Chapter 15

Grayson Hughes

Chapter Fifteen: I wish I didn't, but I do.

Grayson's POV

Death.

That's how I could describe how I feel like right now. If death was an emotion, it would perfectly fit my mood. Two weeks. Sharon has been in the country for two weeks, and in that time I haven't had time to see Terry. I feel like he thinks that I have abandoned him, which is not the case at all. Sharon has taken over everything; from my business to my house and to my phone. It's sad to say that I'm no longer in charge of my life, and that's what I feared the most. And you might be asking, why the hell is a grown man moping around for? Why can't I just kick her out of my life? Sadly it is not that simple.

Apart from being the famous clothing designer, she is also one of the scariest people I have ever met. My mother is the big dog of all underground crimes. She runs LA, and controls everyone who is anyone. For me to begin this company, it was her money that contributed. At first I thought it was my father's money but then later I found out it was hers. If I had known that it was her money, God knows I wouldn't have touched a cent. I haven't left my bed ever since Sharon has made it her mission to get me to forget about Terry. Lucinda comes in with food, I eat two bites and that's it.

As I fall deeper into the horrible state I'm in, a knock comes through the door.

"Grayson, your sister is here and...." Lucinda begins at the same time I hear the door opens completely and she's being shoved out of the way. I hear footsteps coming towards me yet I don't react.

"Grayson, you need to stop this. This is just simply pathetic." I hear Gwen's voice.

No response.

"Grayson, I love you and I don't want to see you like this." She says as she sits at the corner of my bed. "You and me against the world remember?"

No response.

"Are you really going to just shut the world out for that pathetic human who is not even good enough for you? Fuck Grayson, get over it!" She gets up from the bed in anger.

"What the hell did you just say?" I get up slowly giving her a chance to take back what she just said.

"You are better than this. You can find a nice girl who loves you and also has a good background." Gwen crosses her arms.

"What's wrong with you?" I ask.

"What do you mean?"

"You call Sharon, you spike my drink and set me up with a girl. What's wrong with you?"

"Nothing is wrong. Damn! Can't I just want something good for my brother?"

"Something good? Terry is something good!"

"Really? That pathetic...."

"Insult Terry one more time in my presence and see what happens? I dare you."

"I'm your sister, why are you taking his side?!"

"Because he is the love of my life!"

"But you're not a fag!.... Shit!" Gwen covers her mouth after what she just said.

"What did you just say?" I ask in disbelief.

"You heard me. You. Are. Not. A. Fag!" I'm unable to control my hand cause before I could realize what is happening, Gwen holds her face in pain as my hand slowly comes back to my body. "Did you just slap me?"

"Get out?! Now!" I push her out of my room and slam the door shut.

Gwen is not homophobic. She's not! When I told her that I swing both ways, she didn't even react. Why would she say that? I pace back and forth trying to figure out when everything went down hill.

"This is not happening." I say in a whisper.

"Oh, but it is." I turn around and find Sharon standing there.

"What are you doing in my house?"

"Don't talk to you mother like that!" She smirks.

"Mother indeed. So you call yourself a mother?"

"Unless you conceived yourself and gave birth to yourself I don't think you have any chance of talking."

"Sharon just leave me alone."

"Why is it so hard for you to remember that I started all of this?"

"Don't forget that you didn't have shit till you sacrificed your son." I say causing her to take a step back. I vowed never to speak of it because it scares me to even think about it. "What's wrong? Cat got your tongue?"

"Grayson...."

"I was thirteen! I was fucking thirteen years old! I knew what was right and what was wrong! It's not like I was a fucking child who didn't know shit! You manipulated me to think that I was the one who.... You know what, you're not worth it!" I scream going to my closet. I pick up the luggage that is always packed in case of emergencies. I make my way across the room heading towards the door. I look back at Sharon and tears are coming down her face.

"Fuck you Sharon."

Terry's POV

"Will you keep it down?!" I scream at Danny as he blast music all over our apartment.

"It's spring break Terry! That means freedom!" He stands on our coffee table and starts dancing to Jumpman.

"No, it means we work our asses off so that we save money." I shut off the music annoying the hell out of him.

"What's wrong?" Danny asks sitting next to me.

"I miss him. I wish I didn't but I do." I confess.

"Don't worry, he'll come around. The love  Grayson has for you, it's incredible. I wish I had that." Danny says snuggling closer to my body.

"Maybe if you stopped hooking up with Jim then you can find someone." I say smiling at him.

"I am not hooking up with Jim.... What...makes....you....think...that?" Danny stutters making me laugh.

"You know these walls are very thin, Booty Kaboom." I wink at him as I say the nickname Jim has for him during their happy time.

"You bitch!" Danny tries to launch himself at me but I get up from the couch very quickly. "Come back here you piece of shit!"

"Or what? You're gonna go and get Lightening Rod?" I wink again at the nickname for Jim.

"I hate you!" Danny screams the same time he manages to catch me. Not long in on the floor with Danny hovering me.

"Get off me you Booty Kaboom!" I scream not containing my laugh.

"That's it!" He raises his hand and wiggles his fingers. "I'm tickling you until you pee."

"Don't Danny.. I'm..." Before I could finish, a knock comes through the door.

"Saved by the bell." Danny says.

"Ugh... What a horrible show." I say getting up from the ground.

"What the fuck bitch? That show is iconic." Danny says crossing his legs and sitting down.

"You know what's iconic, Living Life With Derek." I say laughing knowing how much Danny hated the show.

"That show was awful." Danny says making a disgusted face. A knock comes through the door again reminding me why j got up in the first place. I open the door to find Grayson looking awful with a suitcase.

"Grayson?" I ask and got in for the tightest hug I have ever given anyone. I hold him at the same time he drops his bag and hugs me back. "I missed you."

"I kissed you too baby." He says planting a small kiss on my cheek. I let him come inside while I take his suitcase inside too.

"Grayson! It's nice to see you again." Danny says standing up.

"Hello Danny."

"So... What happened to you?" I ask trying not to sound mean.

"Look... About Sharon.... She's..." He tries to explain until I cut him off.

"She's your mom who you don't give a shit about. And to be honest she is very scary." I say rubbing circles behind his back.

"Wait... You.."

"Met her? Yes and no. More like she stalked me to my favorite coffee shop and threatened me."

"Look Terry... I..."

"Sorry? It's okay. I'm in a relationship with Grayson Hughes not Sharon Hughes. You will tell me everything when you are ready."

"I love you."

"I love you too. I'm assuming you're staying?" I say pointing at his bag."

"If you want me?" He asks leaning into my face. Slowly he pecks my lips and I lean forward to intensify the kiss. As he nibbles in my bottom lip, I openly my mouth for him to enter but he never does.

"Are you okay?" I ask after he pulls away.

"Thank you for not leaving me when Sharon got to you." Grayson says leaning his forehead against mine.

"I'm not going anywhere."

"It's just that...."

"Hey, not now. You will tell me everything when you're ready remember?"

"Yeah. I'm sorry."

"For what? Loving me? That's okay." I answer laughing.