Chapter 282: Hell on Wheels
Accidental Surrogate for Alpha
Ten days pass with agonizing slowness and I think Iâm going to lose my mind.
On the morning of the eleventh day I just sit in my bed, staring passively at the tv, flicking through the
channels and not even caring what comes on. Iâve seen it all, anyway.
Itâs not that I havenât tried to keep busy in bed. In fact, Iâve tried everything. Iâve sent email after email to
all of the aid organizations I can think of, asking if thereâs any way that I can help from home. They all
came back with pleasant congratulations and urges for me to concentrate on my improved health. I
scowled at each one of them as I deleted them and silently wondered if Sinclair had anything to do with
it, just a quiet word to each of the organization heads that I wasnât to be engaged until after the birth of
my child.
When that fails, I try a variety of crafts Iâve always wanted to get into but have never had time for. But it
turns out that knitting is crazy boring, and Iâm a terrible painter, and Iâll never cut it as a novelist
because I canât stitch two words together. When hobbies failed, I tried educating myself, downloading a
few language apps so I can become the polyglot Iâve always wanted to be.
But, I swear to god, if that little owl pops up on my phone one more time urging me to practice my
Frenchâ¦
Well, letâs just say that while Iâve always braked for birds, I wonât be doing that anymore. (2)
So, now, itâs just me and this damn tv. And my brain slowly rotting to much as I sit here on bedâ, rest.â
Even though itâs bed torture.
And itâs not that Sinclair isnât kind. We meet every night in the dream space, but in our waking hours he
only has so much time. Heâs working so hard to bring our people together, to unite human and wolf
kind, and I donât have the heart to tell him that Iâm so bored Iâve tried to see how many Oreos I can
stack on my forehead before they all come crashing down around me.
(Eighteen.)
I know that if I even gave him a hint that I was miserable, heâd drop everything and come to my side,
entertain me, make me laugh. But what kind of queen would I be if I took him away from our people? I
know that I have to be strong butâ¦damn, itâs hard. Who would have thought that a charge through a
shelled city towards a temple I could handle, but laying in bed for ten days is really the thing that takes
me out?
The only real relief I find is when I am in the dream state, either with Sinclair or alone, so I spend as
much time as I can sleeping or napping. I feel freest when itâs just me. I love my time with my mate,
when we spend our night hours touching and holding each other in ways we canât in the real world, but
when Iâm alone? I transform into my wolf and run â
I run through rivers and up the sides of mountains, feeling the snow crunch beneath my paws. I run
through moonlit forests and drink from silver lakes. I sprint across deserts, the pads of my feet so swift
they barely touch the sand. Sometimes, when I look over my shoulder, I see a little pup running along
with me, giving little yips of satisfaction and joy. Heâs not always there, but when he is, I feel my heart
could burst from the joy of it.
But a girl can only sleep so much, especially when sheâs got nothing to do all day but sit around.
So thatâs what has landed me here, flipping through channel 826. Passively, I wonder what happens
after I hit channel 999. Does it go back to 0? Or does it just go onâ¦foreverâ¦.
Suddenly I sigh and toss the remote across the bed, giving a little growl of aggravation.
Damn it, I need something to do. Iâm a wolf, after all. We werenât meant to lay in bed all day, passive. I
have to get up, I have to move around and see things.
For the millionth time, I wrack my brain, trying to come up with a solution, wondering how the people I
love would handle it. Cora, of course, would grit through it, the way she did med school â just putting
her head down and enduring the unpleasantness, knowing the great reward is coming at the end.
Sinclairâ¦well, he would probably ignore the doctors and push forward with his life. And while that
sounds amazing, I promised I wouldnât.
I slump down against my pillows, running through all the people I know, when suddenly my mind alights
on Sinclairâs father. Henry.
I gasp, inspired, and grab for my phone. As quickly as I can, I pull up his contact information and call
him, crossing my fingers and praying that he picks up.
âHello?â
âHenry!â I burst out. âHenry, I have a great idea. Can you help me out?â
A few hours later, the house is full of people.
âYes, this is perfect,â I breathe, holding on to the service technicianâs arm as he lifts me from the bed.
My head snaps up as I hear a ragged snarl rip across the room.
âGet your hands off my mate.â I hear Sinclair demand, his voice livid with a murderous threat. The
technician spins and, when he sees the huge werewolf in front of him ready to rip his head off, starts to
shake so hard he almost drops me.
âNo!â I cry as the technician starts to put me back down on the bed. I point a finger in his face, giving
him a harsh look and speaking in my best Luna voice. âDonât you dare put me back in that bed. I will flip
out.â
Torn, the technician whips his head between me and the doorway, not knowing what to do and fearing
for his life either way.
Suddenly, Sinclair pulls me from the technicianâs arms before I can say a word and holds me close
against his chest. âGet out,â he growls at the man, his voice low. âAnd if I ever see you again â even
once in your life ââ
I hear the rapid patter of feet and know that heâs gone, but I try to peek around Sinclairâs shoulder
anyway.
âSeriously!?â I cry, glaring up at him. âYou had to scare him off like that?!â
âHe had his hands on you, Ella,â Sinclair snarls, and I can see the rage still alight in his eyes. I smirk, a
little pleased by his jealousy beyond my annoyance. Sinclair narrows his eyes at me for a moment and
then looks to the side at the shiny new wheelchair sitting there, waiting for me.â
What the hell is all of this, Ella?â
âMy salvation,â I say, beaming at the chair with love in my eyes, admiring its gleaming wheels and all of
the buttons on its control board. âItâs state of the art â Iâll be able to ââ
âElla,â my mate snaps, drawing my attention back to him. âYou were commanded to stay in bed.â
âThis is bedâadjacent!â I cry, defiant. âItâs the same thing, basically! I sit up in bed, why canât I sit in a
chair!â
âThatâs not the point,â he explains, angry. âYouâre supposed to be resting, healing
âDominic,â I interrupt, letting my face drop so that he can see the desperation beneath. âPlease. This
isâ¦â I shake my head, hoping he will understand. âIt is killing me to sit around all day doing nothing.
Please, Dominic. I wonât even leave the house. I just have to get out of bed.â
My mate pauses for a moment, staring down at me, his eyes softening. âElla,â he says, working hard to
keep his voice even. âIf you were so miserable, why didnât you tell me ââ
But I just slowly shake my head and his words fall away. He knows why. He nods, understanding, and
then heaves a big sigh, turning and carrying me out into the hall where workers are buzzing around at
the staircase.
âAnd what are these ones doing?â He asks, yielding to me.
âTheyâre putting in my stairlift,â I reply, my eyes bright and my words breathless with wonder. Isnât it
amazing?â
âElla,â he scolds, shaking his head at me. âWhat is all of this even going to do â
âItâs easy!â I exclaim, feeling true enthusiasm for the first time in a week. âYour dad helped me set it up
â just a chair upstairs, and a stairlift, and a chair downstairs, and I have full run of the house! Itâs
amazing, and I never have to get up! Even Doctor Hank and Cora said it was okay.â
Sinclair takes another deep breath, holding my gaze, but a huge smile bursts onto my face as I see him
visibly give in.
âAll right, trouble,â he murmurs, carrying me back into the bedroom where he places me gently in my
new chair. âBut I have a feeling that this is a terrible idea.â
âNo! The best idea!â I cry, pressing the forward control on the chair and zooming out into the hall. âItâs
going to be great!â
Immediately, I hear Sinclair skitter out into the hall after me when he hears the crashing sound that I
make, totally by accident. His face is terrified
âUm,â I say, biting my lip and looking down at the poor broken vase I knocked on the floor. âYou didnât
like that oneâ¦right?â