detachment

23.

and despite

the crowds

and our gathered family,

despite our bonds strengthening

under the circumstances,

despite our desperate attempts

to stay together,

I am battling to keep my mind

on ground level.

it's searching beneath the surface

for darkness

it grew so used to,

and it's distorting

every emotion,

twisting them into

a hazy grey daze.

it's an overcast sky in my thoughts

and the clouds are rumbling

over happy memories

and kind words

and once they fade

all I feel is

d e t a c h e d .

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