âYou arenât really going to go,â Olivia said, taking a seat on my bed and folding her legs gracefully under her. I was a little jealous of how smoothly her dancerâs body made her every movement.
She looked out of place amongst my shabby bargain-store possessions. Her own room, while not much larger, was decorated in shades of pale pink. There were even framed pictures on her walls and curtains on the window. Iâd never bothered with my own space. My bedroom had no windows. It was just four boring walls. No pictures. No matching pink bedding set. It was just a place to keep my things. With the hours I usually kept, Iâd insisted the others take the rooms with views of the outside world. But now, my room felt much smaller than it had before. It felt like a cage Iâd been trapped in, and I was on the verge of breaking free.
âOf course, I am.â I continued riffling through my drawers, looking for anything that felt even remotely sophisticated enough for a trip to Paris. I wasnât having much luck.
âWhat about your mom? School? The fellowship?â Olivia demanded. âI canât believe Iâm the one saying this to you, but you canât just skip out on your whole life for some guy.â
What she meant was that this was usually my job. I was the one talking Olivia down from following some random producer to Los Angeles or making Tanner actually leave the apartment during daylight hours. I went to class. I rehearsed constantly. I never missed one of my momâs chemo appointments. Until earlier today, Iâd even had a job on top of all of that.
âThea, whatâs going on?â she pressed, and I realized Iâd been caught up in my own thoughts. âHe canât be that good in bed. Maybe itâs just because heâs your firstâ¦â
I whirled around, a bunch of panties in my hands, and gawked at her. âYou think I slept with him?â
My roommate knew I was a virgin. Sheâd spent the better part of a few years trying to help me drop the label.
âI donât know!â She threw her hands in the air. âYouâre acting crazy, and you didnât come home the other night.â
Both were good points. âDo you really think I would finally sleep with someone and not tell you?â
âI donât know whatâs going on with you,â she said softly.
I stopped stuffing clothes into my old suitcase and sighed. But before I could figure out what to tell Olivia, my phone began to ring. I checked the screen and put it back down. I could only deal with one disappointed person in my life right now.
âWhat do you want to know?â I asked, abandoning my crappy packing job and joining her on the other end of the bed.
âSo you havenât slept with him, butâ¦â she trailed off with a wicked grin.
âWeâve kissed.â I didnât really have words to describe the other things weâd done. At least, none I could imagine saying aloud.
âKissed?â she repeated with downturned lips. âTell me that you arenât blowing up your whole life for some rich guy youâve only kissed.â
âAnd some other stuff,â I said.
âThea!â Olivia grabbed a pillow and whacked me with it. âStop being so shy. Has he gone down on you?â
âYes,â I said, starting to flush. That inevitably reminded me of the last time my cheeks had been this hot, and I blushed even harder.
âOhhhh! And he must have been good at it since youâre following him all the way to Paris for more,â she teased. She waited a moment before her next question. âAnd what about you? Have you given him aââ
âYes,â I cut her off.
âImpressive.â She nodded her head like she was an expert on the subject. âYou must be really good at it if heâs taking you to Paris.â
âItâs not just about sex,â I told her. I took a deep breath and admitted the truth Iâd been keeping secretâeven from myself. âI really like him.â
âI hope so.â She rolled her eyes. âThatâs a long flight to take with someone you donât like.â
âOlivia,â I said her name forcefully enough that she fell silent, âI really like him. I mightâ¦â But even though the right word was there on the tip of my tongue, I couldnât actually say it.
âYou are not in love with him!â She jumped off the bed. âReality check! Youâve known him a couple days. Youâve only been on one real date.â
âYou said it yourself. Iâm acting crazy,â I muttered and got up to finish packing.
But Olivia swiped my bag and held it over her head like a hostage. âYou canât go. I wonât let you. You have worked way too hard to just drop everything for some guy no matter the quality of the orgasms he delivers.â
âThatâs not what this is about,â I said hotly. The phone rang again.
âIs that your mom?â She pointed to it. âDoes she know what the hell is going on?â
âIâm talking to her latââ
Olivia dropped my bag and grabbed the phone.
âDonât answer that,â I hissed, but it was too late.
âHello?â she answered. After a second, she nodded. âNo, sheâs right here.â Olivia stretched the phone out to me with a haughty frown. âItâs for you.â
I narrowed my eyes at her and grabbed the phone. âHello?â
âThea?â A worried voice responded. âItâs Professor MacLeod. I just received a notice that you are dropping your coursework for the semester. Is everything okay? Is your motherâ¦?â
âEverythingâs fine,â I said, closing my eyes. I should have known it wouldnât be as easy as walking into the registrar and telling them I needed to take leave for the rest of the year. âI had an opportunity I couldnât pass up. Iâll be back next fall.â
Oliviaâs mouth dropped open. I hadnât gotten around to telling her this bit yet. I might as well do it now. That way, if she killed me, Professor MacLeod would be able to testify in her murder trial.
âA year? But Thea, I have to tell youâyou were the departmentâs best candidate for the Reed Fellowship.â
Tears formed a lump in my throat, and I turned away so Olivia wouldnât see. I hadnât expected him to say that. MacLeod was a hard-ass on a good day. Heâd always been tough but fair. The idea of him tipping his hand was hard to process. âI was offered a job,â I told him quietly. âItâs going to allow me to pay off my motherâs medical debt.â
Silence stretched across the line and in my bedroom. Neither MacLeod nor Olivia seemed to know what to say. After a moment, I heard him clear his throat. âAre you certain thatâs what your mother would want? I donât think she would want you to give up your music, even for that.â
He was right. Thatâs exactly why I hadnât found the courage to tell her yet.
âIt doesnât matter what she wants,â I said resolutely. âItâs what I want. I understand if this means I canât return to the program.â
âOf course, you can return,â he said gruffly. âI just hate to see you waste time.â
âThank you for your concern,â I said. âI have to go, though.â
âIf anything changesâ¦â I hung up, somehow feeling better and worse at the same time. I knew I was right. This was my life, and only I could choose how to spend my time. But that didnât mean MacLeodâs shock and disappointment didnât sting. It was only going to be worse when I finally told my mom.
Turning, I found Olivia had sat back down on the edge of the bed. There was no indignation or amusement on her face now. Instead, she looked lost in her own thoughts.
âWhat?â I demanded. âGo on. I know you have something to say about this.â
She took a deep breath and turned worried eyes on me. âThea, are you an escort?â
âWhat?â I burst out laughing before she could repeat herself. âWhy would you think that?â
âYou just said youâre leaving for a job thatâs going to pay off your momâs billsâand I know how much those bills are,â she reminded me.
Olivia held me through many long nights when things didnât look good for Mom. She had seen the bills. She knew why I was working at the restaurant and playing with the quartet. I refused to take out more student loans in addition to what we already owed.
âIâm not an escort. Promise.â I drew a cross over my chest with an index finger.
âThen which is it? Are you running away with your boyfriend, or are you being paid to go with him and, you knowâ¦â
âJulian is my boyfriend.â I swallowed at the funny taste the word left on my tongue. I hadnât really called him that much. âBut when he asked me to travel with him on business, I told him I couldnât because I needed to finish school and get a better job to pay the bills. He offered to pay the bills so I could take a year off.â
âYouâre going to let some guy that youâve known less than a week pay off hundreds of thousands in medical debts?â she shouted.
âHeâs rich,â I reminded her. âThat kind of money is nothing to him, but itâs everything to me. I wonât have to wait tables or take another job when I graduate. I can just focus on finding a chair with a symphony!â
Olivia clamped her mouth closed, and I braced myself for another eruption. Instead, to my surprise, she shrugged. âYouâre right.â
âWhat?â I hadnât heard her correctly.
âYouâre right. Heâs a billionaire. He could probably pay our rent with his pocket change.â She stopped and leveled a serious look at me. âBut have you done a background check? Are you sure heâs legit? I donât want to get a call that I have to come go all Liam Neeson on some pervertâs ass because youâre kidnapped.â
I tried to stop myself from giggling at the idea of Olivia rescuing me from a shadowy cartel, but I couldnât.
âIâm not joking.â She stuck her lower lip out in a pout. âWhat if youâre wrong about him?â
There were so many things I wish I could tell her about Julian. If she only knew how strict his boundaries were, she would be packing my bags herself. But I couldnât drag her into this world.
I hadnât been given a choice. I wouldnât let the same thing happen to my friend. There was only one thing I could do. Sitting down next to her, I put one hand on top of hers.
âIâm not wrong,â I murmured. âI wish I could explain it. I just know.â
âThat heâs not going to dump you in Paris?â she asked flatly. âThat heâs not going to hurt you?â
A chill ran up my spine like an icy fingertip, but I forced a smile. âYouâve got to trust me. I know what Iâm doing.â I bumped my shoulder against hers. âIâm still the same Thea who thinks everything through before she does it. Iâm just a little moreâ¦â
âSlutty?â she offered, unable to hide her grin.
My own mouth twisted in bemusement. âI was going to say worldly.â
âFine.â She stood up and pointed to my phone. âNow call your mom.â
âI will.â
She peeked into the bag on the floor. âYou arenât going to Paris with a billionaire and wearing this stuff, right?â
I leaned down and zipped it close. âThanks for the tip.â
âOf course, youâll probably be naked the whole time.â She clutched her chest dramatically. âWho needs clothes?â
I wished that were true. Then again, after getting a taste of how vampires socialized, she might be right. I made a mental note to ask Julian exactly what I needed to pack again.
âWhat time do you leave?â
âHeâs picking me up in the morning,â I told her.
âOkay, let me get a hug now.â She threw her arms around me with the passion of someone saying goodbye for much longer than a week or two. âDonât get kidnapped or murdered. And whatever you do, donât get pregnant!â
âI wonât!â I said, laughing.
She shot me a look as she pulled away. âIâm serious. No glove, no love.â
âPromise,â I said. If Olivia only knew the truthâ¦
Maybe I was crazy. Maybe agreeing to drop everything and get on a plane to Paris was a bad idea. But at least I didnât have to worry about getting pregnant.
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