'Un'yours

The first time we met, i could see how you made everyone around you so happy.

It made me smile, i liked how the way you are always so blissful

The longer i knew you, the more you felt special, i didnt know what i was feeling but i ignored it and went on

Days passing by, the bigger my fellings for you grew, i knew i had a crush on you, but for our sake i ignored it.

And When i was blindfolded,  i was wandering to somewhere and suddenly someone hugged me, i was startled at first and as if by instincts i knew it was you and hugged you back. I probobly looked so stupid but i cherished the moment

Now i keep looking in your direction, i cant help it you looked so cute, handsome, happy.  I wanted to hug you again, But again i ignored it for our sake.

I denied the fact that my feelings for you grew, i wanted you soo badly, i wanted to tell you i love you, but... One fact stoped me from doing it and its destroying me everytime

Seeing you now fills me with happiness and sadness, i couldnt bare it anymore, it hurts so much i wanted it gone.

I love you, i hate you, i want you, but i cant, we could be togheter, but its not right

Its confusing.

I dream of a day where i was yours, holding me gently by my side walking down the park never being jugded

But it will never happen...

Knowing i am not what i imagined myself as.

If only you knew when you were happy

I was dying.

-leantykris