pricks"  Nate says softly, in a comforting voice.

You smile softly in a soft nod. "They wore at that" you mange to push out, but it was your own fault for trusting them.

"So you had a bit of a past in paranormal, can you tell us anything about it" Sam said trying to shift it away from your past friends, with out  knowing alot.

You nod, "I was in a group for a short time for it.." You croked out in a shakey voice, only one invesgation  you ever joined them for where you wore giving credit and shown only was the Queen mary one but they didn't last more then 20 minutes filming their.

So that wasn't alot, then of crouse their was the one  where the incident aqured, witch now.. you wore coming to terms with what happend. And wore kinda thankful for it. Look what happend.

You are lucky, you met your  idols... just not due to ordinal good reason.

"I'm guessing the reason for you return involves  them?"  Colby asked sympathic.

You only nod as you let out a shakey breath. "I had came to know, through  watching you guys collabing with medium  - me seeing and speaking  to ghosts wasn't me going insane.. them warning me the warnings I never took" you paused looking embressly at the floor.

"I'm a medium" you spoke out hestenitly, as how bad it turned when you  told them other paranormal  group that.

"That's cool darling" Seth said softly rubbing your shoulder, with a soft reassuring  smile. "You  have a lucky gift - and one you should be grateful to have."

That is the thing, I'm not. It caused me so much pain.

I just smile soft with  a little slow nod.

I could feel all looking at me. "They used you" Jake said quietly.

You tried to keep the smile their and deny it but even they could tell.

Colby bit his lip, "alright- uh new topic  sweetheart, you said you wore a fan yeah? What was one of youre favorite video we did" he said trying to pivot he could notice it.

They all could, whatever your ex friends did to you was wrong.. on so many levels.

Sam moved to hold you softly rubbing ur back with seth. "Your okay dear were here their not" Sam said softly, picking on ur breathing going higher  looking slowly at the others.

Panic  attack.

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They didn't know..

But not gonna lie it's kinda a cute moment.