44 - true confessions

Dominic

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That was not intentional.

I look beside me at a sleeping and naked Amina. She was so beautiful. I let out a sigh, rubbing my hands over my face. I got out of bed, throwing on some clothes before making my way out of the suite.

I didn't know where I was going but I needed time to think. I sat in the resort lobby trying to clear my head.

That was not how I wanted to tell Amina I loved her.

Do I love her?

As of lately, she's been the only thing on my mind. The thing that brings me peace and seeing her is what I look forward to. I think it's safe to say I do love her, but I was upset that it came out before I was ready to say it.

I always thought the term making love was just that, a term. But last night, I made love to Amina whether I intended to or not. Thinking you love someone and then actually feeling that love are two completely different things that nobody warned me about.

I love Amina.

I sigh taking a seat on the bench in the corridor. With our history, she deserves a proper declaration of love, not something that slipped out at the moment. I pull out my phone to call Andre to see if I can get some advice from him.

"What?" He asks tiredly after the third ring.

"Nice to hear from you too."

"Dude what do you want." He chuckles tiredly.

"I told Amina I love her."

"Congratulations dude! I knew it." He cheers, arising out of his slumber.

"Is it a good thing though? I wasn't ready to say it. It came out during sex."

He chuckles, "Isn't that just more proof that you love her?"

"No."

"Wait you left her alone in the room?"

"She's sleeping."

"She'll wake up and freak out! You don't abandon them after your first time together. I've seen it happen in every romance movie and all are leads to is misunderstandings and unnecessary fights."

He chuckles, biting back a laugh. "And how often are you watching romance movies."

"Hey! I'm taking notes for my relationship. Now get back in there before you mess things up."

"Alright, I'm going. I'll see you later."

"I hope not." He chuckles before hanging up the phone.

I get up from my seat, before making my way back to the room. When I opened the door Amina was already awake, sitting up using her phone. She looks relieved to see me and smiles. "Thought you ran out on me."

I shake my head, taking a seat at the end of the bed, facing away from her. I feel her come up from behind me, wrapping her arms around my neck from behind as she left kisses on my jaw. She pulls away noticing my lack of response, "Are you okay?"

I nod, "Just a lot on my mind."

"Is this about last night? We don't have to talk about that yet if you don't want to." She asks taking a seat beside me.

"It was just sex, nothing to talk about." I reply nonchalantly without realizing what I have just done.

She scrunches up her brows in confusion, "What?"

"What?" I ask back.

"Just sex? Are you fucking serious?"

"Okay wait I didn't mean it like that." I start to defend, wishing I could take back my words.

She scoffs, getting up from the bed and throwing on whatever article of clothing was nearby. "Go to hell, Dominic."

My eyes widen, "What? What is happening right now?" I ask, my voice laced with concern.

"You can't tell me you love me and then say last night was just sex. Fuck off!" She says angrily as she throws her things into a bag. "This is exactly what I was afraid of with you!"

"Woah, okay give me a chance to explain. Where are you going?" I ask. She ignores me and attempts to open the door to leave but I stop her. "Amina wait!  Don't leave."

"I'm getting as far away from you as I can!" She exclaims trying to pry the door open.

"Let's just talk."

"No! It was just sex, right? There's nothing to talk about."

"Of course it wasn't just sex!" I sigh, "Amina just come back inside."

"Let me out Dominic or I swear I'll scream." She threatens as she looks up at me with glossy eyes. My heart hurt knowing I had hurt her again.

"Ami-"

"Help! Help!" She starts yelling, gaining concerned looks from people passing by in the hall. I let go of the door, allowing her to escape.

"Amina!" I call after her as she speed walks down the hall with only her duffle bag. I let out a frustrated groan before slamming the door shut. I take a seat on the bed, burying my head in my hands. "You idiot!" I groan to myself.

Suddenly my phone began ringing, it was Andre. I let out a sigh before answering. "What?"

"Did I not tell you this would happen? You need to watch more movies Dominic. " He says.

"Shut up."

"I'm coming over." He says before hanging up the phone.

A few minutes later the door opens and Andre frowns at me. "Tell me what happened."

"I told her it was just sex. But I didn't mean that! I panicked."

He lets out a sigh before walking over to me. He stood in front of me, analyzing me before punching me in the stomach. I let out a groan as I bent over in agony. "What the hell man!" I ask in pain.

"I had sex with my girlfriend for the first time last night. So I should be in bed right now, having a fancy breakfast and more awesome sex. But I can't because you decided to be an idiot! So you deserve that punch, and many more!" He exclaims.

I nod, "Fair enough. Congratulations man." I sit myself up, leaning against the foot of the bed.

"You need to go find her and tell her how you feel you idiot."

"She won't want to see me right now."

"When has that ever stopped you guys? You always find your way back to each other. So go find her so we don't end this trip on a sour note."

I smile sadly at my best friend, "Thanks for abandoning your girlfriend to talk some sense into me."

He chuckles reaching out to do our handshake. "It'll be the first and last time. Now go."

I nod, getting up and making my way down the hall. I start exploring the resort, looking for anywhere she might be.

But after 20 minutes of wandering around, I found nothing. I took a seat at the hotel reception with my head buried in my hands once again. She wasn't answering her phone and she wasn't with Halle. I had only hoped she didn't fly home on her own.

"Dominic?" A deep voice asks, making me look up to match the voice to a face.

Julius Ashford, stood in front of me, with a gorgeous woman by his side. I frowned at him, "Are you stalking me man?"

He chuckles, "I'm on vacation with my wife. Stella, this is Dominic Taylor, Joseph Taylor's son. Dominic, this is my wife Stella."

Stella smiles, "Nice to meet you Dominic."

I nod at her, "Same here." I turn to Mr. Ashford again, "If you don't mind I'm kind of in the middle of something."

He nods, "Of course." He turns to Stella, "Why don't you go check out the pool? Give me a minute."

She nods before walking away and taking a seat beside me making me groan. "I meant I wanted to be alone."

"What's going on? Is it your father?" He asks ignoring my complaints.

I scoff, "No, he's the least of my worries right now." I look up at him, unsure if I should disclose my business to this strange man. But I didn't have anything else to lose. "You know the girl I was with when we met?"

He nods, "Oh yes, your date to the gala." He chuckles knowingly, "You screwed things up didn't you?"

I frown at him, "No need to word it like that. But yes, and I'm afraid she flew home. I can't find her anywhere and her phone is off."

"What did you do?"

"I told her I loved her during an intimate moment and then turned around and said it was nothing." He chuckles making me frown. "Glad you find it so amusing."

"My wife did a similar thing to me when we were together. Do you love her?" He asks.

"I do. I was just waiting for the right moment to tell her."

"Why wasn't that the right moment?"

I shrug, "I don't know. Maybe because it wasn't intentional. I just wanted things to be perfect for her. She deserves perfect but now I've messed everything up."

"Not everything can be perfect Dominic. Sometimes things happen a certain way naturally. If you keep waiting for the right time you'll never do it."

I sigh, "Well maybe I shouldn't have done it."

He furrows his brows, "Why do you say that?"

I chuckle bitterly, "Look at where it got me! She hates me for sure now. Our relationship is still fresh, and she's just learning to trust me after my last fuck up." I let out a frustrated sigh, "I've messed everything up."

Julius is quiet for a moment before I notice him nodding. "You're afraid she doesn't love you back." I turn to look at him, surprised by his analysis. "It's understandable. But you can't let the fear of not knowing keep you from telling her how you feel. You have to be loud and proud about it otherwise you're denying yourself."

"But if she doesn't love me back it will truly ruin everything." I admit.

"Don't let it. Wait for her, and give her time to reply. Whether it's days, weeks, or months." He advises, "You said she's learning to trust you again, trust me I know all about that. Just give her time, but let her know how you feel. It'll reassure her and build the foundation of that trust in you."

I look up at him in surprise once again. Who knew Mr. Ashford was a love guru? I nod in agreement, "Thanks, Mr. Ashford."

He nods as he stands up from his seat. "Anytime. I better get back to the misses and you better go find yours."

I smile at him nodding in agreement, "I owe you."

He shakes his head, "Just go get her."

I nod in agreement before rushing off to find Amina. I searched every nook and cranny of the place before heading down to the beach.

As I wandered further down the beach, I spotted her in the distance. She sat on the white sand, wearing denim shorts and a t-shirt she grabbed. Next to her was the bag of the things she took with her. She sat there hugging her knees as she watched the waves crash against the shore as we did last night.

I take a deep breath before walking over and sitting beside her. She doesn't move as I approach her, still staring ahead.

"I'm sorry Amina." I finally say after a few moments.

She doesn't reply, her eyes glossy from crying and her cheeks stained. My chest hurt to see her hurt. "I meant what I said last night. I just didn't mean to say it in that moment." I begin, gaining her attention as she turns and looks at me. "I was afraid of your reaction. To be honest. I wasn't sure if my declaration was premature, or if it would scare you off. That's why I tried to brush it off this morning. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you."

She scoffs, looking away from me. It caught me off guard. "You never do." She begins, her voice edged in frustration. "You never intentionally hurt me but you do Dominic. The simplest things you do can hurt me and I hate that!"

"I'm sorry."

She shakes her head, turning to me. "You don't understand. I hate that you have that kind of power over me. That one slip of the tongue, one misunderstanding can hurt me so badly Dominic." She admits, her voice shaky. I remain silent, as she continues. "I hate that I feel this much for you."

"Why do you hate it?"

"Because it gives you too much power." She admits softly.

"What about you Amina? Do you know how much power you have over me? Loving you..." I pause trying to understand the words that are about to come out of my mouth. "Loving you makes me vulnerable. It's terrifying. You can hurt me just as bad." I admit looking back at her.

"If we're both so afraid then what are we doing?" She asks softly.

I shake my head, realizing what she's indicating. "I love you, Amina. No matter what risk comes with it. Break my heart a million times, end my career, physically hurt me. I don't care, I love you no matter the consequences." She stares at me wide-eyed in shock as her eyes welled with tears. My eyes widen, thinking I've scared her. "You don't need to say it back, whenever you're ready. If you're ready. There's no pressure-" she cuts me off, reaching over and putting her lips on mine.

"I've loved you since our first time." She admits.

My eyes widen in shock as I realize she's referencing our first night together. I smile, pulling her to me once again as our lips collide. The kiss was filled with more than just passion, this time there was love. I couldn't help but feel full of joy.

She loved me too.

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Awww a true declaration of love. ❤️

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