Chapter 481
Accidental Surrogate for Alpha
It takes a little over two hours, but finally the last of the doctors leaves, the door clicking shut behind
them.
âFinally,â Roger sighs, falling back into the linens of the freshly-changed bed.
âNow we just have to get our stupid family to leave and weâll get some sleep â â âExcuse me,â I say,
glaring over at him. âIf you think youâre tired -â âFine fine,â he sighs, turning his head to grin at me.
âYouâre right. What can I get you, my love? Do you want anything?â The doctor officially gave me and
Jesse a clean bill of health after I delivered the placenta and Jesse had his first feeding and full check-
up. It was, of course, a relief to have everything turn out right and relatively easy -especially in
comparison to Ellaâs experiences â but now that theyâre all gone?
Honestly, it all feels very real.
Like now I have to be a mom, and Roger has to be a dadall by ourselves.
âI donât know,â I say, laughing a little and looking between Roger and our little baby. âHonestly, itâs all
kind of weird, isnât it? All of this fuss and then they just⦠leave you alone with a baby. To do what you
will.â âI know,â he says, looking at me with wide eyes. âIâm glad you know what to do.
Iâm totally lost.â âI donât know what to do!â I protest, laughing and shaking my head.
âWhat!?â he breaths, sitting up sharply.
âIâm just a doctor, Roger!â I say, laughing harder now and feeling a little hysterical as well as exhausted.
âPeople come to me pregnant, but then I send the babies home with them! I donât know what to do with
a kid â thatâs Ellaâs department.â âWell then,â he says, looking anxiously towards the door. âI take back
my previous words. Ella has to stay â for like, ever.â âOr at least until this kid is six -â âCan we push to
seven?â Roger asks, looking at me with real anxiety that just makes me laugh harder.
Thereâs a little knock on the door but suddenly Roger and I are laughing too hard to answer it. It cracks
open anyway and Ella again peeks her head in.
âI thought I heard the hysteria of new parents,â she says, shaking her head at us and smiling as she
comes into the room. âAre you totally freaking out?â âFull meltdown,â Roger says, wiping a tear of mirth
from his eyes. âWhat are we supposed to likeâ¦do with him?â he asks, gesturing to the baby as Sinclair
comes in after Ella, shutting the door and grinning at us. Rafe fusses, starting to blink awake in
Sinclairâs arms.
âYouâre suppose to love him,â Ella says, coming close and reaching for the baby, which I gladly hand off
to her. â And, you know. Keep him alive.â âLoving I can do,â Roger sighs as Ella folds her legs beneath
her on the bed and Sinclair pulls a chair up to the bedside, completing our little group of six. âThe restâ¦
weâre going to need some help.â âItâs not so hard,â Sinclair says kindly, smiling down at Rafe who
yawns and looks around at us sleepily, a little confused. âThey sleep a lot their first couple of weeks.
And then, after that, they find ways to tell you what they want.â âMaybe we should trade,â Roger says,
looking dubiously between Rafe and Jesse. âYours looksâ¦sturdier.â Ella grins suddenly and looks at
me like sheâs considering the idea but I just laugh and shake my head. âYou canât take my baby, Ella,â I
say, crossing my arms.
âEven if Roger is inept, I still like him.â âI didnât say I didnât like him,â Roger murmurs, sighing and
leaning against me, happy.
Rafe lets out a surprised little screech all of a sudden and all of our eyes turn to him as his own gaze
fastens on his cousin, his eyes going wide like heâs noticing him for the first time.
Which, I mean, he honestly probably is.
âDo you want to see the baby, Rafe?â Ella coos, leaning forward so that Rafe can meet Jesse face-to-
face for the first time.
I smile in surprise and delight when my sweet nephew really does lean forward to see Jesse, his face
very curious. Rafe lets out another little squeak, more demanding this time, and reaches out his hands
towards the baby.
âOh my god,â Sinclair murmurs, looking down at his son with a fascinated and pleased expression. âHe
really does want to go to him!â âThis is Jesse,â Ella says, laughing a little as she beams at her own
baby. â Heâs your new cousin! And I think youâre going to be best friends.â âTheyâd better be,â Roger
murmurs.â Because theyâre going to be together a lot.
Itâs going to be very inconvenient if they donât like each other.â âOh,â I scold, giving him a light smack on
the chest. âThey will. Besides, shut up, I want to watch thisâ¦â And the two of us lean forward as
Sinclair sits Rafe on the bed, letting him lean forward and continue to reach for the baby.
âLay them down,â Ella says softly, her voice a little awed, ânext to each other -â âWhat?â Sinclair asks.
âPlease,â Ella says, almost beyond herself, as if sheâs speaking from instinct.
âLetâs justâ¦try itâ¦â Sinclair looks at me and Roger and I just shrug, fine with it if Ella is. I donât see
Rogerâs response, but I donât hear a protest, so I assume itâs okay.
And so Sinclair gently flips Rafe on his back and lays him out on the blankets, and Ella very gently, very
tentatively places Jesse next to him, close enough for Rafe to touch.
To my shock, the usually rambunctious Rafe stays very, very still for a moment as he stares at his
cousin. And then he begins to turn, and almost gently reaches for Jesse â And the moment they touch,
when Rafeâs fingers brush against Jesseâs cheek, and Jesseâs little eyes flutter open â All four of us
parents take a sharp intake of breath.
Because we all feel it â each and every one of us.
We look around at each other for a spilt second and then all of our eyes dart back to our kids, who are
still touching, just barely, skin to skin.
Rafe babbles a little, saying hello to his new cousin, who just sighs and closes his eyes again.
âOhâ¦oh my godâ¦â Ella says, her hands going to her mouth for a split second before she reaches
down and gathers Jesse back up into her arms. â Did you guysâ¦â âUm, yeah,â Roger says, and I turn
my head to see him staring wide-eyed at Ella.
âYeah, I think itâs fair to say we all felt that.â âWhat was it?â I breathe, fascinated and confused butâ¦not
at all scared.
âItâs a bond,â Sinclair murmurs, pulling a now-giggling Rafe into his lap and stroking his broad hand
over his sonâs hair as he looks around at the rest of us.
âCanât you all feel it?â Each of us, I think, shifts our minds inwards to that place in our hearts or our
minds or our souls where our wolves live, where we access our bonds. And Dominic is right â itâs not a
bond with me, not really. But the bond between me and Jesse, which shines rich and bright between
us? Thereâs⦠something new there, another bond that I can sense beyond it. I canât reach it, or touch
it⦠But I know itâs there.
âOhâ¦weird,â Roger murmurs, his eyes bright now as he smiles at his brother.
âOur kids have a bond? Doâ¦do we have a bond?â âUhm, only the bonds of brotherhood that we forged
sharing a bedroom for ten years,â Sinclair says, shooting Roger a little glare. âI mean, siblings are
bonded through their parents, of course, but a bond like this? And between cousins?â He shakes his
head.
âI mean,â Ella says, giving a smug little shrug. âWe knew they were special.â âJust because you like
them doesnât mean theyâre special,â I say, rolling my eyes at my sister and reaching out for my baby.
Ella laughs and leans over to pass Jesse back to me. I smile when heâs back in my arms, dropping a
kiss to his perfect, tiny little cheek.
âI like them and theyâre special. What do you think it means?â We all look to Sinclair, who just gives a
little shrug. âI have no idea,â he says, âwhy should I know?â âBecause youâre the one who figured it out,â
Roger says, laughing a little.
âWell,â Sinclair says on a sigh. â Thatâs all Iâve got. Maybe it has something to do with being
grandchildren of the goddess. Orâ¦their gifts, or something. I have no idea.â âI wonder if any future kids
will be likewise bonded,â I murmur, smiling a little as I think of that possibility. Because, honestly, even
though Iâm bone tiredâ¦Iâm already starting to forget some of the miseries of pregnancy.
I know that Iâve only been a mom for a couple of hours now butâ¦I already really love it. Iâm starting to
understand Ellaâs mania for more, honestly. I smile down at my baby, thinking that if heâs this great
already⦠Well, then I probably want likeâ¦five more. Maybe not anytime soonâ¦I want to enjoy this one
first. But yeah. Quite suddenly, I definitely want more.
âOnly one way to find out,â Sinclair says, and I donât miss the way that he smiles at Ella. I grin privately
to myself, but my smile quickly turns into a yawn.
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