Chapter 319: The Archive
Accidental Surrogate for Alpha
Cora
That evening, our car rumbles down the road towards the archive, Roger steady at the wheel. Another
car with two guards follows behind us, keeping a steady eye out for anything strange. I sigh, already
exhausted, even though I got more sleep than Ella or Roger or Sinclair last night. Still it wasnât exactly
a peaceful sleep â and then today, with the sketch artistâ¦
I stare down at a copy of the sketch in my lap, at the face of the man I didnât realize had been haunting
my dreams. To be able to see him put on paper like this â itâsâ¦itâs like staring at the ghost you didnât
know was haunting you. A little shiver passes through me and I neatly fold the page, placing it in the
cup holder next to me, not wanting it in my hands anymore.
âYou all right?â Roger asks, glancing over at me.
âYeah,â I say, sighing again, my eyes on the road. âHow long until we get there?â
âAbout two more hours,â he replies evenly, nodding towards the GPS system running on his phone.
âWeâre lucky that theyâre staying open late for us.â
âWeâre not lucky,â I murmur, leaning down to tug at the bottom of the jeans that Ella loaned to me
which are, predictably, too short. âSinclair is rich. Anyone will stay open that late in exchange for an
insane donation.â
Roger smirks, glancing at me, but doesnât reply. Because he knows Iâm right.
I feel my phone buzz then, tucked under my thigh, and I pull it out, unlocking it and looking at the
new message on my screen.
Hank: Itâs okay, I totally understand. Iâm glad the baby is okay. Donât worry about the clinic â I can hold
it down for as long as you need. Have fun? Is that the right sentiment for a trip to an obscure shifter
archive?
I smile, laughing a little inwardly at his joke. No, fun was not precisely the word Iâd choose either, not for
this trip. My smile falls, though, when another message pops onto the screen.
Hank: I miss you.
I glance away from it, licking my lips awkwardly and tucking the phone back under my leg. I look back
to the windshield and realize that Roger is watching me from the corner of his eye.
âWho was that?â he asks, smug. I know, instantly, that he already knows.
âNobody,â I murmur, turning away.
âWas it Ella?â he quips, needling me.
I turn to send a little glare his way. âIt wasnât Ella.â
âOh,â he says, smirking now. But he lets it drop. Itâs enough for him, I guess, to let me know that he
knows. I sigh, closing my eyes and letting my head rest back against my seat, my face turned away
from Roger, wanting a little nap but knowing Iâm not going to get it.
Instead, my mind wanders to Hank, and I think of him seeing patients alone in our little clinic all
night â god, was it only last night? â when Iâd pulled him half dressed into my bedroom, gasping for
him, and let him peel my clothes from my body beforeâ¦
Well. Before stuff happened.
Good stuff. Great stuff, even.
So why canât I text him back and tell him that I miss him too?
I sigh, willing my mind away from it, turning it towards other things. I listen to the steady hum of the car,
to the very, very faint sound of Roger breathing next to me. But I donât reach for my phone. Somehow, I
just donât want to.
And as I drift off to sleep, I wonder if that makes me justâ¦.incredibly cruel. I sigh, kind of hating myself
right now, but not knowing what to do about it.
Two hours later, I jump at the soft touch of a hand on my shoulder. I gasp, spinning, to see Roger
looking at me curiously.
âEye for an eye,â he says, giving me a warm little smirk. âThatâs how you woke me up this morning.
With a jolt.â
âSorry,â I murmur, rubbing my eye sleepily and looking around in the dark. âAre we here?â The car is
parked but still running, the windshield wipers slowly moving against a light rain. I look at it curiously,
surprised. The forecast didnât say anything about rain tonight.
âYup,â Roger says. âAre you ready to go in? Do you need a minute?â
I stretch in my seat, my eyes closed, and take a mental inventory of myself. Body? Stiff, but all right.
Mind? Thoroughly shaken. Heart?
â¦best left uninvestigated, for the moment.
âYup,â I say, turning a sunny smile Rogerâs way. He blinks a little bit, perhaps surprised to see it.â Did
you hear anything from Ella and Sinclair?â
Roger shakes his head, turning off the car and unbuckling his seatbelt. âI heard from them,â he says,
âbut nothing of note. All is well at home. If weâre lucky, we can do our research here tonight and be
home by dawn.â
We both climb out of the car and I frown at him over the roof. âBut then you wonât have slept at all, for
twentyâfour hours,â I say.
Roger gives me a swift wink, stretching himself after long hours at the wheel. âDonât worry about me,
baby,â he says. âIâve got stamina.â And then he heads for the entrance to the ornate building in front of
us, jogging up the stairs without me.
As I turn to follow, the last thought echoing in my mind isâ¦I bet you fucking do, Roger.
Inside, weâre greeted by a friendly, eager librarian. As she smiles widely at us and leads us into a pretty
reading room, dimly lit by golden sconces on the wall, I remind myself that sheâs not actually excited to
see us.- sheâs pumped about the gigantic donation that Sinclair must have made to get us in here
overnight.
we ve punen some books that we Ñ you use, me mua says, gestumy towards a stack of maybe one
hundred and twenty old leather tomes stacked on the tables in front of us. My eyes go wide, taking in
the extent of them. âWe do know that the Cult of the Goddess adopted the robe that we now
understand to be traditional about five hundred years ago. Assuming that the cult that you are
searching for is in some way imitating that tradition, we were able to narrow down the selection to the
past five hundred years.â
âThis?â I say, gesturing towards the books with my brows raised. âThis is the narrowed selection?â
The librarian nods at me, giving us both an eager smile.
âThank you,â Roger says, smiling back at her warmly.
âIâll be here if you need me,â the librarianâsays, gesturing towards the desk at the head of the room.
âBut please, make yourself at home. Justâ¦â she hesitates, looking between us. âPlease noâ¦food or
drinkâ¦around the books.â
âWe promise,â Roger says, giving her the most charming smile Iâve ever seen from him. âWeâll protect
the books at all costs. No sticky fingers here.â The librarian blushes, then giggles, and scurries away.
âWow,â I say, coming to Rogerâs side. âYou hadâ¦quite the effect on her,â I whisper, watching her go.
âLibrarians love me,â Roger says, giving a little shrug. âI donât know why. Itâs always been a thing! âAre
you sure you just donât like librarians?â I ask, smirking and raising a single brow in his direction. Roger
looks at me consideringly and I raise my hand to the side of my face, pretending to lower a pair of
hornârimmed glasses down the length of my nose, looking at him seductively over the edge of them.
âOh Mr. Sinclair, please, let me tell you all about the
Dewey Decimal system,â I tease, my voice breathy and sensual.
Roger smirks at me, taking a step closer. âYou watch yourself with that,â he murmurs, looking down at
me with a little pretend heat behind his eyes. At leastâ¦I think itâs pretend. âIf youâre not careful, Iâll pull
you behind the stacks and ravish you. Wonât be able to stop myself.â
â
I laugh, then, suddenly, at the shock of it â at Roger making a joke to me, to begin, and then a funny
one at that. The sound is too loud in this quiet space. I slap a hand over my mouth, still giggling, and
look over at the little librarian, who looks towards us, a little shocked. Roger laughs as well, his sound
much more libraryâappropriate, contained and measured. âCome on,â he nodding towards the pile.
âLetâs get started.â
Smiling, I comply, sitting down at the table and pulling the first book towards me.