gloom's hangover - 9:02 PM

Patti got me thinking,

thinking about how hard it is to write

about nothing. but even

nothing counts as something. so,

I can't let my craft waste

away.

why do I always let this poison in

my cranium take away

the only way I can be

honest with myself?

I should not let it consume

me so.

and yet after weeks of

this self-inflicted punishment, I have

awakened from this cursed slumber

and found myself yet again in this wretched demon's

clutches.

how dare I mistake this comfortable numbness as happiness?

how dare!

and now I sit, quietly reveling in the success of

conquering the beast for now

trying with all my might

to not allow the looming threat

of a future battle

conquering me in turn.