Chapter 59

This feels like the night shift that never ends. We have only been on this night shift for three hours so far. Stephanie keeps staring at me and when I look back at her she shakes her head at me and then pretends to busy herself. I am going to buy her ice cream, but I'm not going to indulge her fantasy of me and Kent. It's so crazy and ridiculous.

I don't need to get involved with any man. Samuel already took me through a whole entire tornado and I do not want to experience that again. What hurts the most is how easily he just dropped me. Did I even mean anything to him at all? Words mean nothing. Actions mean everything.

I feel so stupid for actually believing that Samuel and I had something real. If we had something why wouldn't he fight for me? Why would he give up so easily if he truly loved me? I shake my head and take a deep breath. I need to clear my thoughts. I've got a long night ahead of me and patients to take care of. They need and deserve the best care that I can possibly give them. Therefore, I need to keep myself in a calm state of mind.