20- Jealous

Bella's POV

I was awoken by a striking pain in my stomach, I forgot that my period was starting today. It hurts so bad I don't even want you go to work, I'm the type of person who becomes a crying monster during her period.

The cramps hurt so bad and I feel like I'm gonna die, these are one of the downsides of being a girl. I can't even stand from the floor which I rolled onto.

"Honey are you ok?" My mom asked as she stepped into my room. I looked at her as tears rolled down my face.

"Oh my gosh, is it that time of the month? You don't have to got out work today" My mom said, lifting from the floor to my bed.

"I have to or I won't have enough money to buy the computer" I said, weakly.

"It's fine, just tell one of the girl to help you" My mom suggested.

"It's fine, I just need a ride to work" I told her, attempting to stand from the bed, but she held me back.

"You're staying here"

"It's fine, a little exercise will work" I said, standing from the bed. I picked my bag and walked out of the. I bit my lips trying to hold back the tears, why does it have to be so hard to be a girl?

My dad drove me to the diner, I walked into the diner avoiding the weird glances people were throwing towards me. I know I look like a monster with my bloodshot eyes and messy hair but do they really have to make it obvious.

I looked around for Ashton, but didn't find him. Maybe he isn't coming today.

I rushed to my duty post and started serving the drinks and coffees.

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Today is the most horrible day of my life.

You say that every time. My horrible brain reminded, and it wasn't wrong. I've been trying to act normal in the eyes of everyone and its not working. I've smiled to the extent that when ever I feel tears well up in my eyes due to the pain, my mouth automatically curves in to a smile.

I excused myself and went to the staff room to fix myself up. I sat on the floor, hugged my knees to my chest and buried my face in between my knees. The pain was so excruciating and I felt like crying.

I sobbed and hugged my knees even closer to my body, I should have just stayed at home.

"Bella? Are you ok?" Matt asked. I lifted my head up and looked at him. He's wearing a white shirt and blue jeans knickers, with blue snickers.

"I'm fine, it's nothing" I replied. "You're the crying, is it Ashton?" He asked. Why the heck would he think that.

"It's not Ashton, I'm just... It's cramps" I said.

"Oh...so it that time of the month, come on let me take you home" He said.

"I don't...Fine" He snaked his arm around my waist while my hand was on his shoulder and we walked out of the staff room. I'm not really comfortable with this position, but I don't think I'll be able to walk.

We walked to his car, I sat in the backseat while he was in the driver's seat. I lay on the chair and slept.

"Wake up" I heard Matt call, waking me from my sleep.

I stood from the chair and got out of the car, by now the pain had reduced but it was still evident.

"Does it still hurt?" Matt asked, snaked his arm around my waist. "No, it doesn't I can walk on my own" I said, and removed his hand from my waist.

I walked to the front door of the house trying to balance myself. I opened the door and walked in, mom and dad had gone to work, Mason was hanging out with his best friend so the house was empty.

I walked to my room and flopped on my bed, all I wanted to do was sleep.

"If you need anything thing tell me" Matt said sitting on my chair at the corner of my room.

I nodded and closed my eyes hoping to go to sleep soon.

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I woke when I felt soft lips on my cheek, that has to be Ashton. I smiled and turned to face him, but I was met by the familiar caramel coloured face of Matt. His lips were so close to mine, my smile was immediately replaced with a frown.

I wanted to move away but his hands were holding me back, he leaned closer to my face. I shut my eyes hoping some miracle would happen.

I heard a thud and someone groaning. I opened my eyes and stood up from my bed only to find Ashton punching Matt.

"Please stop!" I yelled pushing them apart. "Matt, please go" I said, holding Ashton from attacking when Matt kissed my cheek.

"Are you gonna explain?" Ashton asked. I pulled him to the bed and forced him to sit down.

"He only brought me home because I wasn't doing well" I said, avoiding eye contact with Ashton. He seemed really angry.

"Really? Then why did you guys get that close? If I didn't come that son of a bitch would have kissed you" Ashton said, I hit his arm.

"You forgot our agreement" I reminded him hoping he would calm down.

"Do you expect me to respect you when you can't be faithful to me?!" He raised his voice, he's never yelled this loud before.

"Ashton, he kissed my cheek and I thought it was you so I turned to him, when I saw it wasn't you I tried to push him but held me back" I explained.

"So you felt good when he kissed you?" He asked furiously.

"No, I mean I thought it was you. But when I saw it was him I immediately had an I'll feeling inside of me" I explained.

"Why did you let him inside your room?" He asked.

"Because he offered to take me home and I was really hurting" I said.

"Next time you need anything tell me, is that clear?" He asked like he was scolding a kid who stole candy.

"I'm no kid who you can push around, why do you despise Matt so much?" I asked, but instead he ignored me and stormed out of my room.

This is even more confusing than I expected, it's the first time we're fighting as a couple and I hate it. He's so confusing and hard to understand, I've been trying to decipher him and know what is in his pretty little brain but it's too hard. He's so unpredictable.

"You know, a relationship isn't sunshine and butterflies, especially with a guy like Ashton. Your dad was once like that, but we were able to overcome it and I believe you two can too" Mom said as she walked over to me and sat beside me.

"But how, mum? He's mad at me and I don't know what to do" I said.

"He's angry because he feels like your being unfaithful to him. Ashton is a cool guy and it's good he told you how he feels, I suggest you should talk things out with him it's the best way to over come what going on right now, it's only a phase in your relationship" My mom said, playing with the throw pillow on my bed.

"What if I'm too scared to ask him?"

"He's your boyfriend you have to do it or he'll think you're actually being unfaithful to him. Communication in really good in a relationship" She replied.

"Ok, I'll talk to him tomorrow" I said.

"Goodnight" I said as my mom retired to her room.

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It's been a day, twenty four hours and Ashton and I haven't talked. Why? You may ask, well I got too scared to ask him If it's ok for me to talk to him and he's isn't approaching me either.

Today I'm walking down the street in San Bernardino, just 'cause I haven't gone on a walk in quite a while.

I walked into the local park and took a sit on one of the benches. I kept feeling bad whenever I saw couples it reminded me that I still need to fix my relationship, something I'm really scared to do. Don't get me wrong I really want to fix our problem, but it's super hard when I'm scared I'm gonna say something bad.

"Bella?" The familiar voice I've been dying to hear for the past day. I stood up from the bench and looked around for my the person until I spotted him just a few feet away.

It's now or never.

I was taken aback by his next action, it surprised the hell out of me. He hugged me and kissed my cheek. Yesterday he refused to talk to me now he's pretending like nothing happened.

"I'm really sorry for my behavior the other day, I was really jealous and angry. I should have never said those word to you, do you forgive me?" He asked, I couldn't stop blinking. He just apologized for nothing.

"You don't need to be sorry, yes I forgive you" I said, he pulled me in for a kiss and hugged me before pulling away.

"Thank you" He muttered, as we sat on the bench together.

"Why do you hate Matt?" I asked. His expression immediately changed into a furious one.

"I don't wish to talk about it now" He said and kissed my cheek. "Let's go for a walk around the pack maybe buy a gelato" He said with a smile.

"What's that?" I asked.

"It's ice cream in Italian" He said, flirtatiously.

"Since when do you speak Italian?" I asked, looking at him quizzically.

"I thought you were gonna like it" He said.

"I do, it's just unlike you" I replied. He laughed in return, grabbed my hand and pulled me to the ice cream man.

I wonder when I'd be able see to comprehend you, Ashton.

A/N

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