FIFTY-TWO

AYSHAM’S POV:

Nope.

No.

Never.

I never wanted to be the girl who would fall in love with a man who just showed a pinch of care and had spent a little amount of money on me and I would be his forever. I never liked why there was always women who fell in love just by receiving a little attention. I wasn’t an attention seeker but a little amount of attention from him could send me on cloud nine and the worst thing was I had started craving for it. I could be the side effect of the negligence I endured my entire life and now I was getting all of the attention as if God was trying to compensate all of that. But again, I never wanted to be the girl who just fell for a guy after meeting a few times and the guy would fall in love when the girl was about to lose her sanity and self-respect altogether.

These were the thoughts roaming inside my mind as I wanted him to fall in love with me first. It wasn’t ego, it was just my sanity that had become like one after all these years. I was tired of running behind people to like me and respect me. I just didn’t want to run now neither I am asking someone to run behind me. I am just standing whoever wants me or whoever wants me with sincerity and all their heart could approach me and I wouldn’t run away and make fun of them by giving them a hard time. If I see sincerity and love I was craving for I would accept them and that’s what is opposite to those people who are considered toxic. I deserved to be worth of taking few steps towards me showing me they actually want me to be the part of their life. Everyone has a chaotic life it’s the people you have makes them bearable for you.

Every thought came into my mind when I thought what it was which I was feeling towards him and now dreaming different scenarios and waking up in his arms it dawned upon me that it wasn’t an addiction and I was glad it wasn’t because addiction was always negative.

Yes, I was in his arms right now. The moment I opened my eyes I knew it was the day I wouldn’t like to get out of my bed because of the warmth and a comforting cologne around me. The first sight I came across with was my hand above his beating heart as my head was still on his shoulder. Raising my head my cheeks got fanned with his warm breath as he was sleeping composedly and the thing that put smile on my face was his arms wrapped securely around my waist and his leg on top of my leg. He was cuddling me as if I was his teddy bear. My bed wasn’t as big as his king sized but still there was plenty of space on his side though he was more on my side leaving nothing on my side as I was on the edge but his grip around me could never let me fall neither I turned around in night.

Since I had nothing to do, I just lay leisurely in his arms as I couldn’t ruin his sleep as he was sleeping without any frown on his face and I must say without any frown or stern expression on his face he was cute with his small pointed nose and plump lips. He even had a tiny black mole on his eyelid which I just got to witness as my face was so close to him.

This was the moment when I started having these types of thoughts but still, I couldn’t detach myself from him knowing perfectly where this was going. I was scared of becoming a heartbroken girl as I hadn’t witnessed his full thoughts about how he found about all the lies I have told him and how he was going to deal with that.

I was in my thoughts when the door of my room burst opened revealing Suzi who almost screamed seeing me sleeping with him but she soon covered her mouth with her both hands.

“What’s happening?” She mouthed as I glared at her for keep standing there because I got startled and sat up immediately but couldn’t remove his heavy hand from around my waist.

I just simply ushered her to go with my hands as I didn’t want him to wake up while I saw him scrunching his nose a little at my violent shaken up.

“Did you too make up?” She mouthed again as I pressed my lips in a thin line seeing my glares didn’t have any affect on her. She must be waiting for me in the kitchen or dad must have arrived to have breakfast together. Before I could think of any response to run her off his deep monotonic voice reverberated in the room sending chills to run down my spine.

“Do you want to lose your job Suzi?” He said and Suzi got paled although she couldn’t see his face but his back but she got alarmed easily.

“No sir. Sorry sir.” She said in a single breath and vanished from there with a lightening speed but not before closing the door gently.

“You are awake.” It was more like a statement when I looked down and saw him slowly opening his eyes to directly met mine. I heard it’s good for your eyes to see greenery early in the morning when you wake up but seeing that green color was good for even my soul. Look, this is the thing I was scared of. The green color was good for my soul but it wasn’t for my brain.

My cheeks started evaporating heat when he was seeing me intently without saying anything. I got so confused that I didn’t know what to do so I started looking for my veil but then I remembered I didn’t have one when I went to sleep. Suddenly I realized I wore that silk night suit which was a button up small shirt and it was so smooth and silky that whenever I woke up it used to be displaced showing enough of my chest.

Realization hit me and I looked down to find my shirt displaced from one side revealing my shoulder and the sleek thin strap of my small silk blouse I was wearing underneath it as I wasn’t wearing any bra. I don’t usually at night as it was only me in my room.

“Don’t.” I was pulling my shirt up when his dominant voice stopped me making me turn beetroot.

“Don’t you have to go to office.” I tried to change the conversation but he was rich and had the mighty business empire to run for a reason.

“Let me look.” Placing my hand above my stomach he made me lie down with him again as this time I laid down on my back while he raised himself on his elbow. Red alarms started ringing around me but it was too late for my escape as with his index finger and thumb he pulled my dress even more down and the silk just glided against my skin and started leaving my body as the shirt had reached my elbow revealing my blouse and my bare stomach with that belly button that gained his attention. But that belly button was the second thing that gained his attention as the first one was my erected nipple which were giving their perfect shape and screaming for their appearance under his heated gaze.

I couldn’t help but place my palms on them to hide them from this vicious beast but I couldn’t fulfill my approach as one glare from him and I gently removed my hands and placed them on my belly button. I had to hide one thing for the sake of my heartbeat which was beating wildly. He wasn’t saying anything but the intensity in his eyes which were dripping lust gave me all the information that accelerated my heartbeat even more.

“You don’t understand what I want right.” He rasped and grabbed my wrist to pinned them on either side of my head. I felt like I was naked under him or his eyes made me feel like that.

“I want to see every inch of you.” He grabbed my wrists in one hand resting them above my head as I squirmed a little when his eyes reached my eyes then nose, then lips as the gaze lingered there for a moment and his gaze traveled down making me melt under his gaze.

“You are beautiful.” I bit my lip as he lowered down his head and rolled his thumb inside my belly button making me arch my back little as bit back a small sound ready to erupt from my throat.

“And you are all mine.” Without any warning he lowered down his head and inserted his tongue inside my belly button making me gasp loudly. He rolled his warm saliva coated tongue inside it as I felt my core melting by that. Rolling enough and making it wet he bit me there making me gasp too which made me widened my eyes at my own reaction because I wasn’t supposed to like that. He licked the same spot and kissed ever so gently making my toes curl at the tingling sensation.

He raised his head to show me his plump lips glistening making me gulp as his eyes met mine. Then, he let go of my hands but I knew it wasn’t over and I was right when he rasped.

“Show me.” My eyes widened.

“Show me yourself.” He demanded as his one hand was wrapped around my bare waist while the other rolled my honey brown strands in his fingers.

“Dad must be waiting f-for breakfast.” I tried hard to not stutter in front of him.

“You aren’t getting out of the room.” He said ending the debate as his eyes got darker as if he couldn’t hold lust in them anymore. My nipple was erect as hard as pebbles and he could see them from above my blouse but still he wanted me to show him. Why can’t he see it himself? Showing myself was difficult and embarrassing.

“You won’t get out of the room ever then.” He said as his hand started trailing downwards until it reached the hem of my trousers. That was too much and mind needed to process before he could do anything lie that so I gasped.

“No…w-wait…” I said surrendering as I was breathing heavily. His hand stopped as there wasn’t any amusement in his eyes or his face. He was very serious about everything at that time although the lust was dripping from his eyes.

“Y-you will just s-see. Okay?” I tried to reassure but I was received with the silence as he looked at me in the eyes and then at my lips as he was trying to control the beast awakening inside him.

Gaining strength and trying hard not to faint I reached for the ribbons at my back and the slowly removed them completely as he took the ribbon from me. My hand then trailed towards the thin straps barely hanging down my shoulders and ever so slowly with his eyes on me that gave me chills and so many other things at that time I started dragging down my blouse. I tried not to gasp because of my heart that seemed to shut down any minute.

The blouse was completely undone as I was completely topless lying underneath him when he grabbed the blouse from me and threw it in some corner of the room. I placed my hands on his chest as they were trembling badly.

I was lying topless beneath him.

And I did that myself.

What my mom would think if she ever gets to know what I just did?

She would never know. My conscience mocked me as that’s right. No one knows what happens in the bedroom.

I looked at him as he was gazing every inch of mine while I fluttered my eyelashes to force back the water accumulating in my eyes.

“F-Farzan.” I mumbled as I thought my heart would stop beating. He looked above at me as for the moment so many emotions flashed in his eyes as I felt the hint of glint in his eyes.

“You did good butterfly.” He said and raised his hand with the ribbons in it. “Now it’s my turn.” I gasped when he grabbed wrists and in a swift motion, he tied them with the ribbons and rested them above head as the other end was tied to the headrest.

“F-farza…umm.” I couldn’t complete my word as he grabbed my lips with his. I didn’t know how far it would go as my brain wanted to stop but every other fiber in my body negated that. I was in trouble.

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