Chapter 463
Accidental Surrogate for Alpha
Ella âElla,â my mate growls as my tears start to subside a little bit. And I look up at him with a sniff, into
his face that is terribly dark with his anger. His whole body is shaking â not trembling like mine was, but
honestly shaking as if heâs trying very, very hard to hold himself back.
âYou need to tell me, right now,â Sinclair continues, his voice thick with the effort of not bursting from
the room and hunting down the Prince, â what the hell just happened. I need to know whether or not I
need to go murder someone.â A dark little laugh bursts from me at this â at the casual way my
gorgeous mate threatens murder â and his growl intensifies because he is perfectly serious.
Hastily I shake my head no as I look up at him.
âNo, Dominic,â I say, doing my best to pull myself together and stand up straight.
âItâs not like that â itâsâ¦â and I sigh, my eyes going wide. âI mean, itâs a lot â but he didnât do anything
really bad.â To my surprise, Dominic snarls, his head whipping towards the door.
âDominic, I just said that â â âYou said not really bad,â he snaps, implying that he did something bad.â I
reach a hand up now and place it on his cheek, something about Sinclair losing his temper allowing me
to fortify myself, to pull myself together for both of us. âIâm going to need you to contain all of this,â I say
quietly, making him look at me. âBecause you are not going to like what I have to say. But you have to
hear it.â âPlease, Ella,â he murmurs, dropping his arms from their tight place around me and taking my
face in his hands. â Youâre killing me. Please, please tell me what is going on.â âNot until you promise
not to murder anyone,â I say, dead serious.
And he sighs, but then he nods, agreeing to my terms.
And then I take my mateâs hand and I lead him over to the bed. I take a moment just the briefest one
peer into my babyâs crib, my heart filling with joy at the sight of my sweet, darling baby boy. I send him
a very tiny pulse of happiness and joy down the bond, hoping it gives him sweet dreams, and then I
turn to my bed, and I pull back the covers, and I kick off my shoes and climb in fully dressed. to âWhat
the hell?â Sinclair asks. âElla, youâre -â âJust get into bed,â I sigh, reaching for him. âCome on bed isâ¦
itâs where we are just us, where we have all our best talks.â Sinclair sighs but, seeing that Iâm serious,
he does as I say, crawling over me to get to his side of the bed and then slipping himself under the
covers. I immediately curl up next to him, tucking my head beneath his chin as he wraps his arms
around me.
âAll right, trouble,â he murmurs, again kissing the top of my head, and I smile at the nickname, because
it lets me know that heâs in a better emotional place to hear news that I know is going to wreck him.
âTell me everything.â And I do as my mate says.
I start at the beginning and I donât hold anything back.
I tell him all about how much Calvin and I were instantly drawn to each other from the moment I saw
him, about the pulses of energy between us whenever we touched. I tell him about the genuine
friendship I feel for the man and our instant connection â how it feels, immediately, like talking to an old
friend. And then I tell him about what happened tonight â the glow between us, the spark within me that
Iâm pretty sure he felt within himself, the very literal energy that passes between our bodies when weâre
close.
Sinclair goes tenser and tenser as I speak, but he doesnât interrupt. I wind my arms closer around him
not only because Iâm grateful for him, but also because I think he needs it, needs to feel my body close
so that he doesnât race out of the room and hunt this man down.
But he breaks when I finally tell him Calvinâs last words.
âAnd he saidâ¦Dominic, he says he thinks that Iâm his mate.â The snarl that rips from Sinclair when I
say the words even I draw back in fear as he pulls himself from my arms and throws himself out of bed,
his chest heaving, his eyes on the door. His whole body is trembling again, harder now, and he very
obviously holds himself back from shifting into his wolf and tearing through the palace â looking for this
man Rafe starts to cry in his crib at the sound and I think the insane emotions that are pulsing from
Sinclair at this moment, but I canât even look over at my baby, my eyes only on my mate.
âDominic!â I cry, reaching for him, â donât -â âWhat the hell am I supposed to do, Ella,â he growls, and I
see his body start to shift as he loses control, his shoulders hunching, his nails elongating to
razor sharp claws. âJust let this man live after heâs tried to take you from me!?â âHe didnât -â âHe did!â
Sinclair barks, and then he loses it, letting out a roar as he transforms fully into his wolf and sprints for
the door. He bashes the handle with his paw, breaking it and ripping the door nearly off its hinges as he
wrenches it open And then Iâm alone, my jaw hanging open, sitting in bed in my black gown as my baby
screams in the crib next to me.
It takes meâ¦a long moment to pull myself together as I stare at the open door to the bright hallway, as
I consider.
Well, that my mate is probably out there hunting a Prince, adding more fuel to the fire of war.
But then I turn my head towards my child, who still screams with fear and shock and sadness, and I
know that thereâs absolutely nothing I can do.
And so I slowly stand up, and move to my child, and gather him into my arms and shush him lightly as I
move to the door, pushing it shut as best I can with my foot as I concentrate on my baby.
My heart feels like itâs been torn to shreds, honestly. Iâm livid, I realize, because I need Sinclair with me
tonight I need to talk this through with him, and as much as I realize that heâs upset I canât believe that
he just did that just burst from the room in a murderous rampage.
But as I look down at my child, and I stare at his poor crying face, I force myself to slow my breathing
and start to feelâ¦centered.
Because as much as Calvin may think heâs found his mate, and Sinclair might be rightly flipping out
because he thinks someone tried to take me from him⦠Me?
Iâm steady.
I made my choice long ago, and as I look down at my little Rafe â who looks so much like his father
that it breaks my heart â I have no doubts at all.
I pass calm and feelings of safety down my bond to my baby and he settles a little in my arms, though
he still fusses, unnerved by the noise and the surge of emotions that woke him. So, I continue to
bounce him a little, shushing and murmuring comforting nonsense. As I keep my attention to my baby, I
move towards the window and turn to my wolf inside me.
Well? I say to her, a little pissed off. Youâve been awfully quiet throughout all of this.
She whines a little, guilty, torn, and turns in a confused circle.
Is he our mate? I ask, a little tremulous, considering that sheâs perhaps been quiet because Iâve been
pushing her away, not wanting to know.
She sits back on her haunches, lifting her nose to the sky and letting out a confused howl. I donât know,
she says, hanging her head and then laying down with her snout between her paws. He is â¦he is
something to us. But Dominic is our mate. This other oneâ¦he is important, but I donât know what he is.
I sigh in frustration, passing it to my wolf who again whines, feeling guilty that she canât help me parse
it, that she doesnât know.
And then I turn my face up to the sky, my eyes immediately finding the moon hanging exactly where I
knew it would be.
âWell, mom?â I ask, shaking my head at her. âAre you happy now?â But of course she doesnât reply,
even though I continue to stare at her for a very, very long time.
I donât know how much time has passed before Rafe falls back asleep and I turn away from the
window, heading back to my bed. I take Rafe with me, because Iâm exhausted and far from sleep and I
want his company. I curl up in my bed with my little baby, staring down at his beautiful sleeping face.
Donât do anything youâll regret, I say to Sinclair down our bond, hoping heâs close enough to hear it.
And honestly hoping that my advice is not too late.