: Chapter 15
Things We Left Behind
Prison Lot Strip Tease
Lucian
I started my day at 5:00 a.m. Iâd worked out, had breakfast, handled three conference callsâÂtwo from the carâÂfired three people, and closed an eight-Âfigure deal. All before noon.
I had two in-Âhouse meetings that couldnât be rescheduled, so I did the thing I really didnât want to do and offloaded them onto Nolan with strict instructions not to fuck anything up.
All so I could beat her here.
Sloaneâs little âIâll do some researchâ might have fooled everyone else, but not me.
Sergeant Grave Hopper was only too happy to agree to fire off a text when he saw the underhanded little librarian pulling out of the parking lot on her way to a mysterious Wednesday afternoon âmeeting.â
âHere she is,â Hank, my driver, announced when the Jeep roared into the parking lot of the Fraus Correctional Center.
âIâll call you back, Nolan,â I said and disconnected.
Sloane had her music loud and sunglasses on. Not a care in the world. Thinking she could just ride to someoneâs rescue without bothering to think of her own safety first. I wasnât going to stand for that again.
She was frantically digging through her gigantic Iâd Rather Be Reading tote on the passenger seat when I approached her Jeep window. I peered in and caught a glimpse of her phone screen in her lap. It was an internet search for âwhat not to bring to prison visiting hours.â
With an eye roll, I rapped on her window.
Startled, Sloane jolted, and the contents of her bag exploded everywhere.
On an aggrieved sigh, I opened her door. She stared up at me, her jaw slack, her sunglasses askew.
I waited.
âWhat are you doing here?â she demanded, finally regaining the power of speech.
âWaiting for you.â
âHowâÂWhyâÂâ
âThat innocent little librarian routine might work on your friends, but it doesnât work on me.â
She scoffed and started shoveling female paraphernalia back into her bag. âI donât have an innocent little librarian routine.â
âDid you tell Naomi and Lina that you were coming?â
âNo. ButâÂâ
âDid you tell Nash or Knox?â
She stopped shoveling. Her chin jutted out.
âNo,â she said.
âYou went behind everyoneâs backs because you decided you knew better than everyone else. Not the best way to begin your partnership.â
Judging from her expression, she knew I was right and wasnât happy about it.
âAre you going to lecture me to death or leave me alone so I can continue to fuck everything up?â She tried to angrily exit the vehicle only to be held back by her seat belt.
I reached across her and released it. âNeither. Letâs go.â
âNo freaking way, Lucifer. Iâm not letting you go in there. Youâll scare this poor woman out of her wits with your disapproving death glare.â
âYouâre not going in there without me,â I said succinctly.
âYes, I am,â she spat. She turned away from me and tried to wrestle her bag across the seat.
âLeave it. You canât take it in with you,â I said as I pulled out my phone.
âWhat are you doing?â she asked.
âCalling Naomi.â My thumb hovered over the Call button.
âDamn it!â
âDid you just stomp your foot?â I asked. Sloaneâs comfort with expressing anger had always intrigued me. But I guess one was free to express their anger when one could control it.
âI was picturing your foot under mine,â she shot back.
âEither I go in there with you, or you turn around and drive home. Those are your only two choices.â
She crossed her arms over her chest and glared up at me. Her gaze slid to the prison entrance. Her lips pursed.
âYou wouldnât make it,â I advised.
She dropped her arms and fisted her hands at her sides. âFine. You can come in. But you canât glare or growl or roll your eyes. And definitely no speaking.â
âMay I breathe?â
âIâd prefer if you didnât,â she said.
âWeâre supposed to be in the midst of a truce,â I pointed out.
âWhat truce involves you ambushing me in the parking lot of a womenâs correctional facility?â
She had a very small, practically insignificant point. âIf I had called you to discuss this, would you have even answered?â I already knew the answer.
âProbably not,â she admitted.
âThen letâs deal with the situation at hand. Iâm going in there with you. End of story,â I snapped.
âGee, maybe try to turn down the charm there, Master of the Universe. You might dazzle this woman into a faint.â
I shut the door of her Jeep and gestured toward the front of the prison. âLetâs go.â
We crossed the asphalt side by side, heading toward the monstrous monument of security. Earth-Âbrown sandstone and concrete formed the towering facility walls beyond the double barbed wire fences.
Women in beige jumpsuits huddled in groups in the dismal yard. The asphalt inside the fences was crumbling, dead weeds poking up through the cracks.
Sloane stopped suddenly on the sidewalk. âWhy are you here?â she asked again.
âYou already asked me that,â I reminded her.
She shook her head, sending that thick, blond ponytail swinging. âFine. Itâs Wednesday. Why arenât you ruling the corporate world? And you canât stand me, so what does it matter to you if I screw up this partnership with my friends? Iâd think youâd be happy to watch me crash and burn.â
âIf you manage to make a mess of things, thereâs a chance you could be essentially setting your friendsâ money on fire. More importantly, thereâs a woman behind those walls who might suffer because of it.â
She closed her eyes and took a breath. âYouâve buried and forgotten so many things, I just assumed you were over that as well.â
She was wrong. Iâd buried and forgotten nothing. Instead, Iâd used it all as fuel.
âThere are some things we never get over. Some things we hide from the light,â I said, patting my pocket only to remember Iâd left my cigarette in the car.
Sloane lifted her gaze to the heavy gray clouds and wrinkled her nose. Her stud was a pale pink today. âI take it you used your creepy spy network to dig into Mary Louiseâs case,â she guessed.
âI may have glanced at some files.â
My team had done a fast, deep dive, and Iâd managed to pore over their findings between everything else Iâd had to do today. By all accounts, Mary Louise Upshaw was a model prisoner who used her time inside to earn two degrees and start a creative writing program for her fellow inmates. My own legal counsel had reviewed her sentence and found it âabsolute bullshit.â Which meant the justice-Âseeking Sloane was probably about to have her heart shattered.
âSo you think we might have a case,â she pressed.
âI think a lot rides on what she has to say,â I hedged.
The visitation room was more depressing than Iâd anticipated. There were two rows of scarred folding tables sandwiched between cracked and faded vinyl chairs. The industrial tile floor was stained and peeling. Some of the ceiling tiles were missing between flickering fluorescent lights. There was something that looked suspiciously like mold climbing the walls under the glass block windows.
Sloane was clicking her pen and gnawing on her lower lip, her eyes wide behind her glasses. With a sigh, I gripped the back of her chair and pulled it and her into my side.
She stopped clicking her pen and frowned up at me. Sheâd always had that little line between her eyebrows that deepened when she was deep in thoughtâ¦or pissed off at me. I wanted to run my finger over it.
âThereâs nothing to be afraid of,â I told her.
âIâm not afraid.â
I looked down pointedly at the denim-Âclad leg that was jiggling a mere inch from my own.
âFine. Iâm not afraid, Iâm nervous. Okay?â
âWhat do you have to be nervous about? You get to walk out of here.â
âThank you, Captain Obvious. But what if sheâs wonderful? What if she really is in here based on some gross injustice? What if sheâs lost all these years of her life to an unfair sentence?â
âThen youâll help her.â
She went back to chewing on her lower lip for a few moments and then shifted to face me. Her knee was pressing into my thigh. Those green eyes were earnest. âWhat if her sentence was unfairly harsh but sheâs a terrible person?â
I felt myself softening toward her. Just like her father, she wanted to make a difference in the lives of strangers. But Sloane didnât have Simonâs unlimited capacity for forgiveness. Neither did I.
âThen weâll talk afterward and figure out the best way forward. Thereâs no point wasting any mental energy on a scenario that hasnât played out yet.â
She frowned. âYou strike me as the kind of man who goes into every situation having considered every possible scenario.â
My lips quirked. âItâs a luxury of someone who has no human feelings.â
âLucian, Iâm serious.â
âAs am I. You approach this conversation your way, and Iâll approach it mine. Weâll discuss it later. For now, all you need to do is ask questions and listen.â
âI just⦠I donât want to give her false hope.â
âYou wonât,â I assured her.
It was a lie. One look at Sloaneâs earnest face, those eager eyes, and Mary Louise Upshaw was going to feel what I had felt at seventeen. Hope.
The heavy metal door on the far end of the room opened, and a woman in a beige jumpsuit entered.
My throat felt dry and tight.
She was white with thick, wavy chestnut-Âbrown hair streaked with gray. Without the jumpsuit, she would have looked like anyoneâs middle-Âaged mom. The guard pointed to us, and a look of curiosity flitted across her features.
She headed in our direction, and I felt Sloane stop breathing.
I slid my arm around the back of her chair and gave her shoulder a squeeze. âItâs just a conversation,â I said, keeping my voice low.
I felt her relax infinitesimally.
âHello,â Mary Louise said, pulling out the chair across from us and sitting.
âHi.â Sloaneâs voice squeaked. She cleared her throat and began again. âMary Louise, Iâm Sloane Walton, and this is myâ¦associate Lucian Rollins. We had some questions about your case and sentence.â
âAre you reporters?â Mary Louise asked, cocking her head.
Sloaneâs gaze slid to me. âNo.â
There was a guard stationed across the room, looking blank-Âfaced and bored. It made my skin crawl.
âLawyers?â Mary Louise looked hopeful.
Sloane shook her head. âNo. Justâ¦â She looked at me again, help written in those lovely green eyes.
I leaned forward. âMs. Upshaw, we recently stumbled across a mention of your case. Did you ever meet with a Simon Walton? He was an attorney.â
She shook her head slowly. âNo. Iâve only had public defenders. Simon was my sonâs mentor. He helped Allen get into law school. He unfortunately passed away recently.â
Sloane tensed against me as if bracing for the inevitable blow of grief.
âIt looked as though Simon had taken an interest in your case, specifically your sentencing,â I continued. âCan you shed any light as to why that might be?â
Mary Louise shrugged and interlaced her fingers on the table. âMaybe because it was one of the harshest sentences for possession and trafficking in the state of Virginia in the last thirty-Âfive years.â
Sloane cleared her throat. âYou said initially that the drugs found in your car during your traffic stop werenât yours. And then you changed your statement and pled guilty.â
Mary Louise studied us with narrowed eyes for a beat. âWho are you? Why are you here?â
âIâm Sloane Walton. Simon was my father. I think he wanted to help you, but he got sick before he could.â
Mary Louise took a breath, sympathy shining in her eyes. âYour father was a good man. He changed my sonâs life, so I can only imagine what he did for you. Iâm so sorry for your loss.â
Sloane reached across the table with one hand. Mary Louise took it and squeezed.
And there it was. That sneaky bastard that would only lead to disappointment, devastation. Hope. It bloomed over both womenâs faces, and I resigned myself to the fact that things were going to get messyâ¦and expensive.
âI met Allen the day of my dadâs funeral,â Sloane told her. âYou raised a great kid.â
Mary Louiseâs face rearranged into maternal pride. âI know it. I wish I could take credit for it, but Iâve been in here since he was sixteen.â
âWhat happened the night you were arrested?â Sloane asked. âWeâre not here to judge. We want to help if we can.â
Mary Louise shook her head. âHoney, I appreciate that, but Iâve been in here eleven years. I donât believe in miracles anymore.â
âWeâre not offering a miracle,â I clarified.
âAnything that would get me out of this place one day early would be a miracle,â she insisted.
âThen tell us what happened that night,â I said.
Under the table, Sloaneâs hand found my thigh and squeezed. Hard.
âPlease,â I added briskly.
Mary Louise closed her eyes and reached up to rub the back of her neck. âMy son was fifteen. His father and I had just split up, and he fell in with the wrong crowd. He had plans. He was going to be the first kid in my family to go to college.â
Sloaneâs knee pressed more firmly against my leg. I kept my arm where it was on the back of her chair but allowed my fingers to brush her shoulder. I felt better, less anxious in here touching her.
Mary Louise locked eyes with me. âHe was a good kid. A really good kid.â
âGood kids can make stupid choices,â I said.
Sloane tensed.
âI was working two jobs at the time. I wasnât around as much as I should have been. I missed the signs. Heâd started experimenting. Nothing too crazy. But his âfriendâ told Allen he had a way they could make some money. Allen being Allen knew times were tough and thought this was a way he could help out the family. They took my car from the parking lot while I was working third shift to meet some dealer somewhere.â
She interlaced her fingers and rested them on the table.
âI got pulled over on the highway halfway between work and home. I had a headlight out. It turns out they decided it was safer to keep the drugs in my car. I had no idea I was driving around with almost five pounds of marijuana in my back seat. I didnât even know what a dime bag was until I came here. Iâve learned a lot of things in here.â
There was no blame, no malice in her tone. She was simply stating facts.
âWhen you found out the drugs belonged to your son, thatâs when you changed your plea, isnât it?â Sloane guessed.
Mary Louise nodded. âHe had a whole bright future ahead of him. I wasnât going to let one mistake ruin all that.â
I felt a tightness in my chest. The sacrifice this woman had willingly made for her son was unfathomable. At least in my family.
âI had a public defender. The prosecutor offered me a deal. If I pled guilty, she would recommend one year with time served and the possibility of early parole. I was only supposed to do six months max. Six months and then I would be home. Iâd see my babyâs high school graduation. Iâd send him off to college.â
âWhat happened to the deal?â Sloane asked, leaning forward.
Mary Louise shrugged. âThe prosecutor made the recommendation. But for whatever reason, the judge didnât like the deal. He said drugs had been infiltrating his community for far too long and it was time to set an example for criminals like me.â
Sloane winced.
My free hand balled into a fist in my lap. I too knew what it was like to be at the mercy of a twisted justice system.
Mary Louise held up her palms. âSo here I am in year eleven of a twenty-Âyear sentence. But I wake up every day so glad that itâs me here and not my baby.â
It was too warm in this room. My tie was too tight. I needed air.
âIâm so sorry this happened to you,â Sloane said.
âDo you know if the drugs or bags were fingerprinted?â I asked.
She shook her head. âIâm sure it wasnât. From my arrest to me changing my plea was only a few days. I doubt any evidence was processed. My second public defender recommended that we appeal. He thought we could prove I didnât do it without implicating my son. He was digging into the case, getting ready to file a motion. Then he got a job at his mother-Âin-Âlawâs firm and moved to New York,â she said wearily. âIâm on public defender number four now, and sheâs so overworked it takes her a week to return my calls.â
âThatâs really unfair. But you donât seem bitter,â Sloane said, shooting me a nervous glance.
She was about to promise this woman the world. I removed my arm from the back of her chair and squeezed her leg under the table.
âBitterness is a waste of energy. All I can do is make the best of this situation.â
âIt looks as if youâve kept busy,â I said, flipping open the file Iâd brought with me.
Her eyebrows lifted. âIs that a dossier on me?â
âWhere did youâÂnever mind,â Sloane said before turning back to Mary Louise. âWhat have you been doing since your sentence?â
âI got an associateâs degree in business and one in creative writing.â
âYou founded a creative writing program for inmates,â I added.
She smiled wryly. âI did. But that was more for me than anything. I like talking about writing, and in here, I have a captive audience.â
âYour son. Heâs in law school now?â
A slow, proud smile spread across her face, making her look younger, lighter. âIn his last year at Georgetown. He says as soon as he graduates, heâs going to find a way to get me out.â
âWe have to help her,â Sloane said as we exited the prison.
An involuntary shudder worked its way up my spine when the heavy door closed behind us. Had it not been for Sloaneâs father, this could have been my fate. I turned up my coat collar and sucked in a deep breath of icy winter wind.
I could breathe again. It felt miraculous.
Sloaneâs cheeks were flushed pink with excitement. âI mean, obviously itâs going to take a lot of time and energyâÂâ
âAnd money,â I added. I could give it to her. But she wouldnât take it. Not if she knew it came from me.
âAnd money,â she agreed. âBut we canât let her sit behind bars. Not for protecting her son. And certainly not for another decade.â
Her eyes sparkled behind her glasses. She hadnât been this excited in my presence since we were teenagers. It was another sting of loss.
âI guess I need to talk to Naomi, Lina, and Stef first. Then Iâll call Maeve. Weâll have to find a lawyer. A good one.â
As she babbled on, I thought about how much her energy reminded me of Simonâs. Simon had loved nothing more than a challenge when justice was at stake.
It appeared the apple hadnât fallen far from the tree.
The Waltons were good people. They werenât stained with bad blood as I was.
âYour father would beâ¦proud.â The word lodged itself in my throat, and it took effort to let it loose. It was the greatest compliment I could think to give.
Sloane stopped her bubbly, one-Âsided conversation to gawk up at me.
âThank you,â she said finally. Her eyes narrowed. âAre you okay?â
âIâm fine,â I said testily.
âYou donât look fine. You look pale.â
âI always look fine,â I insisted as I guided her across the parking lot.
She glanced back at the building weâd just left. âIâm sorry. I didnât really think about it, but I guess being in a prison even as a visitor could be triggering afterâÂâ
âYou arenât going to need just an attorney,â I couldnât stand the pity I heard in her voice. âYouâll need an entire legal team.â
âThat sounds expensive.â
âJustice isnât cheap, Pixie.â
Her chin jutted out. âIâll find a way,â she said.
âI have no doubt.â
She fished her car keys out of her jacket pocket when we arrived at her Jeep.
âI happen to know a few lawyers who specialize in appeals and commutations. Iâll send you some names.â Iâd used one of them to seal my own record.
She frowned and the line between her eyes returned. âThanks.â
It sounded like a question.
âWhat?â I demanded.
âYou liked her, didnât you?â she prompted.
âI found her story interesting.â
Sloane threw her head back and let out a noise that was half groan and half snarl. âCan you just for once say what youâre thinking? Iâm not going to take your opinion and use it against you or try to scam you out of a kajillion dollars. I just want to know what you think.â
âWhy?â There were reasons I guarded my words. The same reasons I walked through life with a poker face.
She crossed her arms. âBecause youâre a rich megalomaniac who plays dirty with politicians all day long. I assume you see things from a different angle than a small-Âtown librarian.â
âHer storyâÂif itâs trueâÂis compelling. Even if itâs not entirely true, the sentence was excessive, and sheâs done nothing while serving her time to indicate sheâs a dangerous criminal. With the proper team, you should be able to at least shorten her sentence significantly.â
Sloane smirked. âThere. Was that so hard?â
âExcruciating.â I had a headache forming at the back of my head. I didnât like being anywhere near prisons. Even being able to walk out didnât help shake the memories of a broken, traumatized teen.
âShe did it to protect her son when he was a stupid teenager. I mean, what parent wouldnât do that for their stupid teenager?â She flinched the moment the words left her mouth. But she didnât apologize. âI mean, what good parent wouldnât do whatever it took toâ¦â
She was making it worse, and she knew it.
âShut up, Sloane.â
âShutting up,â she confirmed. It lasted nearly a full five seconds before she opened her mouth again. âWhat would you do next if you were me?â she asked, toying with the button on her coat.
âIâd talk to the son again.â
That had her perking up.
âWith your partners,â I added.
âOf course with my partners,â she said haughtily.
I glanced down at my watch. I hadnât wrapped this up in time to take the call from New York. Nolan better not have fucked it up. If he hadnât fucked it up, the rest of my afternoon was open.
âAre you hungry? Do you want coffee?â I asked.
Her spine straightened. âShit! What time is it?â
âNearly three.â
She unlocked her car. âDamn it! Iâm gonna be late for my date.â
âYour date,â I repeated. I hadnât meant to; the words had just slipped out. They were accompanied by an irrational burst of irritation.
âYeah,â she said, turning to examine her reflection in the side mirror. âYou know. Meet for food. Make awkward conversations about what you wanted to be when you grew up and what your favorite appetizers are. A date.â
She yanked the tie out of her hair and bent at the waist, shaking all that silver-Âtipped blond out.
âWho is this date with?â
Sloane flipped right side up, looking less like an innocent librarian and more like a bed-Âheaded vixen. âSome guy named Gary? No, wait. Gary is later. This isâ¦â She opened the door of her vehicle to grab a lipstick out of her cupholder. She uncapped it. âMassimo.â She slicked the red over her lips with an expert hand.
âMassimo?â He sounded like a man with a gold chain woven into his chest hair who wore sunglasses indoors. âYouâre meeting a stranger from the internet alone?â Irritation was giving way to a simmering panic. It was hard to breathe again.
âThatâs kind of how these dates work,â she said, grabbing onto my arm for balance while she toed off her sneakers. The socks with cats and books came next.
She released me to toss her discarded footwear in the back seat and produce another pair of shoes. Purple ones with stick-Âthin heels. The coat came next. This she threw at me. I caught it despite the feeling of anxiety that was blooming like a fucking flower.
âHave you really never done the dating app thing?â she asked.
âDo I look like I use dating apps?â
âYou look like you hire high-Âpriced call girls to act out your lewd fantasies.â
âAnd you look likeâ¦â
I lost my train of thought when she whipped her black turtleneck over her head. She was wearing a thin-Âstrapped, lacy camisole that dipped low over the tops of her full breasts.
âI look like what?â she prodded, sliding her arms through a hunter-Âgreen cardigan in a chunky knit. There were no buttons, nothing to close the sweater over her fantasy-Âinducing cleavage.
âWhat?â I repeated. My mouth was dry, and my headache was raging in full force now.
âYou were about to insult me. Hit me with it, big guy, before I go meet the future Mr. Sloane Walton.â
I closed my eyes. Her nicknames for me the past several years had been limited to Lucifer and âHey, asshole.â
âYou canât be serious with this emergency quest for a husband,â I told her.
âSpoken like a man who has all the time in the world to decide when to start a family.â
âIâm never starting a family.â I blamed the dark cleft between her breasts for my uncalculated confession.
She paused, mid-Âtug on the hem of her tank. âReally?â
âThatâs not the point. You canât go meet a stranger for a date. What if heâs a predator?â
She fluffed her hair out of the neck of her cardigan. It made the generous curves of her breasts threaten to spill over the top of her shirt.
Swarthy Massimo was going to take one look at her and do or say something stupid, and then I was going to have to ruin his fucking life.
âItâs fine. People meet strangers on the internet all the time now, and hardly any of them end up murdered.â
âSloane,â I barked.
She grinned at me. A happy, smug, full-Âfledged smile. Jesus, between her breasts and the smile, Too Many Gold Chains Massimo was going to feel like heâd hit the fucking lottery.
âIâll be fine. Geez, for someone who doesnât want a family, youâre sure acting Dad-Âlike.â
âWhat if he doesnât like to read?â
âThen I guess Iâll just have to keep shopping for a husband.â
âIâm fucking serious, Sloane. What precautions are you taking? Where is this date? Who knows youâll be there?â
She gripped my coat by the lapels. âCalm the fuck down, Lucifer. Itâs in Lawlerville. Lina and Naomi are tracking my phone with a locater app. I sent them screenshots of his profile and our chat. Iâm texting them a picture of him when I get there and proof-Âof-Âlife messages every thirty minutes. If things go downhill, Stef is on deck to call me with a fake emergency forty-Âfive minutes into the date, because I can handle pretty much anything for forty-Âfive minutes, right? If things go really badly, I have pepper spray and a big, fat hardback in my bag. Is that good enough, Suit Daddy?â
âThatâsâ¦reasonably thorough,â I admitted when she released me.
âGood. Now, how do I look?â She spread her arms out wide.
She looked beautiful. Fun, spunky, smart, sweet, funny. Fucking breathtaking. I hated Massimoâs fucking guts.
She rolled her eyes. âNever mind. I forgot who I was asking.â
âSuit Daddy?â Her words had finally sunk into my reeling brain.