Chapter 378
Beyond the Divorce
Her Internal Struggles I looked at Ryan and knew he had waited for me for too long. I found it hard to answer his question.
because I didnât want to hurt him.
I considered how we were during college and remembered him caring for me when I returned home during my freshman year. Ryan was always attentive, yet he kept a distance and never crossed boundaries.
So, I only saw him as an elder brother from the neighborhood.
âPerhaps I would have,â I answered honestly. âYou never gave me the chance to consider things in that direction.â
Ryan tightened his grip on my hand. He looked conflicted with pain, regret, and longing. He was brave this time, asking, âWhat about now? Iâll do my best to care for you and Ava.â
His words made it hard for me to remain serious, I knew he was earnest, but I couldnât help but chuckle.â
Ryan, youâre too funny. Youâ¦â
When I saw his anxious gaze, I quickly adjusted my tone. I realized I was too lightâhearted and even disrespectful. I composed myself and said thoughtfully, âI know youâre serious and will do an excellent job at that.
âTodayâs incident isnât your fault. I know you treat me well and have feelings for me. Please give me some time.â
âReally?â Suddenly, Ryan looked determined. âI will try my best. Thank you for giving me a chance!â
I felt speechless. I didnât mean to start a relationship with Ryan but rather to try and get closer. It seemed like I hadnât made myself clear. I would try it since I couldnât take back what I had said. I said softly, âBut I I letâs not force anything, okay?â
He tightened his grip again like he feared I might take back my words. âChlo, youâre everything to me. I regret being indecisive. You wouldnât have suffered with Matthew if I had been braver back then.â
I said, âThis is my fate. The Murphys are dysfunctional. Melanie harbors deep hatred toward me. To her, Iâm the one who took away her brother and fortune.â
I continued to analyze Melanieâs mindset, âI was too compliant with Matthew. The Murphys think I took everything from them, so Melanie is aggressive toward me. They were heartless to me just now, but I didnât want to be like them.
âThe baby was Innocent, and saving him was my motherly Instinct. Letâs hope Ava will get good karma âBut I was with you and could only watch you get hurt,â Ryan continued to blame himself. He said affectionately, âTake better care of yourself next time. Do you still want stew? Let me take you.â
I chuckled, âAll that happened because I wanted some stew. We wouldnât have bumped into them if I had stayed here.â
Ryan was determined to take me. âShould I get your parents first? Then, we can find a nearby stew place.
together.â
I nodded. âOkay, Iâll nap while you pick my parents and Ava up.â
âSure.â Ryan squeezed my hand before finally leaving the hospital.
I looked at my injured arm. Although the pain had subsided after applying the medication, there was still a lingering discomfort. Suddenly, I became emotional. I could only see Atlas standing before me with Atlasâs deep eyes that sent a chill down my spine.
I always got hurt whenever he was around. Only I knew my composure wouldnât waver before him. My suppressed longing had caused his indifference. No matter his reasons, it couldnât compensate for my disappointment. only watch him walk away with another woman. I wasnât even worth his glance. I smiled bitterly I could with these thoughts. Perhaps it was time for me to start a new life.