Chapter 90

Her Cold-Hearted Alpha Chapter 90

His Turmoil

KIARA

I awoke feeling something poking my stomach . Apart from that , I felt so relaxed . Why did I feel so

snug ? I opened my eyes slowly , my heart racing when I looked at the partially tattooed chest in front

of me .

My breath hitched , my stomach erupted in butterflies as his familiar scent wrapped around me . Oh ,

Goddess … How did we end up in bed together ? I tensed , knowing exactly what was poking me .

The realisation sent a rush of pleasure through me and my entire body heated u p . trying my best not

to adjust my position . I didn’t want to wake him up . I knew I wanted him . The mate bond , my own

turmoiled emotions , and my wolf’s urges were threatening to drown me . ” Hey …

” Alejandro’s thick sexy voice came . ” What’s up ? ” No , don’t look at me …. I tried to move away only

to feel him throb against me . M y own desire was only growing , and I knew he would smell my arousal

.

Kill me now , goddess … I slowly looked up into his eyes , my cheeks burning with shame . Ready to

be mocked . His eyes were dark , and I didn’t miss the desire in them . ” L – let go . ” I whispered ,

despite my entire body and soul urging me to push him onto the bed and kiss him .

He raised a hand , running his fingers down my cheek , I knew he could hear my heart , see the

reaction my body had towards him … He searched for something in my eyes , and it was at that

moment that I sensed his emotions , I was so lost in my own raging hormones that I didn’t even realise

the chaos he was feeling .

Concern filled m e , I had sensed many emotions from Alejandro but never had I sensed this level of

confusion , worry , distress , and guilt … Why was he guilty ? My heart twisted and I wondered if he

had gone somewhere at night … Did he … No , h e wouldn’t … Although the thought crossed my mind

, I didn’t believe it . Then what was it ? ” Calm down . ” He said quietly .

” I’m calm , what’s worrying you ? ” I asked , not missing him tense slightly . He looked away and shook

his head slowly . Wouldn’t he share his problem ? I pulled away , feeling an ache inside . What were w

e ? I sat up , but before I got any further , he had tugged me back into his arms .

My back hit his chest , his muscular arms wrapped around me tightly from behind . My heart thudded

as he buried his head into my neck . ” I’m sorry . ” He whispered . I tensed , what for ? Why was he

apologising ? He said he wouldn’t apologise …

” For everything I’ve put you through . ” He murmured as if understanding my silent question . His lips

grazed my neck and I let out a small whimper of pleasure .

My eyes fluttered shut . His large manhood now touching my ass . The urge to rub myself against him

was threatening me , but before I could even argue , or do anything , he pulled me completely against

him , crushing our bodies together as one .

Our hearts raced as one and I didn’t move , I had no idea why he felt so conflicted , but It was clear that

he wasn’t able to tell me … ” We both acted on physical attraction , we didn’t really communicate … we

didn’t share our problems .

We made choices based on our own issues . Yes , you hurt me Alejandro … but I hurt you too … so

please … stop feeling guilty for it . ” I whispered , despite how strongly the bond was pulling me to him ,

I meant those words . We had acted recklessly , deciding our own paths , making our own assumptions

, and hurting the other .

” I knew you were my mate before the fucking blood moon . ” He said , so quietly that I barely heard .

My heart pounded and I pulled away , putting distance between us . ” You knew … ” I whispered ,

hating the fact my eyes were stinging . He sat up , a god in all aspects . ” I knew when I was falling for

you .

That you weren’t just any fucking she – wolf … and that’s when I decided to stay away from you , to

force myself to go ahead with the engagement . The reason I needed a distraction at the mating ball ,

the reason I didn’t host it . ” He said quietly .

I didn’t know what to make of it . He hurt me when he knew I was his mate . That made the stinging

pain worse … But at the same time , it meant he had cared for me long before the mate bond even

came into effect …

And the night I slept with Rayhan he knew I was his mate . How had he felt ? My eyes threatened to

spill at the very thought of what I had put him through . ” You said you wouldn’t apologise , so why now

? ” I whispered . I felt scared , like this was goodbye .

Why did it feel like this ? ” I said I’d show you … but I don’t think there is any shit I can ever do to make

up for all the crap . ” He said quietly . ” Alejandro … What happened ? You weren’t like this at night … ”

I scooted closer and cupped his face .

” You’re scaring me . ” He gripped my wrists and looked at me . I knew he was struggling to say

whatever it was . ” Tell me what it is … ” I urged , not missing his gaze lingering on my lips . ” I don’t

want you coming with me to the forest .

You said yourself , you got a bad feeling about it . ” ” Al ! I thought you were ok with me going with you .

Why change your mind now ? ” I asked . Worry now replaced with frustration .

I shoved his shoulders in annoyance . That made him smirk . ” Al , huh ? When did we get that close ?

” He teased . ” We’ve already fucked , I don’t think calling you Al , will beat that . Stop changing the

topic . Tell me , why don’t you want me to come ? Did you get some more news ?

Together , we could probably do a lot better . Whatever there is in that forest , my powers could be of

some use ….. ” I tried to ignore the way he was stroking m y waist or that sexy arrogant smile that

lingered on his face . ” I do have reasons …

Can you not be so fucking stubborn ? ” He said , frowning when he realised I was not going to back

down . ” I can and I will . ” I said , my eyes flashing . I knew he was hiding something from me .

” If I don’t want to take you I sure as fuck won’t . ” He shot back . ” I’d like to see you try to stop me . ” I

glared at him , mustering up my most icy look I could . ” What are you going to do ? Try to act tough ?

Give me fucking baby shoves ? You sure aren’t that fucking strong now , are you ?

” He mocked . Ok , although I loved the fact he sounded like his normal , annoying sexy self again . I It

was annoying . ” You want hard , I’ll show you hard . ” I said , glaring at him , as I punched his shoulder

harder . He was pushed back a little but still unphased . ” Is that all you got , sweetheart ?

” He taunted . Oh , he sure asked for it ! ” Urgh you are so annoying ! ” I said and this time I smacked

him again , using all m y force . It knocked him back onto his pillow , making me gasp . My heart

skipped a beat as he pulled me along with him . I

was now on top of him , my eyes widening in surprise . ” Never said I fucking wasn’t . ” He remarked .

His hands that were on my waist dipped lower ever so slightly as he gripped my hips . I glared at him in

frustration , but despite that ,

I couldn’t resist the way I felt , the way my core ached , the storm within me or this sexual tension that

was growing between us . Our eyes met and I was very aware of his abs pressing against my core

through the thin fabrics of my shorts and panties .

My chest rose and fell , I was drowning in him and I didn’t want to ever surface …. L … ” You need to

be careful , Amore Mio ….. Because your arousal is driving me fucking crazy . I won’t be able to control

myself .

” He growled , his eyes flashing red . My heart thudded in my chest , but I wanted this . I leant closer ,

running my hands over his shoulders . ” Maybe I don’t want you to control yourself . ” I whispered

seductively , my core throbbing .

I didn’t miss the flash of surprise on his face as I bent down , my gaze dipping to to his lips , but before

I could kiss him . He turned his head away , making a sharp sting of pain rush through me . ” Wait … I

need to tell you something first . He said quietly . Moonlight Muse Author Thank you for reading.