Reiner – Figuring Out Our Feelings

“R…Why have you been avoiding me? You’ve been so cold…” I complained softly.

Reiner did not reply but he didn’t let go of me, so I decided to continue on. The warmth of his hand on my back and waist and his embrace around my body gave me the confidence that I needed to press on.

“You have no idea how lonely and lost I felt. Why do you have to be so mean to me? I’m not going to go back home; I’m staying here no matter what…” I said determinedly.

If I went back home, then that would be the end of us. He does understand that, right? If that’s the case, then I’ll never go home. I felt my brows furrow as my stubborn streak quickly took over. Reiner looked at me with a concerned expression, but he didn’t say anything. It was as if he was waiting for me to say all that I had to say and I appreciated that. At least this time he was willing to listen to me and if that was the case then, I’m not going to hold back my words any more.

“Are you really going to leave me and marry someone else? That girl, Rachael or whatever, are you really going to marry her?” I asked clearly as I stared straight into his eyes.

Reiner was silent. After watching his lack of reaction for a while, I decided to continue pushing further.

“I know that she’s quite pretty. She’s tall and has a nice body. Her hair is nice too…and her smile…but still…” I mumbled.

Does he really love her?

Reiner’s eyes widened slightly before narrowing at me and I realized that I’ve just said something that I shouldn’t have. It was no surprise that Reiner would immediately pick up on it, though.

“You’ve seen her. When?” Reiner asked as his blue eyes narrowed at me.

“Does it matter?” I asked, not willing to back down.

“When?” Reiner repeated his question sternly.

“That day…when she came to see you at the mansion. It was only by coincidence but when she came to see you, I was moving out of the mansion…” I replied a little hesitantly.

I had no idea why, but I started to feel guilty about seeing the two of them together. Technically, it wasn’t my fault, and I didn’t spy on them or anything like that. However, it made me feel a little shy to tell him about it so directly like this. Reiner eyes looked at me with curiosity and interest as if he wanted to know more about it.

“Why didn’t you say anything?” he asked.

“Well, what was I supposed to say? I thought that I’ll just be in your way…so…” I replied honestly.

“I see. Were you jealous?” Reiner asked after pondering my words for a very brief moment.

His large hand reached out and began stroking the back of my head before he ran his fingers through my long hair. His blue eyes watched me closely and I knew that I couldn’t hide anything from him, my feelings included.

“Don’t tease me…” I muttered as a felt hot heat burn up my face.

Of course, I hated seeing him with someone else. It made my chest felt tight and uncomfortable. I made me angry and frustrated. It was just hard to explain…

I wondered how he felt when he was spending time with Rachael. They seem to get along fabulously well together. I recalled what I saw on that day when she greeted him and hugged him. They were close. Too close. It was plain to see that they shared a connection that seemed to stretch way back. Of course, I knew and expected that someone as attractive as Reiner would have more than a few admirers from where he came from.

It wasn’t like I was expecting him to be a completely unexperienced virgin with no past relationships with women, but it still bothered me. I wonder who Rachael was to him and what past they shared.

They were engaged to be married once before and he didn’t seem to hesitate to get engaged to her again when he got back. From what I could tell and my woman instincts about this is rarely wrong, that Rachael girl is so in love with Reiner. I was so sure of it that I wouldn’t hesitate to bet my life on it.

However, just like I’ve learnt the hard way from my personal experience, one sided live isn’t easy to deal with…

“Do you love her?” I asked, getting straight to the point.

Reiner looked at me with an unreadable expression on his face. I cursed internally at how hard he was for me to figure out. When Reiner decided to hide something from me, it was extremely difficult for me to understand him or figure him out.

“That’s has nothing to do with you,” Reiner replied coldly.

If he loves her, why won’t he just tell me. On the other hand, if he doesn’t, why can’t he just tell me?

“Fine. Then, do you love me?” I asked. This has something to do with me, right?

Not surprisingly, Reiner just stared at me with a faraway look in his eyes as he refused to give me any kind of answer. Wanting him to focus more on me, I boldly got on top of him so that I could face him more directly. He looked up at my face as it hovered directly above his before he smiled a little.

However, his face transformed into an empty mask again as if he was waiting to see what I would do next.

“You were so rough with me last night…after you saw me with Charles. Were you jealous?” I asked as I brought my face down closer to his.

Once again, he didn’t reply but I already knew the answer to the question that I asked. How he took me fast and hard on the side of the road was all the answer that I needed. He wanted to possess me to make sure that I was his. I could feel his desire in his kiss, his caresses, and his wild thrusts into my wet hole.

--To be continued…