Chapter 49 : I need to stop doubting myself.

Chapter 49 : I need to stop doubting myself.

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"Just give me anything, any answer." Our annoying teacher said to me over and over again as I sat there, awkwardly gawking at her.

If I do give her any answer though, she'll realize that it was a waste of time and I'll embarrass myself further than I have because the answer is probably wrong.

Why can't teachers leave us alone? Like, seriously, I told you I don't know the fucking answer.

"What, nothing came to your mind?" She asked again and I wished the ground would swallow me whole right now.

If something came onto my mind, it's already gone because she's increasing my anxiety and testing my patience right now.

I shook my head no and she nodded before proceeding to ask someone else.

Derek per usual knew the answer but that wasn't my problem. The main problem was, I knew the answer too but was too afraid to say it.

I need to stop doubting myself.

"It was very easy, why do you like to act stupid?" Ethan said from next to me, teasing me.

I threw Ethan my most mastered disgusted face yet, "You're not smart at all, atleast I'm acting."

"Fuck you." Ethan smiled at me and I snorted.

"I wouldn't choose you." I shrugged and Ethan gasped.

"Alright, I'm offended now!" Ethan said, perhaps a little too loudly and when I got ready to reply, the teacher beat me to it.

"Stop talking!" She suddenly screamed, glaring at us, and Ethan got so startled, I nearly jumped from my seat laughing.

Rose suddenly whispered to us from behind us, "Why does she assume that we want to learn the last day before Christmas break?"

"Exactly." I muttered back, sighing as I checked the time again. Seven more minutes. I guess I can handle that.

Not only is this the last class, it's also the last day before Christmas break, and this bitch expects us to actually be active.

I know it's rude and very disrespectful to call teachers names, but this damn one gets on my nerves.

When the ball rang, Ethan, Rose, Laurel and I looked at each other, grinning that it's finally over and quickly made a move to get up and leave class.

As we walked outside of class in search for the rest of the boys, Ethan asked me, "Can you go out with us or you still don't know?"

I laughed, "Yes, I'm going."

Ethan clapped his hands and I gave him a weird look along with Laurel.

"You know, the only reason I'm going out with y'all is because you've been nice all week and you surely deserve to see my face outside of school for an extra treat." I said as sassily as I possibly can and all three of Laurel, Rose, and Ethan gave me disgusted looks.

I just rolled my eyes back at them, "I really need to use the bathroom, I'll see you guys today?"

"Bye Oreo." Ethan waved at me happily and I laughed.

"Aaron will kill you." I said back as I walked to the restroom and then laughed again as I heard Ethan mimic me to the girls.

I was on my period unfortunately which meant I spent a good time in the bathroom. Half of it panicking because I couldn't find any pads at first.

When I came back outside, pretty much the hallways were empty for the most part, but alot of students were still here, while the others outside were screaming their happiness to the wind.

Our bathrooms were down the hall from the cafeteria, so in other words, they were a little far away from the main door which made me sigh. I'm tired and just want to leave this hell hole for some days. Is that seriously too much to ask for?

As I walked around the hallways with my shoulders slumped, I didn't expect that my entire day would have to be ruined.

I crossed a corner and suddenly came face to face with Brad which made me instinctley gulp in fear and back away.

There were a few kids down the hall but I doubt they can see anything going on here, but still I knew Brad wouldn't do anything to me in front of them.

He wouldn't do anything in general after Aaron's extreme warnings, we only share English together, and he changed his seat to the furthest away from me due to Aaron's commands I assume.

Brad didn't say anything, he just sighed upon seeing me, and then walked away past me.

But even as I heard his footsteps inching away, I felt a little anxiety rile up in me.

I also felt his hands roaming my body again, remembering exactly what that was like, and I made a quick move to the door.

When I finally made it outside of school, I kind of wasn't in my head, I was just focusing on not having a panick attack, but instead, reminding myself that it's over, I'm fine, and that I've seen him several times after the incident in class and it wasn't bad.

I decided that it was best to walk somewhere where there aren't many people crowding the area, and try to breath and calm myself down.

I looked up a breathing exercise online, and it seemed to work sometimes, when the anxiety hasn't hit its highest level.

"What's going on, I saw you from there." Aaron suddenly said and I opened my eyes, standing up straight from leaning on the wall, as Aaron pointed at his right direction.

"Nothing." I smiled, heaving a little.

"Are you having an anxiety attack?" Aaron asked, looking concerned as he came closer until he was face to face with me.

I looked up to his face, in love with his height, as I said, "No, not really, just almost."

Aaron nodded, "You're alright." He smiled at me and somehow I found comfort in his smile.

I nodded as I grabbed my backpack from the floor and swung it on my shoulder.

"Let's go." I said but Aaron's hand shot out and he placed it on my shoulder, stopping me.

"Did something happen?" Aaron said and I gazed at his eyes, their shade looking a lot lighter with the sun.

They're so damn beautiful.

"I just," I decided to tell Aaron, nothing really happened after all, "I just ran into Brad accidentally, and, you know.."

Aaron's hand suddenly shot back and he turned his body, glaring at the school gates, "Did he do anything or say something?"

"No no, calm down!" I exclaimed, "He quickly walked past me, I just had a little moment, it's all good."

Aaron looked at me and sighed as he nodded his head.

Then he did something that got me nearly shaking from the thrill only, he walked all the way close to me and placed both of his hands on my face and stared into my eyes deeply.

"You're so fucking strong, you know that right?" Aaron said and I could barely catch my breath as I stared into his eyes, trying to distract myself from his soft touch, that spread goosebumps all around my body.

"You went through something horrible, but you managed to deal with it, you had to see him in class multiple times and yet you pulled yourself together, you're so strong." Aaron said so sternly, I took every single word he said to heart.

"Honestly, thank you." I whispered, "You're always there for me, and you really helped me with this entire thing, it means alot Aaron, really."

Aaron grinned at me, and I hoped he would just kiss me.

I want to kiss him so badly.

Aaron smiled at me and said, "Let's go."

I smiled back and we walked hand in hand to his car.

It's nice holding Aaron's veiny hands.

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A/N

Two updates in two days! Who is Sania we dont know her nor claim her anymore

We only claim people who update consistently

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~Sania xx