Chapter 59

Chapter 59

Caden’s POV

We pull away from each other, panting on the hard ground after another round of giving each other mind-blowing o r g as m s.

I can’t help it. Keeping my hands off Alessia has proved to be one of the hardest things I’ve tried to do.

Her body is so placid and hot for my touches and kisses. Every time I tell myself that I’m going to put an end to this, I find myself always coming back to her.

There’s an uncharacteristic quietness coming from Alessia’s side and I turn my head to find her staring up at the sky blankly.

My brows furrow. “What’s wrong?” I ask, leaning on my side so I can face her. She mimics my motion, leaning on her side and drawing a circle idly into the ground.

“What are we doing?” She lifts her gaze to mine when she asks the question that makes me shut down on the inside.

What are we doing? How do I answer that? I can’t act like I have no idea what she’s talking about because I’ve asked myself that same question several times. Each time, I’m no closer to getting an answer because how do I voice into words how I feel?!

Alessia is my fated mate, someone the moon goddess paired with me but also someone that I want nothing to do with. At the same time, I find myself falling deeper into this trance with her. Then there are times that I find myself wondering, what if?

So, how exactly do I answer that

question?

“Are we just fooling around…or are we like…lover?” She arches a brow in question, finally leaving the circle she drawing on the ground to face me. I guess my answer is more interesting to her than her half-finished. circle.

Lover? A word that holds so much meaning and yet not so much responsibility. I could be that to her if that is what she wants.

“Do you want to be my lover?” I ask, watching as her checks tint into an adorable pink color. She’s so cute and I’m so scared that I’m going to hurt her and kill the light I can see shining in her eyes.

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“I asked you, not the other way around. She playfully glares at me. “Answer me,” she insists, sitting up the ground and drawing my gaze to her beautiful breasts that I just spend an awful lot of time on. Yet still want to caress again. This right here is what I’m talking about. It’s like she’s taken complete control over my body. I just had an o r g a s m less than five minutes again yet a glimpse of her body has me salivating for her again. Will I ever get tired of seeing that flawless body? I fear that the answer is, no.

I draw my gaze up her body to find her blushing again. It’s funny that I’ve had my lips and hands all over that body, but a glance from me still has her face turning red. It’s also kind of cute.

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“Yes, I think of us as lovers,” I admit, sitting up too and reaching for her hands. At this moment, I’ll agree to anything if it makes that beautiful smile on her face to remain.

How long will this definition pacify her? How long until she starts looking for more meaning to what we are? I should end this right now, I should put a stop to this and prevent her and myself from getting hurt. I should reject her and put an end to all this madness.

I don’t do any of that though. Instead, I interlock her fingers with mine and lazily run my thumb on the back of her hand. “We should start heading back to the pack house,” I say, happy to see that smile still intact on her face even after our conversation. It gives me a sense of pride to know that I’m basically the reason why it’s there. How long will I be able to make it stay there? I don’t want to also be the reason why it’s gone but I fear that is something that I won’t be able to stop.

We stand up, pull on our clothes, and start making the journey back to the pack house. Not a very long one since the clearing isn’t that far from the house.

I

pause just as the house gets into our line of view and pull Alessia back into my arms. I kiss her, softly and deeply, memorizing the taste of her lips because I don’t know when next I’ll have the chance to get another

taste.

When I pull away, Alessia’s eyes are closed and her lips are pink and swollen. Groaning, I fight the urge to take another kiss from her.

We walk into the pack house and head to our individual rooms with a soft spoken goodbye to each other.

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When I get to my room, I go into the bathroom and grab a quick shower to wash away the dirt and stuck to my body from our run. Then I sink into my bed, covering myself with the duvet as my mind wanders off to the places it usually goes to at this time of the day. Places like what my life will be like if I accept Alessia.

Like always, I push those thoughts and questions to the back of my head, unwilling to let myself event think of such things. Thinking will lead to me wanting to try it out. That can’t be a possibility so I do what I do best. I shut down all thoughts of it and force my brain to shut up too.

Then I close my eyes and doze off, thinking of how fun things are going to be now that Alessia is my lover. So many possibilities and so many places to try out those possibilities.

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