Chapter 20

I woke up the next morning with a huge headache a swollen a lip and nose. Needless to say I could barely breathe. Totally worth it. I sat up to get out of bed and I swear to god everything popped. I slowly willed myself to get up and went to the bathroom. Right as I was brushing my teeth I remembered Sara. I ran through the hallway back to my room and checked the time on my phone. 10:45. Sara would be here in 15 minutes. Shit. I know I told her i wanted to talk but I have no idea what to say to her. I sat on my bed with my toothbrush still in my mouth and tried to figure out what exactly it was that I wanted to talk about. After a solid 5 minutes of contemplating I came up with nothing. I finished brushing my teeth changed from my pajamas into spandex and a long sleeve shirt and sat and waited for her to text me she was here.

At 11:04 I got the text that she was outside. I walked through the hallway still trying to think of something to say before I got to the front door to let her in. I came up with nothing again. She had on one of our old basketball shirts and some nike shorts. Her wavy hair was falling perfectly around her face and her brown eyes seemed to just be glowing. I didn't realize I was staring until she said

"Cat got your tongue?" And gave me that little smirk I loved/hated so much.

"Depends, did you change your name?" Did I seriously just say that. I wanted to slap my forehead. Of all the smart ass replies that was the best I could think of. Unfazed Sara just laughed and walked past me to my room as I followed behind her. As she walked I noticed just how cute her butt was.

"Stop staring at my ass." She said without even turning around. What was up with me. I should be heartbroken. I meant am, but with he here I can't stop staring. When we got to my room Sara sat on my bed and looked at me expectantly.

"So what was so important that it couldn't wait till monday?" She asked

"I told Kris I'm in love with her." Was the first thing that came out of my mouth. As I said this her smile dropped for half a second but I saw it.

"I also told her I don't want anything to do with her anymore." By this point the words were just falling out of my mouth.

"Wait what? Why would you do that?" She asked as her eyes grew wide with surprise

"Because I cant take it anymore. It hurts too much. All of it. It's just too much already. I don't want to love her. I don't want to see her. I don't want to be the reason she gets hurt." I sat down on the bed next to her and and put my face in my hands. I felt Sara put her hand on my back and rub small circles. I picked my feet up onto the bed and put my head in her lap. She just started playing with my hair. I felt like I wanted to cry but I didn't know why. I just felt like it, but I wouldn't let myself. Not in front of Sara.

"Ave," Sara said

"Yeah?" I answered fighting back tears.

"I'm proud of you. And I promise it's going to be okay." I rolled over on my back to look up at her. The tears just started coming down again. It hurt like hell. Like physically it hurt hurt my face. Sara leaned down and kissed me on the forehead and just let me cry. I wrapped my arms around her waist and just held on. I felt like if I let go at that moment I wouldn't have anyone else to hold onto. When I finished my breakdown I sat up on the bed and hugged Sara again. I just wrapped my arms around her neck and held on again. I felt Sara wrap her arms around me and hold on.

"Don't let me go."

"I wont. I promise." She said.

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After my emotional breakdown Sara and decided to watch movie in my room. Lucas had basketball practice this morning, and mom said she was going to the store to pick up groceries. As my mother walked out of my room she gave me look. At first I didn't know what the look was about but then I remembered the conversation we had about me being into girls. My whole face turned red.

"What was that look about?" Sara said as soon as my mom was out of earshot.

"I may or may not have told her I like girls." At this Sara just burst out laughing, dramatically kicking her feet in the air as she rolled back onto my bed.

"Yeah yeah shut up. What movie do you want to watch?" I said trying to sound annoyed.

"Put on a rom com." She said still laying full out on my bed

"You're the only person who still says rom com you know that." I laughed

"Haha shut up Avery." She said as she kicked me with her foot.

Instead of arguing with her anymore I did what she said and put on something with Jennifer Aniston. Because who doesn't love her right? After I put the movie on I sat back against the pillows and Sara cuddled up next to me with my arm under her. About twenty minutes into the movie my arm started to fall asleep; I wanted to move my arm but Sara had fallen asleep on me. She looked so cute when she was asleep, so I decided to let my arm die. Sara looked so peaceful and so perfect, and looking at her I felt like I could finally breathe. I ran my hand through her hair, I don't really know why but I just felt like it. Before I knew it I had fallen asleep too.

I woke up to Sara's honey brown eyes staring back at me. I blinked a couple times to make sure I wasn't dreaming. Sara didn't say anything, she just put her hand on my check and rubbed her thumb back n forth. She closed her eyes and places her lips on mine. It felt good but it hurt like hell because of my busted lip. Sara must have felt me flinch because immediately she pulled back and said

"Oh shit are you okay?"

"Yes I'm okay I promise." I smiled and pulled her in.

The next kiss was soft and gentle. It felt different than all the other times we'd done this. It felt like more. We felt like more. The kisses were softer, more genuine, and for once Sara was all I could think about. The hand that was on my face moved down to my neck. When the gentle kisses because insufficient Sara licked my bottom lip asking for more. I opened my mouth ever so slightly and let Saras tongue dance with mine. Slowly Sara broke the kiss but not before biting my lip as she left. She sat up just a bit and carefully threw her leg over my lap so she was sitting on me. I reached up and put both hands on her face and pulled her to me. I couldn't get her close enough. Gradually I slid my hands down her body. And placed them on her butt. With that I pulled her in even closer to me. I felt her smile against my lips and I couldn't help but do the same. I slid my hands up to the hem of her shirt and slid my hands underneath it. I felt the goose bumps cover her skin from my touch. With my right hand I reached up her back for her bra strap. Thank god she wore a regular bra today. I unclipped it with one hand and felt her smile again. She pulled back from me and smiled.

"And where did you learn that?" She laughed

"Beginners luck." I smirked. She laughed teasingly while she pulled the bra straps off her shoulders with her shirt still on and pulled her bra out through her sleeve, and tossed it onto the floor. In that moment my head exploded from how sexy she was. She must have seen the look on my face because she just laughed a bit and leaned in to kiss me. When she leaned in this time the kiss was different. It still had the same feeling but it was hungry. She wanted more and so did I. I grabbed the hem of her shirt and pulled it over her head. I pulled her to me but instead of kissing her lips I went straight for her breast. I sucked on he left breast and played with her nipple with my tongue. With the other I massaged it with my right hand. Several moans escaped from Saras lips and it made everything in my body radiate with pleasure. Her being on top was fun, but it wasn't enough. I rolled us over so that Sara was on her back and I was on top of her on all fours. I smiled and started kissing her neck and slowly made my way down back to her breast. Instead of ravaging her like I usually do I took my time to explore every inch of her body. I kissed my way down her stomach and to the button on her jeans. I looked up at her and waited for her to nod. I don't know why but I felt like I needed her to tell me yes. I undid the button on her jeans and slowly pulled off her jeans. I slowly took off her panties after I'd taken her jeans off. I spread her legs open and started kissing the inside of her thigh. I wanted to take my time. I wanted to make this time different. I kissed down her thigh until I reached her core I felt the goose bumps on her thighs. I slowly licked her core and as I did so she moaned again. As I licked her clit I slowly inserted two fingers into her. Her moan got so much louder and it was driving me crazy. As I pumped my fingers in and out of her I continued to eat her out. I could tell she was starting to get close because she put her hands in my hair and started to pull just a bit harder as she was getting close to finishing. Her moans were so loud that I was really hoping no one had come home while I was asleep. When she finally came I felt her whole body convulsed and her back arched up off the bed. I rode her out until her body dropped back onto the bed. I crawled back on top of her and gave her one last kiss before I collapsed next to her, both of us breathing heavy. I looked over at her naked body and saw goose bumps still.

"Are you cold?" I asked already sitting up

"Yeah just a bit." She huffed. I grabbed one of my blankets that had fallen off the bed and pulled it over both of us. Under the covers I scooted closer to her and wrapped my arms around her. I closed my eyes for just a second but I ended up falling asleep again with Sara in my arms. Somehow it was still only 1:15 pm.