A nightmare roused me, and I rolled over and found myself in an empty bed. Outside, pink light dusted the San Francisco horizon as the sun began to rise. Inside, a fire crackled in a marble hearth. I felt the warmth of both like a living thing inside me. But it wasnât the sun or the fire, it was a spark that hadnât been there before. Julian had promised me the world. Last night was my first glimpse and it would stay with me forever.
The room itself was larger than the entirety of my apartment and furnished with antiques that probably made collectors weep. I drank it in, realizing Iâd been too far gone to notice any of it last night. Memories of yesterday burst through me, and I began to shiver as I recalled the number of times Julian had taken me apartâand put me back together again. The memories stoked that lingering spark into a hungry thrum inside me. I gathered the sheets and hugged them to my body, wondering how dangerous it was to walk around the Rousseaux mansion. The party had started late. Considering it was an orgy, I guessed it was still going.
I could either wait here for Julian to come back to me, or I could seek him out. My legs slipped out of bed, and I stood, dropping the covers behind me. It took me a few minutes to gather my belongings and get my dress zipped up. I was almost to the door when it opened to reveal a complete stranger.
âIâm sorry.â The silver-haired woman stared at me a moment, as though she might blink and find Iâd vanished. âI didnât expect to find anyone in here.â She looked me up and down, a smile forming on her face. âYou must be Thea.â
I swallowed and nodded. It was embarrassing enough to wake up in a huge bed alone. It was somehow worse to be caught doing the walk of shame, especially since it was the first time Iâd ever done it.
âIâm Celia, Julianâs assistant,â she said, continuing into the room. She carried a tray to the other side of the room, cradling it in one arm as she reached for the handle of a French door.
âLet me!â I rushed over to help rather than continue to watch her.
Her nostrils flared slightly as I came close, but she only smiled at my offer to help.
âJulian prefers coffee in the morning. Although he never actually drinks it,â she said. She opened two large French doors with one hand, revealing a small balcony, and placed the tray she carried in her other hand on a stone table. âI didnât realize you had stayed the night. Would you like something? Breakfast?â
âCoffee would be great,â I said quietly.
âUse his cup. Iâll get another.â
âI couldnâtââ
âNonsense. Julian would want me to see to your wishes in his absence.â She sniffed again.
I got the impression she was smelling me. Oh my god, did I smell like sex? Not that weâd had sex! But I had spent most of the night in a state of sheer, sweaty bliss while Julian introduced me to what Iâd been missing.
âOkay.â I bit my lip, somehow feeling even more out of place than when I showed up to the orgy last night. I moved to join her on the balcony and picked up the delicate china cup sheâd brought him.
Her gaze swept over me. âAnd perhaps a change of clothes?â
âYou really donât have to go to so much trouble.â
She waved a hand dismissively. âItâs no trouble. There will be something in Camilaâs room. It might be a bit dated, though.â
âCamila?â
âJulianâs sister,â she told me.
âHis twin.â I felt a surge of curiosity about her. They still kept her things. When had she died? I couldnât ask Celia any one of these questions. âIt wonât upset him to see me in her things?â
Celia tilted her head and studied me for a moment. âHumans can be so thoughtful. Well, some of you can be, but othersâ¦â She forced a smile. âNo, it wonât. Iâm certain Iâll find a dozen items she never wore with the tags still on.â
âIf itâsââ
âIf I might give you a piece of advice,â she interrupted me. âYouâll never survive this family if they think you are weak. If one of them offers you something you want, take it without apology.â
I nodded, feeling my eyes widen at the thought of being expected to take what they offered. âItâs justâ¦â
Celia remained silent, but she radiated an encouraging kindness.
I took a deep breath. âI donât want to be in their debt. I could never pay them back.â
âWho could?â she said with a snort. âYouâre Julianâs guest, so you should be prepared for what that means. But donât worry about all of this.â She gestured to the room around us. âThey have more money than they could spend in an eternity. Objects mean little to them.â
My mouth went dry as I looked back at the room I spent the night in. All I could manage was a small nod.
Celia patted my hand. âLet me see about those clothes and get Julian his cup before he returns.â
Almost instantly, she was at the bedroom door, and I barely caught her in time to ask, âWhere is he?â
âHeâs speaking with his mother. Iâm certain heâll be up here soon.â
I wasnât. It seemed like his mom wanted to talk to him a lot. Even worse, I realized as Celia disappeared into the hall and closed the door behind herself, she probably wanted to talk about me.
After all, I was supposed to be his excuse for avoiding whatever courting ritual these insane Rites were all about. But last night? Last night had complicated things.
My body hummed from how many times weâd complicated things.
It was like Iâd woken up and found myself in a surreal fairy tale. I was dating a vampire. An insanely rich vampire. But I also wasnât dating him. That part still confused me, especially after heâd spent last night giving me orgasm after toe-curling orgasm. Maybe he saw it as part of the payment package for being his decoy. Not that Iâd needed the incentive after what heâd offered me, but it certainly made it easier to put up with him when he was being grumpy.
I shivered in the misty morning, last nightâs dress no match for the weather. Everywhere in San Francisco was near the water, and everywhere near the water was cold. I decided to take Celiaâs word for it and make myself a cup of coffee. I poured from a highly ornate, silver teapot into the delicate, bone china cup. Next to the pot there were a number of folded newspapers from all over the world. I glanced to find Le Monde, Corriere Della Sera, The Guardian, The New York Times, and several that appeared to be written in languages I didnât recognize.
How many languages could he freaking read? He hadnât wasted the last nine hundred years doing nothing. I dug out the crossword from the Times and padded back inside his bedroom with it and my precious coffee.
Iâd been too distracted to appreciate the room last night. Now I felt overwhelmed. Paintings with signatures that made my head spin filled the walls. Books were piled next to the chairs around me and crammed into shelves next to the fireplace. In the corner, a large desk sat covered in papers and notebooks. I put my coffee on the side table and went to look for something to write with. A crossword would distract me from my ever-fraying nerves.
A collection of papers and letters were strewn across the desktop. I resisted the urge to look through his things. I didnât need any more proof that he was out of my league. Reaching for a pen sticking out of a leather wallet, I accidentally got a glimpse of what looked like a bank balance. Except that there was no way it could be because, as far as I knew, numbers didnât go that high. Before I could stop myself, I picked up the checkbook and looked, convinced I was seeing things.
I wasnât. I tossed it back down like it was a snake that might bite.
What was I doing here? I didnât fit into his life, and that had nothing to do with him being a vampire. And everything to do with the balance of our bank accounts. Mine probably had twenty bucks in it. His? I didnât even know what category that number fell into. Not millions. Not billions. I mean, why bother even keeping track?
I took the pen, which turned out to be a Montblanc, of course, and returned to the crossword puzzle. Sipping my much-needed coffee, I tried to concentrate, but Iâd only filled in a few answers when Celia returned.
âThese should fit you, and theyâre brand new, so thereâs no need to worry about Julian,â she added as she laid a sweater and pants across the bed.
I got up, ready to change. Being in an evening gown was only adding to the trippy sensation I felt here. I picked up a creamy sweater and knew from its buttery softness that it had to be expensive. The price on the still-attached tag proved it.
âCashmere,â I murmured. Iâd never felt anything so decadent in my life. No wonder it cost a small fortune.
âWould you prefer something else?â Celia asked, misunderstanding me.
âNo,â I said quickly. I shot her a sheepish grin. âIâve never worn cashmere before. Maybe I shouldnât. What if I spilled something on it?â
âItâs been sitting in a closet for over thirty years,â she told me. âBetter to wear it than to waste it. May I?â She gestured to my dress.
It had been a battle to get the dress zipped, so I nodded.
âHow are you doing?â she asked kindly as she unzipped me and helped me out of the gown. It felt a little weird to be in my underwear in front of her. But since everything about this situation was strange, I tried to shrug it off.
âThis is a lot,â I confessed to her.
Celia placed my gown on the bed and picked up the sweater. When she went to remove the tag, I realized she was going to help me get dressed.
âOh, you donâtâ¦â I trailed off, stopping myself from making the mistake Iâd made earlier.
âGood girl,â she murmured with approval. âYouâre learning.â
She helped slip the sweater over my head.
âYou donât have to help me get dressed,â I said quietly.
âI donât mind.â She adjusted the sweaterâs neckline to fall over my shoulder. âI used to be a ladyâs maid.â
âCamilaâs?â I guessed.
âNo.â She shook her head, sadness glinting in her eyes. âBefore I became a vampire. Since Julian turned me, Iâve worked only for him.â
âOh.â Jealousy I didnât quite understand flared inside me. I did my best to shrug it off as I tugged on the leggings sheâd found me. âUm, I feel a little bad asking this, but when did Camila die?â
The clothing sheâd brought me, while older judging from the tags, was in remarkably good condition and not nearly as old-fashioned as I expected.
âIt was recent,â she admitted in a low voice. âShe was taken from us in the early eighties. Far too young. Iâm afraid the family is still grieving.â
I was wearing the clothes of a woman who had died before I was born. I expected to feel freaked out, but instead, there was only sadness.
âJulian mentioned her,â I said.
âHe did?â Celia sounded surprised.
âJust in passing,â I added quickly. âI didnât want to pry.â
âThatâs wise. The others have had some time to deal with her death, but Julianâ¦â She paused and shook her head. I got the message. It wasnât her place to tell me how he felt about his twinâs death.
âThatâs why he was asleep,â I said to myself, and her mouth fell open. âOh! Itâs really none of my business. I shouldnât be so nosy.â
First his bank balance, and now I was prying into the details of his sisterâs death.
âIâm merely surprised he told you. He can be quiteâ¦secretive,â she said, choosing the final word carefully. âMost vampires guard their private lives.â
âAnd Julian?â I asked, even though I felt I knew the answer.
âHeâs built a fortress around it,â she whispered, passing me some socks. âNo one gets inside.â
âHow did I?â I realized too late that Iâd asked the question out loud.
âI hate to tell you this, but I suspect youâre only at the gates.â She tsked soothingly when my face fell. âDonât fret. Itâs further than he lets most people get.â
I sat down and pulled on the socks. Why had he shared this with me? No wonder she looked surprised. Unlike the others, Celia had to know that this was all an arrangement. She knew that he and I were practically strangers.
âThank you,â I said.
âFor?â
âBeing kind,â I said with a sigh. âI donât think Iâm going to get a very warm welcome from everyone else.â
âSebastian likes you. Not everyone in this house is your enemy.â She regarded me with a look I couldnât quite place. Then, she bent and gathered my dress in her arms. âIâll have this cleaned for you.â
I nodded. She left again, and I made my way back to my crossword, but I found myself too preoccupied to continue it. Iâd been staring at it for five minutes when her words finally sank in. Not everyone was my enemy. That meant that some were, and I was sitting alone and unprotected. I curled my knees to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. Then I stared at the door, wondering what the next vampire to walk through it would be: friend or enemy?
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