Don't know what to do

*Author's note: This happened before India left Jasmine house*

(Recap)

(Jasmine's POV)

After pushing my pride aside I decided that maybe I overreacted so I needed to let her know that I'm sorry. I really just want to know that she's safe. Because honestly I don't even wanna argue with her, I just wish she knew how I felt.

I walked over to my door and yanked it opened coming face to face with India.

Me: Hey, look I'm sorry for snapping at you the way I just did.

India: There's no need to apologize Jasmine. I should've just been honest with you like you were with me, so I understand why you're upset with me.

I sighed.

Me: Honestly this whole situation just stressful as hell.

India: I know and if you still need time to yourself I'll stop calling and bugging you.

Kiara started blowing up her phone again and I mentally rolled my eyes. We can't even talk without this mafucka interrupting us and shit.

India: Maybe I should get going now.

She turned away from me and headed towards the door. I grabbed her waist holding her in place.

Me: Wait before you go I wanna know how you feeling bout this whole situation.

She paused like she didn't know what to say next.

India: I don't really know how you're feeling but honestly I have feelings for you. Feelings I can't even explain.

Part of me just wondered if she has feelings for Kiara. I hope not !

India: What ?

Me: Whatchu mean ?

India: You said I hope not.

Me: I did ?

India nodded.

Me: I must've been thinking out loud.

I laughed and she joined me.

Me: On some real shit though, I have feelings for you too but you can't be playing games and shit, if you fucking with somebody else just lemme know.

I assumed she knew who I was talking about.

India: Me and Kiara's relationship is complicated.

I kept a blank face getting bored with this conversation.

India: You don't have anything to say about that ?

Me: Listen I'm not forcing you to do anything buh honestly if I'm becoming an option don't choose me.

She sighed like she was getting aggravated. I don't know why she mad, she the one who can't make up her mind.

India: Why can't things just go back to how they were before, when you were like my bestfriend before all of this ?

Me: Because things were different before.

India: Yeah I know.

Me: I think what we need is some time apart from each other so we could both figure out what we want.

India: Yeah I agree.

I gave her a warm smile and she returned the favor.

Me: So I'll see you around.

India: Okay.

She gathered her things and headed towards the door.

India: And Jasmine I just want you to know that no matter what happens I care about you.

I pulled her into my arms, she instantly hugged me back.

Me: I care about you too.

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*2 weeks later*

( India's POV )

I finished washing my face then I cut the light off getting ready lay in my bed.

I know it's been a while since y'all heard from me. I've been going through so much. With school and my mother and the situation with my dad and Kiara and Jasmine and honestly I've been ready to just say fuck it all.

Have you ever just been to the point where you just wanna be done with everything and everybody ?

My mother still is trying to make my life Hell. I hardly ever see my dad anymore, he's always out with Lucas. Me and Jasmine haven't really spoke to each since the last time I left her house. And I feel like Kiara's vibe has changed. I don't think she's feeling me anymore.

Ugh idk because before I was used to being alone, but now it just sucks having nobody to talk to.

Once I got in bed I reached to foot of my bed to grab my phone off the charger. I quickly got annoyed because why I picked up my phone and it was only at 5%, whole time my phone wasn't even charging.

I really almost cried. I was planning on putting my head phones in and falling asleep to music but I guess not.

I put it back on the charger and double checked to make sure it was charging this time.

I laid back down and my mind drifted to Jasmine. I really do like her. It's crazy because I never thought that I would have feelings for the girl who used to bully me. I mean I always thought she was good looking I just hated her.

But then there's Kiara. Me and her haven't really been on the best terms. She doesn't call me anymore like how she used to. Only way we speak is if I call her. I mean she always answers, I just feel like she doesn't want to be in my life anymore.

I know it's wrong having feelings for both of them knowing that they don't like each other but I can't help it. I've never been in a relationship before and to be honest I'm scared that if I choose one of them I'm gonna lose the other. I don't want to lose either of them.

Because besides the fact that I have feelings for them I also love having them as company. I feel like I'm myself when I'm around both of them. Jasmines makes me happy and Kiara makes me smile and laugh. I care about both of them. I don't feel alone when I'm with either one of them. Nobody has ever made me feel the way they do.

I know I have to make up my mind but I'm just not ready to do that.

I don't know who I want.

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