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Looking out of the window I watch as Cas bids the group off to the Moon Ceremony. Thanks to The

Elders and now Dean’s fast arrival, me and Cas decided it was best to send Rowan with some Pack

members to at least give Everfur a presence for the first time in years.

“Alright, let’s try this again.” I murmur to Dean as I sit down in the rocking chair that appeared this

morning. I think Cas was sick of seeing me try to get comfortable in the bed, I will admit it’s much

easier to feed Dean in the rocking chair.

‘You mean try and feed.‘ Ghost taunts me, for some reason ever since Dean was born she’s been

really snarky and a little mean to me.

‘I’m trying.‘ I tell her as I pull my bra down and expose my nipple to Dean’s squealing mouth, as normal

he tries to latch on but he just can’t seem to get the idea.

‘Animals in the wild do this, can you just feed him already.‘ Sighing I drop my head back as Dean

continues to scream his little lungs out. He fed that first time but now we are two days in and he has not

eaten a thing. I can’t help but feel like I’m failing him in some way.

“No one ever taught me how to do this alright. I’ve just been given a pup and basically been expected

to know what to do, I don’t understand why he isn’t feeding.” I feel the warm tears start to slide. down

my face as the frustration becomes too much and I can’t contain my emotions any longer. It’s like a

dam breaks and finally the river has overflown and there is no stopping it.

“Luna?” I sniffle and look up to see Sally pushing her way into the bedroom with a warm smile on her

face. “Oh Eva.” Sally drops whatever she’s holding onto the bed and rushes over to me in the rocking

chair.

“He wont eat!” I wail, “he just screams and screams, he hates me!” Sally crouches down in front of us

and puts a wrinkled hand on my knee, it’s a comforting gesture and one I find myself needing.

“Eva? Angel, what’s wrong?” I tuck my face into my chest as Cas comes barrelling into the bedroom, I

don’t want him to see me breaking down about our son.

“Alpha, with all due respect, please leave and give me some time with Eva.” I’ve never heard Sally talk

to Cas like that before and what’s even more shocking is Cas actually nods his head and leaves the

bedroom.

“You just kicked your Alpha out of his own room.” I sniffle as I giggle a little, Dean still continues to

scream his little lungs out.

“Well, Alpha or not he’s still a man and right now you need some help.” I watch as she crouches down

next to me and starts to stroke at Dean’s full head of black hair, “babies are really good at sensing our

moods. If you are tired and stressed, he will be too, it will make him not want to feed. So, pass him here

and I’ll get him settled while you go and shower and then you can try again.” Reluctantly I hand Dean

over and stand from the rocking chair.

“Are you sure?” I ask her as Dean continues to scream, his tiny hands. are clenched in rage and his

face is bright red.

“I’m certain, once you have finished showering you can try again and if it still doesn’t work then I have

brought a bottle up so he gets a little something in his tummy.” I’m swamped with guilt as I walk away

from a crying Dean and shushing Sally, I leave them alone in the bedroom

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to head into the adjoining bathroom.

This bathroom is much bigger than the one in the basement, there is actually a bath in this one, it has

little jets on it that I can’t wait to try out. The shower is massive with little water jets that blast you from

the sides, I haven’t really had time to enjoy either of them but I will one day. Very aware that Dean is

still screaming the Pack house down I quickly strip out of my sleep wear and step into the shower.

Looking down at my body I notice the c–section scar is now just a red line, Selena said it takes humans

weeks to be able to even walk after but thanks to Ghost I am able to be up and about just over forty–

eight hours. afterwards.

‘You realise you just left your new–born with a random Pack member.‘ I roll my eyes at Ghost as she

continues to attack me about my failings as a mother.

“What’s your problem?” I ask her as I rinse the shampoo from my hair.

‘I’m exhausted, all the pup does is cry day and night. You realise when. I’m not chatting to you I’m

normally sleeping.‘ I nod my head in understanding, me and Cas haven’t exactly had a lot of sleep

either, Ghost’s attacks actually make more sense now.

‘Lets try this again.” I tell her as I turn off the water and ring the excess from my hair, stepping from the

shower I wrap myself in one of the bath towels hanging from the door.

“You need to try and eat something little one, your momma and papa need sleep so they can look after

you properly.” Sally is speaking quietly to Dean as he continues to wail in her arms, she’s walking back.

and forth across the bedroom as she bounces him softly.

“Alright, let’s try this again.” I tell Sally as I shrug myself into Cas’s

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massive bathrobe, I don’t have one of my own. He keeps offering to get me one but I like wearing his

so why bother. Walking over to the rocking chair I sit down and hold my hands out for Dean, his little

face is scrunched up, his little face is bright red and he’s making so much noise it actually assaults my

ears.

“Alright, nice relaxing breath and then bring him to the nipple.” I nod my head at Sally as I bring my

chest down to Dean, he continues to wail as his little lips smack against my nipple. It’s almost like he’s

searching for it but can’t quite figure out it’s right there in front of him.

“Come on Dean, it’s right there.” I tell him softly, I can feel Ghost willing me to just shove my breast into

his mouth but even I know that’s not the right move. “It’s not working.” I tell Sally as I feel the tears start

to boil to the surface again, “it’s me, he doesn’t want me.” Sally kneels down in front of me and starts to

run a gentle finger down the side of Dean’s face.

“It’s not you, every mother goes through something like this. Books and movies set unrealistic

standards and most babies struggle at first. Once he gets going he won’t stop but if you really are

struggling I have some formula.” I shake my head as I try to bring my nipple to him again, he again

continues to wail and scream.

“All the books say ‘breast is best‘. Even Selena said it.” I hiccup as I start to cry again, “I need to do

this, he needs this from me.” Sally puts a hand on my arm making me look up at her.

“It’s only the best if both mother and baby can get on board with it. Formula doesn’t mean you have

failed, it just means he will finally have a full belly and maybe even sleep.” Sally’s eyes hold mine as I

slowly nod my head. I really wanted to do this whole breastfeeding thing but honestly I don’t know how

much longer I can do this. I’m becoming overwhelmed and I know Dean must be starving and if Sally is

right then he is éxperiencing all of my stress and anxiety too.

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“What do I do?” I ask as Sally walks over to the bed and plucks up the bottle of formula she popped

onto it when she first came in.

“It’s already at the right temperature, after you have slept I’ll show you how to make it up.” I accept the

bottle of white liquid from her and adjust myself so I’m fully covered, “now just hold him and bring the

teat to his lips.” I nod my head as I do just that, Dean continues to scream but as soon as a small drop

of liquid falls onto his lips he latches onto the nipple shaped teat and starts suckling like his life.

depends on it.

“He’s doing it!” I say with joy, Sally beams at us as I give a deep sigh and lean back in the rocking chair,

“thank you Sally.”

“Don’t mention it, every new momma gets overwhelmed at some point. I helped with Cas and multiple

Pack pups so if you have any questions. you just ask.” I grip her hand in mine and look into her eyes as

we both listen to the peace and quiet of Dean finally eating.