sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm so sorry

My head is filled with apologies

Some are empty

Some are full

Some I wish were something they weren't

Sometimes I can't tell

And sometimes I don't want to know

I don't know what else

To say except I'm sorry

So I keep saying it

Because maybe you could understand

If I said it enough

Please forgive me.

I sit here and write poems

So I can see the words,

Not just feel them

Bouncing around in my head.

The only thing I can catch is

"IM SORRY"

over and

over

and over

again.

And you,

I'm sorry for not loving you

Anymore because I have no

Idea who you've become. You've

Molded to the shape of another

Being.

And you. Oh, God.

You,

I'm sorry for fucking up your life.

I'm sorry for loving you when I should

Have stopped a long time ago.

I'm sorry for bringing it up and

Throwing it into your face

When you're just trying to live your life.

I'm sorry you hurt.

I'm sorry you're the thing that hurts me.

I'm sorry you'll never understand.

I'm sorry I get mad at you.

I'm sorry I get scared of being lonely

So the first thing I think of is you.

I'm sorry none of these things are really

My fault but I'm

Still

Fucking

Apologizing.

But I'm still sorry

For messing up your life.

For meddling in things I shouldn't.

I'm sorry for existing.

I'm sorry for everything I do.

I'm sorry you ever met me.

I'm sorry I ever met you.

I'm sorry you have to put up with me.

Sorry. I'm not trying to be dramatic...

I'm sorry I'm sorry im sorry im so so so sorry im sorry I;m sorry im sorry im sorry I am sorry for everything

I don't know what else to do

I don't know what else to say

I don't know how to make it better

I don't know

Because I could say it in a

Million different

Languages or

Sing it in a million different

Voices or hear it

On a loop for lifetimes

But they would all mean

The exact same thing.

All I seem to be able to do is

Mess things up and make life

More complicated.

I never wanted to end up this way.

I never thought I would end up this way.

You have

To believe me.

But if I know myself,

I am going to keep apologizing

And saying "I'm sorry"

Until the day I die

Because

I am sorry

For everything

And im especially sorry if I've made you sick of hearing the words

I'm just sorry