Chapter 39

39 Fear of losing

Leon

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The two of us sit on the house’s terrace, enjoying the sunny and warm morning.

I saw that the wall under my room had almost returned to its original state but was still not finished with the work.

Maybe it will take a fairly long process because the wall is made of a pretty hard wall. Moreover, the different designs make the basement a bit difficult to fix.

“My dad said that the place would be difficult to fix,” said David looking in the same direction I was looking at now.

It turns out he knows what I’m thinking right now.

“Ah yes,” I answered briefly, and then I remembered something I needed to ask David, “David May I ask you a question?” I asked David, looking at him closely.

“Of course,” David replied, smiling at me.

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“How do you feel when you can’t control yourself at the time of the full moon?”

When I asked the question, David explained to me how he felt. He even said that after 97 years, it was only last night that David could control his body a little.

David said he couldn’t remember what would happen if every full moon came. Whatever happened that night and every incident on a full moon night, lives would be lost.

David has a strange curse: to kill the Werewolf beta, whether a boy or a girl, on a full moon night.

And it must happen every year, but he didn’t do that last night.

David was also confused because it was only last night that David fully regained consciousness when I hugged him.

I told David about what I had seen and another person inside David.

I told David about the Aura I could see inside his body, where two different Auras were emitting from his body when David turned into a Werewolf last night.

“So it’s like that...” David muttered, holding his chin.

David also just found out from me if there was another figure in his body.

“Is that other figure able to disappear from your body?” I asked David out of curiosity.

David looked straight at me with a questioning look.

David lowered his head and then took a deep breath; it seemed what he was about to say was weighing him down.

“If you are not ready to say it, needless to say, I will not force you,” I said, smiling at David.

I feel bad if I have to force someone else’s will, so I decided not to ask more about it.

“Don’t worry; I don’t mind at all. I’ll explain to you about my curse!” David said with a bland smile looking at me.

I think he said that to make me feel less guilty for asking him about the curse.

“My curse will disappear when I find my soulmate,”

I was silent for a moment when I heard what David said. I remember the words Mr. Henderson said that night.

Mr. Henderson said that I was David’s soulmate. But is it true?

“When I find he or she, the curse will completely disappear from my body,” David added.

I looked at David, who was currently lowering his head, not looking at me at all; it seemed like it was a rather sensitive topic when I asked him about it.

“David, is it true what your father said that night?” I asked David, and he immediately looked at me.

“What did my father say that night?” David asked curiously.

I knew David wouldn’t remember what happened that night, so I ventured to say what Mr. Henderson said.

“Your father said I am your soulmate. Is that true?” I asked David while looking at him intently.

Our eyes locked together when I asked the question; David was silent for a moment, not saying a word. I don’t know what kind of expression he is currently expressing when I ask him that question.

“I’m not sure about that either,” replied David weakly, bowing his head again.

I think something is wrong this time. Usually, David is so excited when discussing the topic of marriage or anything that has to do with me.

Because a few weeks ago, he also asked me to marry him, but why is it so different now?

His expression was so different from before; there must be something wrong that I might not know about.

“Are you okay?” I asked David to be sure because he just kept his head down.

“Yeah, I’m fine,” David replied, looking at me with tears already running down his cheeks.

Oh, it must be my fault for asking him about the curse.

“David, I-”

“Can I hug you?”

I didn’t have time to say anything, but David cut me off.

I was silent for a moment and nodded at him; I couldn’t refuse his request this time because it was too evil for me to do it.

David hugged me slowly as well. I did the same. I stroked his back while gently patting him, signaling everything would be all right.

At that time, an Aura with a different color came out of David’s body; the Aura was gray mixed with light blue; that Aura meant that David’s feelings were sad, and he was afraid of losing someone in his life.

I hugged him tighter to calm his feelings that might be confusion.

I don’t know what David is currently hiding, but I speculate that everything must have something to do with me.

It would be impossible if it had nothing to do with me because it was like a letter destined by God from the first time I met David.

Is David my soul mate?

I still can’t accept 100%. If that’s a fact, I have to accept it because it would be very difficult to have a same-sex relationship in a certain place.

“Everything will be fine,” I said as I hugged David so tightly I could feel the restlessness inside David.

David was afraid of losing someone, and I think that someone was me.

The tighter I hugged David, the more I could feel the fear of loss directed at me; David was afraid that I had disappeared from his life.

What should I do?