Kooks

Forgive the boring nature of this chapter. But I met these boys in a particular order and I just want you to trace my triumph, from trash to class...

This is all the fucking up I did my first semester in Uni, as a college girl.

So, Kooks is the first guy who twisted my head round when I got to University. Which is funny if I think about it now he is ignorant, immature and pathetic and I probably was just horny and desperate and couldn't wait to rub my pussy against the first person who gave me attention. I got introduced to him literally maybe the second day of orientation by a former acquaintance from high school. Of which the thing is that former acquaintance was somebody I saw in high regard so I thought since he was cool then maybe Kooks would also be cool if it makes sense.

I met him, he got my number and that night we texted like crazy I really put effort cause I wanted to impress him. Although I'm a horrible texter, I tried. The third day I met him in person we went at the faculty since we did the same program. I still remember I had my friend Royal beautifulness and I dumped my friend for him. That was my first makeout session at University ever. And it wasn't bad, but I really had to pee badly and the boys dorms don't have toilets for girls so I had to cut it short. We kissed a bunch of times but what would turn me off was that I sometimes had to teach him one of our modules which was Chinese. He would always say I looked prettier when I was explaining school to him, but if I'm being honest, I'm the type of girl who wants to be under her men, so me educating him, was a turnoff for me.

We would always end up making out but if I'm being honest, I would hate myself and him after and I wouldnt want to see his face, i kinda treated him like my boy toy, therr, i finally said it. I guess I was always so turned off because he was the first guy ever I did this no strings thing with and frankly speaking, I like to sexually express myself within the confines of a healthy relationship.

One day after I had moved onto campus, we made out in my room. I kicked him out after that. He said he felt like I had treated him like shit and he refused to come over again. He said if I wanted to see him I would have to go to his room. And frankly speaking, I'm not gonna walk some distance over campus just to get a kiss. Anyways what really ended things with Kooks is that we did stuff early, he thought he knew me, thought i was his prize , he thought he had won the lotto and he thought he cpuld control me, but if im being honest, i did not come here to be grounded.

One day, I wore this white short skirt to class, for the first time. That skirt was my favourite and I had big plans for it. He wasn't pleased , and he walked up to me and he said, so 'do you really think you're wearing clothes right now, I was like nigga fuck off and boom, never again!"

We didn't talk for a whole while. Then one day, a few weeks later he sent me the longest chain message I had ever seen I think it went something like:

"Hey , I wanted to reach out and sincerely apologize for my previous message about your outfit. I realize now that my tone was harsh and judgmental, and for that, I'm truly sorry. My intention was to come from a place of concern, but I understand that my approach was misguided and offended you. Please know that I respect your autonomy and choices, and I should have expressed myself with kindness and empathy instead of criticism. If you're willing, I'd like to make amends, but if not, I completely understand, and I hope you can forgive me.Even if you don't reply it's okay with me but I just wanted to say I'm sorry shaa coz haaa I really felt that I offended you whilst I thought kuti I was helping anyways I've got no right to judge you so sorry . Either way, I wish you all the best."

Bullshit. I didn't respond. He called me once. I didn't pick up, and we have never talked till ever.