Chapter 39: Loneliness

Loneliness Reiner grabbed his butler uniform and quickly headed for his own room under the excuse of needing to change out of his wet clothes. In reality, he needed to be alone and away from Natalia. He entered his room and locked the door behind him. Once the door was closed, Reiner slumped down onto the floor leaning back against the door of his room.

“Natalia...” Reiner panted her name with his eyes closed as he unbuckled his belt. Then he rapidly unzipped his pants to free his ginormous throbbing shaft from the restrictive fabric. He looked at his erect tool, the proof of his desire to make love to Natalia. Pretending not to feel anything while touching her soft naked body was now taking a toll on his own body and mind. He had to escape from Natalia’s side before his carnal urges took over.

It’s only my second day with her and | already want to fuck her. Worst, | already fucked her with my fingers until she came. I'm still surprised at my lack of restraint when I'm around her. Although, keeping true to my word, she did ask for it. Hearing her scream out Edward’s name while they mated crazily last night sort of pissed me off. | need to keep my hands off her but thinking of her seductive voice when she moaned out my name passionately is going to make it much harder than | thought. Unfortunately, | can understand a bit now why Edward could not resist his urge to go all the way with her.

Raising his palm to his nose, Reiner could still smell the smell of her skin mixed with the smell of her soap on his hand, bringing back memories of his recent play with Natalia. He felt desire stir in his loins as his cock hardened and grew bigger. Grabbing his heated cock in his hand, he started to stroke it up and down...

Laura just finished dressing me up to look pretty much like a little doll. I let her pick out my outfit for the day and she chose a camelia patterned pastel pink knee-length dress for me. She matched that with some comfortable sandals and a wide-brim hat.

“My lady should relax out in the garden. | can help serve tea and some snacks, of course. The weather today is nice...and umm...Master Lucien has ordered, | mean, requested for you to stay home for today...” Laura suggested in a timid voice I see. Lucien looked overly worried when he visited me at the hotel. Passing me a “request” through my maid is a signal that this request was not up for negotiation. If he told me directly, then he would have to hear my protests or answer to my questions. I wish I could see more of Lucien and soon. He’s been too busy lately; he’s not even home today.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror. Although, I am not 100% in love with my dolled-up look, I do appreciate Laura’s effort to cheer me up. Dressing me up and encouraging me to enjoy afternoon tea in the garden in order to ease my boredom and depression of staying at home all day at Lucien’s request. Laura is genius of all maids.

“T’ll be heading to the garden then,” I told her as I smiled back.

“Yes. I will set up your afternoon tea for your shortly,” Laura said with a slight bow.

Sorry Laura, I have other plans in mind besides having afternoon tea. Luckily, Reiner didn’t seem to be around anymore. I just want to have some alone time right now to reflect on things. I headed out of the house and headed towards the common garden of the family’s estate. The garden was huge and was divided into a few zones including the French style garden including a pretty cool maze, the green house where rare flowers and herbs were cultivated, and the general garden zone with winding small walkways with trees and flowers on both sides.

During the short time that my mother and I lived together on this estate before she tragically passed away, we would spend a lot of time together in the garden. My mother’s favorite zone was the greenhouse due to her interest in herbs. For me, my favorite zone is the French style garden because of the maze. Zak and I played hide and seek together a lot in the maze when we were younger. However, the zone that I was headed towards at this moment is the general zone.

There is a secret spot there that mother and I liked to escape to in order to spend quality time alone. When I was younger, I didn’t realize that my mother probably wanted to be away from the prying eyes of the maids and other family members, but now I understand her feelings all too well.

Found it. The tree that I’ve been looking for. I haven’t been here for years but the tree looks the same as I remembered in my precious memories. To be honest, there is nothing super special about this tree except that it had a branch large and low enough that I could access with a climb and sit on while I watched the sunset.

Sorry Laura, I’m going to ruin the dress that you picked out so carefully for me. I hiked the skirt up a bit as I began to climb up the tree. The climb was not hard or high since the branch was just slightly above my head. Of course, the climb was more exciting when I was smaller and the branch seemed like it was much higher up. I got on the branch without much of a struggle.

Sitting on the branch while dangling my legs really does bring back memories of my mother and the time we spent here together.

I feel so lonely, Mummy.

Tears were already in my eyes and threatening to pour. I guess I’ve been holding them in all this time. I knew from real life experience that crying wouldn’t bring my mother back but that doesn’t mean that I don’t cry over her death sometimes.

However, today I’m crying for a different reason.

**Beep Beep**

A text message?

“Lucien told me that you want to terminate your internship at the lab.”

Such an emotionless text. Is that a question, a statement or...what is it? Edward, I can never tell what you’re thinking.

--To be continued.