Chapter 50

50. Hell and Darkness.

The loud and sharp sound made by one’s weight combined with the terror caused by losing control over one’s body, was payathyising for Adira for a few seconds until she was able to recover control of her body. When she opened her eyes in a panic, she found herself in the depths of a river after a failed attempt to breathe.

How had she ended up here? Everything had happened so fast that her brain had only had a few moments to register her current circumstances. She had not been expecting a deep river to be lying beneath the ditch, not even in her wildest dreams.

The young she-wolf had used all of her might and voice to scream in horror as they fell into the abyss, yet when her body still met with the icy water’s surface it ** stole her voice from her as well; before sucking her deeper until she had been able to recover her senses.

She had remained unharmed even after falling from such a great height, since her small body had been entirely shielded by the Alpha’s large one. Even when they fell in the water, she had still been in his arms, he had never let her go but...

Zander...

In her mind, she called out his name. Adira had been swimming in the water, throwing her arms and legs out to keep herself afloat. What had happened to him?! Why wasn’t he with her? Anxiety and despair gripped her heart when she couldn’t see him, despite the fact that the water was crystal clear. How had this happened? He’d gone into the water with her! She was certain of that. He might have been hurt because he had shielded her from the fall.

She could still feel his touch all over her body, as if he were still behind her. She looked around, but all she could see was terrifying darkness. He was not there with her. The young woman’s heart was growing heavy with all the assumptions she was making to explain his disappearance. Was there something wrong with him? He had already been struck by a rut! He was by himself without her. When the word ‘rut’ crossed the young Luna’s mind, it added even more terror to her previous worries, pushing her to search for him.

‘Zander, where are you?’ Adira screamed through the mind-link.

‘Zander!!! She paused her search and yelled at the top of her lungs, feeling a pain in her head from pushing the mind-link to find the Alpha. But it was all for vain as she never received an answer.

‘Zander, please tell me where you are?’

‘Please,’ When she couldn’t find him, a fat tear mingled with the water crushing her gentle heart into numerous pieces. Why hadn’t he responded? Nothing bad had happened to him, right? Had he made it safely to the edge? Had he returned safely to the pack? Yes, that was it, he wasn’t near her so there was a chance. She forced a smile to reassure herself that he was safe and would return, but what if he was still under the water? What if he needed her? She couldn’t possibly leave without him.

There was nothing but darkness, she couldn’t even smell him because they were in the water, which was a huge disadvantage.

But she had the uneasy feeling that he was still close by. He hadn’t abandoned her. She could feel him. It may have been her mistake, but her heart refused to leave this river without Zander, even if she was running out of time and needed to get to the surface for some oxygen. But if she went up, Zander wouldn’t have enough time to get out if he was still in the water.

Without a second thought, the young she-wolf began to swim further down into the water, as it was the one spot she hadn’t looked for him. Death would be better than living without him!

She called him through the mind-link as she swam deeper and deeper until she saw a large figures being drawn deeper into the river. The young she-wolf’s body had turned colder than the river when she realized that Zander’s eyes were closed. He had not been trying to swim either. He was unconscious?

Zander, I am coming,’ she mind-linked him, the Alpha’s eyes remained mostly closed. He could only make out a thin naked beautiful figure swimming closer to him. Who was she? Was she a mermaid? He blinked a few times, then gradually understood that the beauty was none other than his mate, who had been weeping and calling for him repeatedly. Her blue eyes had locked with his, causing his heart to race. Had she been worried about him? Why hadn’t she swam upstream on her own and gotten out of this river? Why had she come to find him and risked her life?

Adira swam closer to him in panic, she took Zander’s hand and immediately began to swim up towards the surface. She had run out of time, but his body was too heavy for her. The Alpha witnessed her desperation. Desperation to save him had taken precedence over her own life. However, she appeared to be suffocating as she pushed herself beyond her body’s limits. Was his mate crazy? She was ready to die. Suddenly, she felt him trying to take his hand back.

‘Go by yourself. I’ll swim up later,’ he mind-linked her, causing her to turn her gaze to him. Had the Alpha gone crazy due to his rut? What was he saying? He was in a fatal rut, therefore his body couldn’t aid him with swimming without her assistance. When she tried to grab a hold of him again, he shook his head with a smile. Both of them were going to drown in the river at this rate, but he couldn’t drag her down because of him. Adira’s eyes widened as he began to sink down in the water once more. He was lying! He couldn’t possibly swim back alone! He had closed his eyes yet again. The Alpha felt a warm touch on his shoulders again, this time pulling him up. His hard chest touched her bare breast as she slammed her lips into his. What was she up to?

We are going out together, ‘crushing her lips onto his and flooding his lungs with oxygen, she mind-linked. When he watched her doing this in the water, Zander’s eyes widened. Why was this woman being so obstinate? She never listened to him, but that kiss had thrown him deeper into the pit of rut and hunger. Adira drew back, staring at his hot face and ravenous gaze. This was her opportunity! His rut was going to energize and awaken.

Please don’t close your eyes,’ she pleaded, taking his hand in hers as she swam up again. Why the heck was this river so deep?

She felt as though she had been swimming for an eternity. She began to feel the surface after a few seconds, which boosted her stamina. She smiled as she turned to face Zander, but nearly had a heart attack when she found his eyes closed again.

“No!” In terror, she screamed in her mind. Had he fainted? How long ago did it happen? When she raised her head out of the water, a rush of oxygen filled her lungs, saving her life.

“Zander! Open your eyes. Breathe. Did you hear me? Breath,” she panted. She shook Zander’s arms, he still had his eyes closed, without bothering to take a break to control her breathing or get a handle on herself. She took him to the river’s edge, dragged his body a short distance on to the river bank, then gently placed his head on the ground.

“Zander, look at me. We are safe,” she remarked while cupping his face and shaking him even more... His body was still as hot as fire, but he refused to move.

“What should I do?” In a panic, she asked herself as she looked about. There was no one else but the two of them. If she returned him to the pack, it would be late, since she now realized that his body was getting cold, like a dead body. No!

“No, no, no!” She screamed in agony, then began to push her hands against his stomach thinking that he needed to throw up the water that had entered his lungs.

“Please, please, wake up!!” She yelled, increasing the pressure. Why hadn’t she considered that he was just unconscious due to the water in his lungs?! It worked; he vomited up all the water, but then he collapsed on the ground like a dead fish.

“Zander, wake up!” In a panic, she crawled over his body. She placed her ear on his chest in order to listen for his heartbeat, which was not audible. Adira’s face became pale. Had he died? No! He couldn’t possibly do that. He can’t, he can’t.

“Zander!!! Please do not scare me like this! If you’re messing with me, I swear I’ll kill you!” She yelled, quickly delivering chest compressions to his heart in the hopes that he would come back to her. His heart couldn’t stop beating! She would never allow that!

“You’re not going to die! Don’t die! I’m telling you, I’m going to reject you!!!” She punched his chest, sobbing and losing hope. But still he did not move.

“Why? Why are you leaving me?” Adira placed her head on his chest, feeling their mate bond deteriorating gradually. He was going to leave her.

“Didn’t you say you loved me?” That you’d always be waiting for me? So, why is that? Why...”She wailed, her body pressed against his, resting on his chest and holding him tightly.

“Why are you leaving me when I want to hold your hand for the rest of my life?”

“Why are you leaving me when I want to spend the rest of my life with you?” She asked, burying her face in his chest. In fear of losing her mate, her wolf had gone insane. Adira’s head and heart were overwhelmed with all of her wolf’s feelings and whimpers.

“Why are you dying when you have made me fall in love with you?” She cried out, whispering under her breath. Everything had come to an end. She couldn’t make out his heartbeat or his breathing. She was unable to sense their mate bond anymore. He had abandoned her. He had left her alone.

“No, please. Don’t.. leave me, Zander. Please don’t,” she cried as she felt his hand on her back. She’d gone insane to the point that she could feel his touch, movement, heartbeat, and breathing again.

“Why would I die when I’ve finally gotten to hear what I’ve always desired?”

When she heard her Alpha’s voice, the young she-wolf’s ears perked up. She lifted her face up from his chest, only to meet his emerald eyes, which were staring deep into hers.

“Zander... you...” Was she hallucinating? He had spoken to her? Was he staring at her? He had woken up? She blinked her big blue eyes slowly, as a fat tear rolled down her cheek. When Zander saw her innocent, fearful eyes that still believed he was dead and that she had lost him, the Alpha’s emerald eyes shone.

“Don’t die. Please, don’t...” She pleaded, softly caressing his cheek with her trembling fingers. Zander’s heart skipped a beat at her words, desperation to bring him back, and the love in her eyes for him had jolted him out of his rut. She loved him! Her eyes said it too! Adira’s body was flipped onto the ground in an instant, as Zander climbed over her. He leaned down to her lips and gently brushed them with his.

“I didn’t die, Adira. I would never leave you. I love you,” Zander whispered quietly, pressing her lips with his. She closed her eyes, letting him enter her mouth as happy tears streamed down her cheeks. That was the moment she realized that she’d found her true love. She kissed him back slowly, following the movements of his lips. She had found the man she had been looking for.

He was the only one for her. When he started kissing down her neck to where a male marks his female, her fingers threaded themselves into his wet hair. The thought excited her wolf to a level that she moved to give him more excess.

“AAHHH!” She moaned, throwing her head back as she felt his finger penetrate her pussy while his tongue teased the sensitive region of her neck.

“I’d like to mate with you and mark you, Adira. I want to claim you, right here, right now, but I need to hear those words from you again. Say it for me, my love,” he begged, pressing his hardness against her belly as his fingers moved faster inside her hot core. Her entire body trembled with pleasure and a hint of discomfort.

“I want you Zander. I love you,” she whimpered, biting her lip with delight. The Alpha grinned, lightly ttttt grazing her n*****s with his teeth as the thrust of his fingers sped up even further.

“Ohhh... my... something is....” She screamed as she felt something hot develop inside her stomach.

“f**k! Make that face one more time and I will f**k you so harder that every soul will be able to hear your screams of pleasure,” he warned, pushing her further, he curled his thick fingers inside of her hitting all of the right spots.

Setting off her orgasm before she could finish her sentence. She felt his fingers still in her last when she was done with the release. Her mouth hung open in disbelief. The woman who had even been scared of touching herself, let her mate fantastic finger f**k her and it was f*****g awesome!

She did it!

“It will not end here. I am going to give you more and trust me you will be begging for more,” he promised, noticing how.much she enjoyed having it.

He drew out his c*m loaded fingers and rubbed them all over his c**k before stroking it a few times in front of her eyes. Her entire body was coated in a thin sheen of sweat. When his hungry gaze locked on her dripping p***y, Adira felt turned on beyond words as her entire body pleaded for his touch.

“Are you ready, baby?” he inquired, spreading her legs as he positioned himself between her thighs. He was finally going to claim his mate and make her his. Adira’s blue eyes slipped down to his long thick monster ready to slide deep inside of her. It looked like it was painful as it throbbed in front of her eyes. It was ready to be devoured by her tight little honey pot. She could see his pre c*m, which was already leaking from his tip. It was proof of how desperate, ravenous, and animalistic their s*x would be. His rut was undoubtedly something she was about to experience. He wasn’t going to be satisfied with one or two rounds, for sure. A buried dread arose in her heart, which Zander immediately sensed and drew her closer to him.

“Don’t be scared. I will not hurt you,” he promised as he kissed her lovingly, taking her fear away as his throbbing c**k remained anxiously at her entrance. He couldn’t stop himself now that he’d gotten this far. He needed her, but he also needed to soothe her. Nothing would be pushed on her, just as he had promised. A faint smile appeared on her lips, and she nodded. She knew he wouldn’t hurt her once she revealed her affections to him. Zander’s lips curled into a faint smile when he saw her tenderness and affection for him. He had found his true love.

“I love you, Adira,” he laid her back on the ground, entering inside her slowly.

“AAHHH...” They both moaned together as he pushed farther into her, even though it was slowly.f**k this rut! It was turning him into a beast. Her hotness and tightness did not allow him to pull out, but he did before he hurt her.

“I would try to go slow,” he assured, caressing her forehead, wiping away her tears, and moving more slowly than the young she-

wolf had anticipated. She continued moaning in discomfort, but it quickly changed to pleasure that she craved when she became accustomed to his length.

“AHHH.... Oh my... Goddess! Please...” She cried, raising her breast, letting him suck her n*****s, and soon moving her hips to meet his pace.

“Please what?” He asked, biting her breast sharply. His tongue was evil! Teasing and driving her crazy.

“Ouch! f**k me harder! Do it faster!!” Zander smiled with satisfaction as she demanded boldly. He had not been expecting her to say it out loud!

“As you wish my queen,” the Alpha said, giving a hard thrust to her pussy.

“Oh, f**k!!” They both gasped in unison. Her mouth was left open as she felt him farther within her stomach. Every time he thrust like a beast wanting to live deep within her hot core, she could feel him inside her. As he continued to sink inside her, she climaxed on his c**k once again.

“I am going to cum...” He told her, giving her a few last thrusts inside her, preparing her to c*m again, but this time with him. She felt a knot tightening inside her stomach that she hadn’t felt before. What exactly was it? Were they... Were they going to finish the mating ritual? The Alpha locked his gaze on her, confirming that what she was thinking was right.

“You are mine now, Adira,” as their mate bond tied them together, he whispered into her ear, shooting his seed into her. Adira screamed with delight, releasing with him. When he filled her womb with his sperm, she gripped him hard. He dug his face into her neck, growling with pleasure. Evan stared at her markless neck and growled.

“Alpha, Luna,” Adira’s ears were filled with the sounds of shouts. They were members of the Sirius Bright Pack. They came to look for them!

“They will come here!” She gasped, attempting to push Zander away. They could find them having s*x since Zander’s c**k was still buried deep into her.

“No one will come!” Evan appeared in his human’s eyes, he growled, pinning her both hands above her head. He looked at her naked body hungrily from head to toe. Surely one time had not been enough.. The Alpha Wolf had ordered the others not to come any closer via the mind-link.

“Why?” She murmured, confused, letting Isha also come forward in her eyes. She admired their mate, as well as her wolf, who had begun to move inside her again. She started panting, forgetting that she could be heard by the others, which she had been afraid of.

“I’m not leaving here until I mark you as mine,” Zander growled, digging his canines into her sensitive flesh as she moaned, feeling her mate bond become complete.

She had become his. Now they were together. No one could separate them.

****

If there was any sound audible among the pleasant scent and peaceful stillness, it was the water that Kiara’s hand had been playing in. Both the Alpha and Luna had been relaxing in the tub for some time now. Her back had been resting on his chest while his hand massaged her breast and his semi-hard c**k pressed against her ass.

f**k! It was difficult to keep his control while she was naked in his arms, but thinking about s*x was out of the question right now since her body would be still be recovering for another few hours, despite the fact that it was morning.

“Kiara, finish your tea!” The Alpha ordered sternly this time, moving the cup near to her lips.

“But this tea is very bitter,” she complained with a pout.

“This herbal tea was specially made for you to assist your internal organs in relaxing so you can recover faster. I believe you want to recover as well,” he said, caressing her arm as she tried to swallow the herbal tea in one go. Sipping it was difficult.

Anything made by a vampire couldn’t possibly aid a Werewolf! Had they made it bitter on purpose? She wouldn’t have had to drink this terrible herbal tea if she hadn’t bled. Well, it would have been a lie to say that she was not pleased with the care she had received from her mate since the previous night.

Before she had gone to sleep, Xavier had assisted her with taking a shower and cleaning the blood from her thighs and leg. He was worried about hurting her, so he hadn’t hugged her as she slept like he usually did, instead he had laid alongside her holding her hand tightly the entire night.

Despite the fact that the Doctor had confirmed that she was fine, he had been checking on her from time to time and had only slept for three hours, but he had not woken her up until she had seven hours of good sleep, which had let her heal herself. Xavier had awoken early in the morning and had just left the room for 15 minutes to meet with the Vampire King so that they could discuss some important matters.

He had returned just to take a shower before repositioning himself alongside his sleeping beauty and patiently waiting for her to awaken. The young Luna had a simple, nutritious breakfast prepared per the Vampire King’s orders. Xavier had eaten the same meal as her in order to persuade her to eat the plain food that had been presented to her, which she had clearly detested. The young she-wolf had always enjoyed spicy cuisine! She had made many petulant expressions while eating breakfast.

But as soon as a loving and soft kiss had been placed on her belly she forgot all of her complaints and blushed hard.

“All right, let’s go take a shower,” he suggested, putting the cup away and assisting her to get out of the tub. When they came out of the bathroom, new clothes were ready for them. Xavier, who was wearing his watch, spotted Kiara drying her hair, but she had also been lost in her thoughts for a long. What was bothering her?

“What’s wrong?” He inquired, taking the towel. Her hair was already dry, but she wasn’t aware of “Nothing,” she replied, sitting on the bed and looking away.

“Do I have to remind you that you’re a terrible liar? Before you experience pain in your tiny tummy, use your words. When you lie, your nose turns red as well. So don’t even think about it,” he chuckled. The young she-wolf felt butterflies in her tummy as her Alpha gave her a quick kiss on the nose. She thought it was cute, it was the first time he had done it.

“Umm, I was scared when I felt our pup in my stomach while shifting. And when I shifted back i attempted to stay calm, but the pain and blood were too much for me to bear. Despite the fact that I had only learned about the baby a few minutes before, I was terrified of losing it. I was not courageous enough to hear that our pup died before coming into this world,” Kiara paused, staring at Xavier’s emerald eyes, who had been patiently listening to her anxious admission.

“When you brought me back inside the Fort, I could feel your heartbeat. I knew you were worried when you heard the Doctor say I was having a miscarriage. Jennifer had told me that your first mate had also had a miscarriage. I’m curious how you dealt with the situation at the time. Had there also been an early miscarriage? Or was it different?” She wondered, releasing all the questions that had been building up in her head. But then she noticed a frown on Xavier’s face. He had an angry look in his eyes.

“Sorry, I won’t question anything about your personal matters,” she back peddled as she got out of bed. What an i***t she was.

She had previously vowed not to speak or asked about his personal business, and she had made the same mistake this time.

“My child died shortly after coming into this world,” Xavier stated as he held Kiara’s hand. She took a deep breath, not looking back, letting him hold her hand while their backs were turned to each other.

“She suddenly felt pain in her stomach one day. It was her eighth month, and the baby had to be delivered. The Doctor then informed me that my son had died at birth. He didn’t even cry once,” Xavier revealed a harsh part of his past that he had not once shared with anyone. Kiara turned to face him but Xavier’s face was still turned away from her.

“In order to keep Petra happy, I had forgotten about my dead child. I never contemplated having a child again, but then I realized she was never infertile. She lied to me for all those year. I despise thinking about my past. Because of that betrayal, I still feel dirty. And I despise myself...”

“Stop,” Kiara turned him around and hugged Xavier tightly before he cursed himself any more. He remained motionless with his eyes closed. Dean’s breathing was erratic but Venus had been assisting him in calming down. They had been connecting with each other. After a few minutes, the young woman pulled away from him a little, freeing him from her hug, knowing that he had perfect control over his mind and heart.

“I want you to forget everything from that time, Xavier,” she murmured, her hands on his cheeks.

“I want you to be free of the hatred you’ve harbored in your heart,” she continued, her eyes peering deep in his.

“Why?” He asked, his eyes soft and his thoughts focused solely on the woman who was saying something unbelievable.

“Because it is time for you to break away from the darkness that has engulfed you. Three years of suffering had been enough.

But not any longer you. You have to forget everything and move on,” she urged, but he shook her hand and turned away.

“It is impossible.” “Nothing is impossible. I will help you,” she promised, walking back to him and facing him.

“You will help me? How? It is not a normal darkness. It has become a part of who I am. It’s a hell in which I’ve been living and suffocating every time I hear the word mate. I can’t even breathe, yet the darkness keeps me looming.

There’s no getting out of it,” he explained.

“There is a way, Xaiver,” Kiara smiled, holding out her hand.

“You must hold my hand. I’ll lead you out. You will be able to breathe again and start a new life with fresh memories in the light,”

she offered. Xavier gazed down at her hand, which was poised to take his.

“Will you give me the opportunity to do it? Can you give yourself a chance? Are you sure you trust me?” She asked, observing him raise his eyes to meet hers. There was a deadly quiet between them, which intensified the she-wolf’s heartbeat. She couldn’t read his gaze once again. It was lifeless and emotionless. That’s when she felt his hand on hers and a smile appeared on her face. He was willing to believe her! He had given her a chance. i “Then take care of me,” he said, pulling her into a hug, not letting her see his expression. “Now what, Xavier?” Kiara smiled and hugged him back.

“we are going back,”