Chapter 787
A Life Debt Repaid
The interior of the car grew silent, as Jay didnât say a word.
Bob couldnât make him confess, and since it might be something he could not say, he understood that he shouldnât push Jay too far since they were as close as brothers.
Sighing, he finally said, âWhatever it is, sheâs back. Itâs time you take control. Life is shortâmiss out once, and it might be forever.â
Jay finally spoke. âDo you think I still deserve her?â
âWait, you donât think so?â
âIâm a cripple with one leg,â Jay said, sounding slightly emotional.
âPlease donât tell me thatâs why you never went looking for her over the past three yearsâ¦â
Jay nodded in silence.
âDo you think Zoeâs that shallow?â Bob exclaimed in slight agitation, but he soon added, âNow that you mentioned it, she actually didnât know your leg was permanently crippled when we spoke today. She thought itâs a temporary thing.â
Jayâs fingers clenched without realizing it, while Bob quickly explained, âShe wasnât actually repulsed-
just surprised. I really donât think sheâs that shallow.â
âBut thatâs just it,â Jay said. âThe more you love a person, the more youâre obsessed that youâre not good enough to be at her sideâ¦â
It was the first time he was honest about his thoughts.
So he did love herâ¦and painfully humbly at that.
Even so, Bob still felt let down. âIf you donât push yourself to try, how would you know if she wonât accept you?â
If you love her, go for it-the worst that could happen was failingâ¦
However, Bob conceded that he was actually a coward as well. He himself had been afraid to confess his feelings for Zoe after finding out that she loved him.
He would have kept it in forever if not for what happened to Zoe, too.
That being said, he was also concerned he wouldnât be able to stay friends with Zoe afterwards-that was certainly the case now: he and Zoe may bear no ill will towards each other, but they were no longer the friends they were before.
As for Zoe and Jay, what more could they lose at this point?
In the end, Jay never told Bob what his decision was.
Moreover, when it came to relationships, observers could speak too much but to no effect-only those involved would understand.
After returning home, Jay sat on his couch for a long time. He whipped out his phone, having bought one on the way to Levine Manor.
The screen was where he left it: a chat addressed to Zoe, but he ever typed a word.
It wasnât as if Bobâs words didnât have an effect on him.
And yetâ¦
For three years, Zoe never came to him.
He actually called her once before-when he was abroad, on the night the doctors told him he could return to Zidonia.
He mustered great courage to contact her, but her number was changed.
Did that mean she chose to end things with him?
He was sure she changed her number because of him, and decided that he shouldnât bother her any further.
And yet, she returned.
After three long years, he was convinced he could control his feelings when he saw her again.
Yet the more they met, the more he lost control of himself, and the more he began to yearn for herâ¦