Civil Servant HunterâS S-Class Resignation Log Chapter 281
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âItâs so fascinating. âThe more I know, the more my expectations seem to break.â
âDo I have to live up to your expectations?â
Julian laughed at the blunt answer.
âI have a very good sense of things, perhaps thanks to my mother who was a fortune teller. After becoming an awakened person, I gained a sense of ability that surpasses even L-class. So the world wasnât fun. Everything worked as expected. âExcept just one.â
âme? âSo are you interested?â
âIn the first place, curiosity is the most dangerous thing. Anyway, this time itâs surprising again. âI didnât know you were such a sensitive person.â
âWhere are you looking! âIâm a very sensitive person, right?â
âThatâs right. If it were me, I would have been so anxious to take care of myself that I wouldnât have looked backâ¦â I
certainly donât think Julian would have felt guilty enough to suffer from nightmares. At the very least, he may have brushed it off as soon as he found out that the real cause of Baskarâs destruction was not himself but the manager.
but.
âI am not you.â
I didnât particularly envy that kind of disposition. Because you are yourself and others are strangers.
âThat is correct. âThatâs why I like you.â
Julianâs eyes narrowed. It wasnât a smile meant to make my appearance stand out, but just because I was happy.
When we first met, he appealed to me for my lovely appearance, but after some time, he put that aside and started smiling naturally.
To be honest, it looks better now than before.
âBut itâs a bit difficult to walk around like this all the time without being able to sleep.â
âWhy are you in trouble?â
âBecause sufficient sleep is good for your health. I want to play with you for a long time, but what if I die quickly? âIâm really worried because heâs a hundred years older than me.â
âYou son of a bitch!â
Is the reason you came all the way from America to make fun of yourself and call yourself an old man?
Seong Ja-rim, who heard the most unpleasant words, became irritated and tried to hit Julianâs shin. Although the saying that it surpasses L-class in terms of persimmon is not a lie, I quickly avoided it and ended up failing.
âIâve already lived for over 130 years. Do you think I canât live any longer? I will live longer than you. âI will live so long that I will see you put in a coffin!â
âItâs nice to hear that.â
Julian, smiling brightly, stepped closer to Seong Ja-rim just as he backed away to avoid a kick to the shin.
âIf you really want to achieve that dream, put aside your regrets. âThat way you can sleep well.â
âwhat?â
âThe reason you keep dreaming about the past is because of your regrets. To be honest, thatâs how it looks to me.â
Seong Ja-rimâs face suddenly distorted at the nonsense.
What a regret. Yes, you can see it that way. But why?
âYou havenât forgotten a single word you shouted on the 11th floor of the labyrinth, right? Unlike the monsters there who tormented you, the inhabitants of that planet accepted you. âI felt sorry for you for being bullied by that guy.â
âWhat is that?â
âIs it possible that those who did that would come in your dreams and curse you? Why are you imagining things that those people didnât even do? âAre you that imaginative?â
Seong Ja-rim was rarely speechless. Strangely, this kind of thing was not uncommon when talking to this guy.
Even Kang Se-jun and Yoon Seo couldnât stop me.
âThatâs just a regret. âYou canât sleep and have dreams like that because you keep telling yourself that you should feel guilty about them.â
ââ¦.â
âThe real cause is already dead. You too have suffered for decades because of that. âIsnât it time to shake things off a little?â
There was nothing wrong with what Julian said from beginning to end.
Regretâ¦. He might be right. In fact, the residents of Baskar did not curse me as they died.
Everything that happened in the dream was just her imagination.
ââ¦How could you forget that? âAnyway, itâs true that I killed him.â
âSo youâre going to keep coming up with such ridiculous fantasies? âIsnât that an insult to the dead?â
âwhat?â
Seong Ja-rim raised his eyes. However, Julian did not back down even when his eyes were shining with life.
âWhy are you angry? Thatâs right. I didnât do anything like that, but donât you think it would be really bad if someone else imagined that I did the worst thing and suffered alone? âDonât you?â
Seong Ja-rim was embarrassed. The anger that had begun to boil at the unexpected words dissipated all at once.
The residents of Baskar were worried about themselves instead of criticizing them even though they were dying by their own irrational hands.
Donât be so distressed, this isnât your faultâ¦
âItâs okay, Seong Ja-rim. We will not die by your hands. You did nothing wrong. So donât feel guilty. âThis is just a problem on our planet.â
Then, I suddenly remembered the will Elona left before she died.
A tear fell from Seong Ja-rimâs eyes.
Truly friendly people. What kind of ridiculous imagination did I have about those people?
âWhy are you stuck in a time that doesnât exist? Your reality is here. âStop wandering and come back to the time you live in.â
ââ¦I canât believe Iâm getting this advice from a chick. âAll these things happen in life.â
Seong Ja-rim let out a deep sigh and pressed his eyes with his palms.
Whatâs even more ridiculous is that I didnât notice it myself until Julian pointed it out.
âThere are times in life where a little chick can be of great help, thatâs it.â
âYouâre not small.â
When Seong Ja-rim wrinkled his nose, the guy laughed again.
Heâs always been a guy with a smile on his face, but he seemed to smile especially well today.
âFor some reason, I felt like I had to meet you this early in the morning, but there was a reason. Itâs amazing because this is the first time Iâve had a sense of something related to you. âItâs fun and Iâm happy.â
âUgh⦠Iâm not that good.â
Seong Ja-rim was disgusted, saying it felt like some kind of stalker was following him. Julian immediately made a sad expression.
âThanks to me, I was able to shake off a bit of my regret, but isnât that too much?â
âIf you stop acting like a stalker, I might be more cute to you.â
âYou havenât been that clingy lately. âThe phone was also ringing.â
Julian pursed his lips and grumbled.
True to his word, he only called at dawn these days. However, it wasnât like he was bothering me by saying various things.
I waited until Seong Ja-rim, who woke up from a dream and was out of breath, calmed down. And when I regained some breath, I clicked my tongue once.
That was all. Eventually, I heard the light noises of everyday life. The sound of turning a book, the sound of coffee being brewed, the sound of a teacup clattering. And the sound of evenly exhaled breathing mixed in between.
As I listened to that, my mind became calm. I never imagined that the sound of other people going about their normal day would bring me peace.
I didnât even know that the other person would be Julian.
âWasnât that cute?â
Is that why? For the first time, the face of the guy who asked that question looked kind of cute.
âIf I tell you itâs not cute, wonât I do it anymore?â
ââ¦I will still do it. âEven if itâs not cute, it wonât bother you.â
Julian wrinkled his nose as if he didnât like it. There were some grumblings about why my looks didnât work out for me.
Itâs probably at this point that I realize that things like peopleâs faces arenât important to me. It was quite fun to still show your face because you were so confident about your appearance.
Oh, weâre in big trouble. You find that guy interesting.
It was very hot.
âThey said it felt good, but it seems to be true.â
If he hadnât come by today, I wouldnât have had to think like this.
âOf course. I donât lie or anything. âThatâs something only people without confidence do.â
However, Julian, who was said to have a good sense, did not seem to have any sense in this regard. Not knowing what Seong Ja-rimâs intention was when he said that, he just said something else.
Does not matter. Itâs better for me not to know.
âHwaam.â
Then a yawn came out. I rarely fall asleep again after having a nightmare. Strangely, I felt sleepy today.
âIâm sleepy?â
Julian seemed quite happy about that, and his eyes lit up.
âLetâs go in and sleep.â
ââ¦Why are you talking as if weâre going in together?â
âThen are you going to leave the people who came all the way here to see you outside? âOn this cold morning?â
âPretending to be cold when itâs not even winter.â
Seong Ja-rim looked at Julian from head to toe with a somewhat scary look on his face.
He became a little cute and fun, but that was it.
âThis place is borrowed with Seo-raâs money, so if you want to come in, get permission from Seo-ra.â
âYouâre probably sleeping right now.â
âSo, when you stand up while playing outside, tell me. âIâm sleepy and need to sleep.â
âwhat! Are you really leaving me behind?!â
âThen go back.â
âno! âItâs been a few months since weâve seen each other again!â
âThen stay here.â
âI donât like that either!â
It was none of my business whether I liked it or not. Seong Ja-rim wanted to immediately get into the warm bedding, roll up the blanket, and sleep.
As I turned away from him and walked towards the pool villa, Julian followed me. However, she was so heartless that she didnât just slam the door in front of him, she locked it.n/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
âSeongjarim!â
âSee you in the morning. No, see you during the day. âI donât feel confident getting up before noon.â
Seong Ja-rim yawned again, left him outside, went into her room, and lay down on the bed.
The early morning breeze wasnât cold, but it was quite warm and I felt particularly comfortable under the cozy blanket.
Seong Ja-rim fell asleep, forgetting about Julian, who had come all this way to shake off his regrets.
* * *
When Seong Ja-rim opened her eyes, she was standing in front of the collapsed city of Baskar.
Ah, I thought I had shaken off my regrets, but I guess not yet. Well, thereâs no way I can shake off something like that so quickly.
Still, it will end someday. As Julian said, this is an insult to the dead.
But something was strange. The residents who were dying along with the city were not cursing me, but were smiling and waving their hands.
And in front of her was her friend Elona.
Unlike the last time I saw her, she didnât look miserable. She smiled, looking like she did when she was healthy and strong.
Elona left a greeting saying that she couldnât leave because she wanted to say this and disappeared along with everyone else.
The collapsed city also scattered like a mirage.
An empty space with nothing left. Seong Ja-rim, who was standing alone in the distance, blinked slowly.
Soon, that space also collapsed like a sand castle being swept away by waves.
And what was revealed was a room filled with bright sunlight.
ââ¦ah.â
I got up from my seat, wrapping the blanket around my body. The midday sun and bright blue sky were visible beyond the window that filled one wall.
It was my first time. The reason Baskarâs dream wasnât painful.
It was the first time that there were no people cursing, and it was the first time that people smiled and said hello.
Seong Ja-rim, who was looking back on everything with a blank face, realized it too late.
I see From now on, they will never appear in my dreams again. Now I have shaken off all my regrets.
Although I will remember them forever, I will no longer struggle with terrible guiltâ¦.
ââ¦.â
Tears poured down from Seong Ja-rimâs eyes as she looked up at the sky.
The feelings of regret, guilt, and lingering feelings toward them slowly disappeared, swept away by my tears.
You canât forget them. But now, instead of feeling sorry, the fun memories we had together seemed to come to mind first.
The lingering regrets in my heart were completely swept away.
Seong Ja-rim, who was quietly looking at the sky, soon listened to the voice coming from outside.
Seo-ra Yoon and Se-jun Kang. Rizeâs voice often mixed with that of her precious friends.
And Julianâs voice mixed in with Seo-raâs permission.
Those voices were letting her know that she was never alone.
I got off the bed and stood in front of the closed door. The sound that seemed to be blocked was loudly hitting my ears when I opened the door.
After standing still for a moment, she took a step toward the commotion.
widely.
With a light sound behind him, the quiet and desolate door that held Seong Ja-rim was completely closed.
Seong Ja-rim was no longer lonely.
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