What now ?

( Kiara; @ the bar )

I took a shot and thought to myself.

I know India hates me for leaving her the way I did. But I let my anger get the best of me. I know she may have thought her virginity wasn't a big deal but I did.

Truth is my virginity was taken from me when I was only a kid, by my mother's boyfriend.

He used and abused me from when I was 5 years old til' I turned 13. I would beg my mother to help but she stood in the shadows and watched while her sick boyfriend had his way with me. I was only a child, I had no one to come to my rescue when I needed. I had to just deal with it.

But everybody think I'm the bad guy.

Truth be told I've done nothing but think about India since the last time we were together. I haven't had sex since her, shit I haven't been myself since everything happened. Even though I wanted to speak to her so badly, I could bring myself to do so. At first it was out of anger but now I just wouldn't know where to start.

??: Why you over here drinking by yourself cutie ?

Some lady asked.

Me: So I don't look approachable, but apparently it's not working.

I barked back at her, getting aggravated.

??: How bout you tell me what's wrong.

She said ignoring everything I said. I just got up and walked away from her. This is why I don't come out, I could never chill in peace.

I decided to head home since I didn't have shit else to do. But not before stopping by Wendy's to grab some to eat.

While I entered my phone rang. I fished in my pocket and saw it was Mya so I answered.

Me: Wassup?

Her: Nothing, just wondering when you were coming home.

Me: Your at my place?

Her: Yea but I'm outside because you changed the locks again.

I was aggravated all over again.

Me: Leave, Now !

Her: Or what ?

I hung up on her ass. She gets on my last fucking nerve. Always popping up to my shit, uninvited. Always questioning me, always in my business and everything like I'm sick of it.

I don't even want Wendy's no more, that bitch ruined my appetite. I turned to leave and bumped into a small figure. It was India. She looked more beautiful then ever, I mean she was clearly annoyed but she still looked good.

India: Watch where you're going.

She rolled her eyes and I smiled finding her attitude amusing.

India: Move out my way.

I smirked deciding not to move.

Me: The correct words are 'excuse me'.

India: Your so fucking annoying and you bumped into me so move the fuck out of my way.

She pushed past me and I grabbed her arm stopping her from going anywhere.

Me: India wait.

She just looked at me with so much hatred in her eyes, I was almost scared to speak.

Me: Can I please get a second to tell you wassup ?

India: You've had a year to tell me, so why now ?! After all this time ?!

She semi yelled causing people to look our way. I pulled her to a table and we sat down. I watched her in awe. She's gorgeous. Why did I leave her ?

India: You better start talking before I leave yo ass sitting here stuck on stupid and shit.

She crossed her arms waiting for me to speak.

Me: I... you... we...

Even though this was the perfect time to clear everything up, I could seem to make the right words come out. Fuck I'm gonna just say what's on my mind.

Me: India your so beautiful. I feel horrible about how I did you that night. Honestly it was the best sex I've ever had and—

She cut me off.

India: So why you left me? Right after you took my virginity? Then your nowhere to be found until now, hmm ?

Her voice was shaky and her eyes got watery, I started feeling horrible. Should I just tell her about why I left? About how he took advantage of me? I never told anyone about what happened to me. But I feel like India deserves the truth, so here goes.

Me: India, listen.

I wiped her tears she fought to hold back.

Me: When I was younger, my mother's boyfriend used and abused me. From when I was 5 until I was 13 years old.

India looked at me with wide eyes as I continued on.

Me: I never had the choice of keeping my virginity or not. So when I didn't know that I took yours it made me feel a certain way. I would've asked your permission first. I would've been more gentle and caring to you. I would've made it a night to remember—

She cut me off again.

India: But it was a night to remember Kiara. You were my first and it was amazing. After you left I felt used. Then you weren't returning any of my calls or texts like you didn't want anything to do with me. I felt horrible, I didn't leave the house for weeks, I didn't talk to anyone, I just cried. Because even though I tried to erase your touch, your lips, the way you made me feel, I just couldn't.

We looked deep in each other's eyes as she continued.

India: I'm so sorry about what he did to you, no one deserves to go through anything like that.

Me: I'm sorry for hurting you India. That was the last thing I ever meant to do to you. I was being selfish and I didn't consider your feelings and I'm sorry.

I pleaded hoping she would forgive me.

India: It's okay.

I got up, pulled her up out the seat and gave her a tight hug. She giggled while wrapping her small arms around my neck. I smiled at her, it felt like we needed this. I can't believe I left her beautiful ass after great sex for my selfish reason.

Me: So was it really amazing?

I asked, she gasped and playfully punched my arm.

India: Really ?

Me: Hey, you said it I'm just tryna clarify ma.

She smiled shaking her head.

India: Ain't it weird how we bump into each in the same place we first met?

Me: Ohh, you mean the day you were practically drooling over me.

We laughed,  reminiscing and shit.

Me: Where you off to ?

India: Well I was headed home since there isn't anything to do.

Me: Want company?

India: Not really.

She tried to hide her smile as we walked out to our cars.

Me: Well that's too bad because I'm coming anyways.

India: Okay follow me I guess.

She laughed and I winked at her before getting in my car and following her to her crib. I'm glad she forgave me. Not a lot of females are as understanding as India. She's a good person and I won't leave her ever again. I will do right by her. Because she's mine whether she knows or not.

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Kiara in the media and yes I changed her character.

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