CHAPTER : 32

Sai kept looking at him, his eyes shows the pain and hurt he was feeling.

Virat on the other hand, not getting any answers from her, removed her hand which was still rested on his chest right above his heart and turned around. For the second time in his life, he did not want to read what her eyes were saying.

First time when he did that, he made an completely unforgivable mistake. And now as well, he was not wanting to read her eyes. There were thoughts coming that he might be making a huge mistake as he made before but still the hurt and pain he is feeling now, has completely blindfolded him and he is not trusting his inner self.

Sai was still looking at him. But now she was looking at his back. She knows that he was hurt and also that she should have told him about how she feels, at the time when he confessed his love and should not have kept him waiting and basically hurting him even more by being with Vir. She can feel that he is on the path of making the same mistake he did before, which led them to drift apart. This has happened before, he got too emotional that he could not even read the her eyes which were constantly trying to make him read them.

Before, he was the only one at fault as he did not trusted her, but today, she was at fault. She should have told him about everything from the starting. If she would have told him about how Vir was acting and how difficult it was for her to get out of the relationship and especially how much she loves him, then he would not have been this broken and hurt.

That day she kept her silence because she promised to not to speak anything for the well being of her aai and Devi tai and that her silence did broke her relationship, but today, she knows that if she again kept silence, her relationship will again be broken and this time, she will not be able to mend it.

She looked at Virat thinking what to speak and how to speak. Imagining the consequences of her silence, her voice has left her body. She was afraid to spend her life without him. She was afraid that she will lose him again.

Sai: ek minute Virat, meri baat suniaye.

Virat still facing his back towards her, listened to her words. He don't want to listen to her. His emotions were not allowing him to listen to her. He was making the same mistake again. He knew he was making the same mistake again he did six years ago, but he was too hurt to even think properly.

Sai knew that he was too emotional right now that he wouldn't want to listen to her, just like old times, but she cannot let him leave without even giving her a chance to speak. She was not ready to live a life without him and she was selfish enough to make him listen to her and keep him in her life, even if that means that she has to force him to be with her, as she cannot go through the pain and feelings she has gone through in the last six years again.

Virat: mujhe kuch nahi sunna hai Sai.

Sai: bas ek baar meri baat toh sun lijiye.. ek baar yeh toh jaan lijiye ki meine aaisa kyu kiya.

He faced her and said to her in all angry and frustrated tone.

Virat: nahi janna hai mujhe kuch. Or kya kahogi tum? Mujhe tumhari koi bhi explanation nahi sunni hai. In fact  mujhe tumhari koi baat hi nahi sunni hai. Mein ja raha hu yaha se.

He again turned around and took a step away from her. Sai was already started to feel pain in her heart seeing him go away. She has decided that she will do anything for him to stop and even if that means that she has confess her feelings to him right now at this place, this early in the morning.

Sai: yeh bhi nahi sunna ki mein aapse  PYAAR KARTI HU!?

There she said it, emphasizing more on the last words.

As soon as the words left Sai's mouth, Virat froze at his spot. He took a second to process what she just said. But still he could not believe her words. He already knew that she has some feels for him when he found that photo of him but he was taken aback by her all of the sudden confession. He spun around to face her once again. His day was not get any more confusing for him. He was confused. He was not able to understand what is happening right now?

"Firstly, the lady standing in front of him ignored him and his feelings completely despite having feelings for him and got engaged to someone else and now on a random day, she is saying that she is in love with him?! And is she still engaged to that Vir guy??? Ahhh why women are so difficult and confusing to understand?" He thought to himself.

Sai looked at his face which was only showing the shock and confusion on his face and the eyes that are staring at her for the last six minutes. She just admitted her feeling which she has for him and he did not even utter a single word and is keep on staring her.

'Isn't that what he wanted? He wants to confess my feelings to him.. right?' she thought to herself. She took a deep breath and decided to break this ice because she knew that the man standing right in front of her, the man whome she loves with all she has , was too shock by her sudden confession to even speak.

Sai: ab kya statue ban ke khade hai? Kuch bole ge bhi? Aaise toh bade gabbar bante phirte hai, toh aaj iss gabbar ka muh kyu band hai?? Kuch toh boliye?

Sai looked at him hoping that he will speak something, but he didn't. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes. She sat on the bench and looked towards the sky, her eyes still closed. She was here in the park to get relaxed and to gather some peace in her in the first place but now she is here waiting for a reply from the person who has gotten into some kind of shock by her sudden confession. And this waiting was making her more anxious and stressed.

Virat came back from his thoughts and looked at her who was sitting looking up at the sky with her eyes still closed. He was confused, he still is. He has to get the answers of his questions going in his mind. He sat down near her, their body nearly touching on their sides.

Virat: sai tum toh aaise react kar rahi ho ki jaise saari galti meri hi hai. Tumhe yaad hai na, tum abhi bhi uss Vir se engaged ho, tum abhi bhi uski finacèe ho? Tumne bhale hi apni feelings confess ki ho par tum abhi bhi kisi or ki hi ho.

' Is he really blaming me for believing some random scenarios and not even letting the other person  a chance to explain? Isn't he was the one who was ignoring me? How could he blame me?' she thought to herself. She opend her eyes and looked directly in his direction. Her eyes full of anger created by frustration which was created by him. She turned to face him. Her body and face completely facing him.

Virat backed a little when she shot a look at him. Her eyes shows anger and frustration and he knows that somewhere he is the one responsible for it. He also turned and face her completely.

Sai: Really?? Aapko itni deer baad yeh hi sujha kehne ke liye? Aapko kya lagta hai ki mein aaise ladki hu ki jo kisi or ke naam ke Ring pehen ke kisi or ke saath rahegi?? BOLIYE!!!

Virat shook his head from right to left , his eyes wide. He was now afraid of what was to come. He is now realising that he should have  rephrased his sentence properly.

Sai: agar aapki yaad dasht kamjor ho gai hai na toh mein aapko bata du, ki meine itne din aapko sab samjhane ki koshis ki par aap mujhe ignore kar rahe the. Vo aap the jo mujhe ek baar bhi bolne ka mauka nahi de rahe the or ab aap mujhpe yeh ilzam laga rahe hai ki yeh sab meri galti hai?

Virat: sai meri baat toh suno...

He tried to calm her down but he was cut in between before he could even complete his sentence.

Sai: nahi, aap meri baat suniye. Meine aapko apni feelings issiliye nahi batai kyuki meine pehle uss rishte se Azad hona chahati thi. Mein vo rishta khatam karna chahati thi. Or uss rishte se nikal pane mein mujhe itna time lag gaya. Kher vo sab baad ki baat hai, mein aapko apni feeling us party wale din se batane ki koshish kar rahi hu, par aap hai ki meri baat hi nahi sun rahe hai.

Virat did not listened to what she said after her first sentence. ' she broke off her engagement with Vir??' he got excited after knowing that it was hard for him to concentrate on anything else she said to him.

Virat: tumne apni engagement tod di? Mere liye? Vir se?

Sai closed her eyes and used every bit of her body cell to control herself from tackling him down on the ground. She knows that she loves him, but sometimes he got on her nerves so bad that it takes everything inside her to control herself from saying or doing anything which she will regret in future.

She was so frustrated by the way Virat was asking her stupid questions and not even letting her complete.  She took a deep breath and opend her eyes, looking right into his.

Sai: Mr. Virat Chavan, mein apne hosho awaj mein kehti hu, ki meine apni engagement Mr. Vir Oberoi ke saath aapke liye hi todi hai, kyuki mein aapse pyaar karti hu, pechle saath salo mein meine aapse pyaar kiya hai.....

She was again stopped in between by Virat but this time he did not speak anything, instead he grabbed her hands, make her stand on her feet, pulled her close to him, his hands on her waist and her face and he smashed his lips on hers.

Sai was taken aback by his sudden action but she did response to the kiss. All her frustration and anger gone and only love left in her heart which will never left her heart. She loves him and now he also knows that.

They broke the kiss but we're still close to each other. They joined their heads together and looked into each other's eyes. They have waited so long to be with each other and now they know that no one can stop them from being with eachother. They love the other person so much and they will do anything to spend their lives together.

Virat: I Love You...Miss.Sai Joshi

Sai: I Love You too Mr. Virat Chavan.