Chapter 92

Xade’s pov I know I screwed up again. But I couldn’t resist. Not that I tried to fight it anyway.

I let out a staggering breath, gently pinching her soft silky hair between my fingers. She’s snoring on my chest, the cute sounds making me want to pull her even closer.

I missed this. I miss her.

I drop her hair and run that hand down my face, groaning low. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck. So much for having shit under control. Clearly I don’t.

If Xaden knows….he would talk my ear off.

I needed to leave before I really lose my control. I gently peel her off, my heart slamming hard when she lets out a soft little moan in her sleep. She buried her head in the pillow and her arm reach for me.

Fuck.

Every fiber in my body tells me to stay, to hold her, to never let her go. To be with her. But I know that could t happen. Not if I didn’t want to lose control. I could t afford to. She was too dear to me. She was everything to me.

I slowly got out of the bed, making sure to not stir her awake as best as I could. I looked at her dresser, the clock reads ten eleven. I needed to leave now.

I stared at her again, watching how her pretty pouty lips are parted as she snores. I smiled. I bet she was drooling. She looks so fucking beautiful. My heart aches.

This isn’t fair.

Why did this have to happen to us?

If I had just been a normal human, things would have been different. We would have been different.

I clenched my hands into fists at my sides, fighting the urge to go back to the bed and cuddle her like I want to. To never let her go. To hold her till morning.

Leave Xade. Fucking leave before you make shit worse.

With one last lingering look, I drag my feet toward the door. Each fucking step felt like my heart was weighing down into my stomach. The pain was unbearable. But despite the tormenting pain, I opened the door, slipping out of the room and into the empty corridor.

As I sneak down the stairs, I heard her giggle. Melissa. She’s coming up the staircase with another girl clinging to her. As her eyes lift, she caught sight of me and she freezes.

“Xade?” She gasped in disbelief, blinking as if she wasn’t sure if it was really me standing in front of her or not.

I nod in acknowledgment and continue my path down the stairs but she stops me. “You were with her weren’t you?”

I stop, turning around. The girl who had her arm linked with hers dart her eyes between the two of us in confusion and intrigue.

Melissa’s lips tightened into a line. “What does she have that I don’t?” She whispered, her voice cracking. “I’ve been trying to get your attention and she doesn’t even try and you still-

“She’s everything,” I answered truthfully. “She’s my everything.” I looked at her unblinking. “You won’t understand because you’ve never felt the kind of love I have for her,” I confessed. “No one compares to her.”

Melissa flinches, red coating her cheeks. “I-

“Next time don’t lie and say we have a date.” I cut in sharply. “I’d never date you Melissa. If there’s one girl I’d date it would be the pretty blonde currently your dorm roommate.”

I turn to leave but her words again stop me, but this time I don’t turn to face her.|

“She’s boring you know her.”

she snipes. “And soon you will grow bored of I smirked. “Trust me,” I stepped down, my hands going in my pockets. “That’s not possible.”

Avery’s pov That comforting warmth is missing. I reach across, searching for that warmth but instead my fingers brush against cool sheets.

I frowned, my eyes peeling open to see the spot is empty. There was no Xade in my bed. My gut twisted and I groaned, turning around to lie on my back.

Had he left? Of course he had, he was nowhere in sight. I bit into my lower lip hard and blinked back frustrated tears.

When I thought I had finally broken down his walls he shows me that he still had enough to gear them back up.

“Someone’s been getting up early.”

I looked across the room, Melissa is sitting on her bed, her laptop open as she watches porn. I hadn’t even noticed she was up or pick up on the vulgar sounds coming from her laptop.

I don’t respond and move to sit up, looking at the clock on my nightstand. Five forty. I am supposed to meet him at the gym for six. Would he even show up?

I frowned.

What if he stands me up again? He was so unpredictable.

“I think I’m going to turn into a lesbian,” she shifts the screen to face me where I see two girls getting it on. “Guys are assholes who don’t appreciate good pussy. They rather choose boring pussy.”

I throw my hand over my mouth, gagging as I looked away from the screen. Melissa rolls her eyes. “It’s just two girls Avery. Jeez, you’re such a buzz kill.”

But I don’t respond, instead I am up on my feet and racing out the door to the communal bathroom, barely making it in time as I throw up everything from last night into the sink.