When He's Depressed

Leo's POV

I couldn't get out of bed. No matter what I thought, I thought of y/n's face, her words, just her. Meditating hurt, everything hurt because I had been stupid, and gotten scared.

I was scared that I was getting in too deep, that this would happen, but it was far more painful in reality.

I don't think I had ever realized just how much y/n and I had loved each other until I had ended it with her. And by doing this, I had essentially ended myself. Because I couldn't stop. I can't stop loving her. And she won't take me back.

Raph's POV

Hitting didn't help. Eating didn't help. Nothing helped, but staying still in my hammock and bawling my eyes out. Y/n was everything to me, still was, and I had messed up big time.

I had realized that she was trying to figure out why there was tension in our relationship now, but then I had thought she was breaking up with me. I don't even know why I thought that. Y/n is my everything, and I had pretended that she wasn't worth anything to me. For Shredder's sake, I called her a toy! Who else would see a giant turtle? I am an idiot, that much is easy to see. I broke her heart, and by doing that, I broke mine too. I broke me, and the small scratches on my wrists proved that.

Donnie's POV

All of my inventions sat still. Nothing moved, nothing made noise. Nothing was doing anything. Everything was shut down.

I was curled up in a corner of my lab. I hadn't moved in two weeks, except to use the bathroom and get water. I was really, really skinny.

April refused to talk to me, saying that I was an idiot and I needed space. I had no idea why I had kissed her. Maybe it was anger. But deep down, I know that I had wanted to kiss her. And I hadn't felt anything at all.

Y/n was the only one for me, and I destroyed her. She wanted love and trust and I gave to her. And then I took it all away. And I would never be happy ever again.

Mikey's POV

Pizza was useless. Video games had y/n's high scores on them still. Skateboarding did nothing, except get me hurt.

I had been a fiend (I think that's right, I learned it from Donnie), and destroyed y/n. I had been scared that she was going to leave me, and so I tried to end it so it wouldn't hurt. Big mistake.

Y/n is my whole world, I see that now. I had done the worst thing in her eyes: I had lied to her, more than once. She thought I didn't love her, but I do. I would gladly die for her any day, to prove it.

That's why I was suiting up again, going solo to take out different villains every night. I called myself 'The Destroyer'. I destroyed both of our hearts.