Conflict and Desire

I found rum and cola, just what I wanted. I had gone to the kitchen and now stood leaning against the kitchen table with a cup in my hand.

I found myself at the party, without any more desire to be there. Again. My friends were busy and perfectly fine without me. Again. Really, why did I even come here? I should have stayed with Mom and Dad.

I closed my eyes and gulped down my cocktail.

“What’s your poison?” Drew’s voice rang in my ear. I opened my eyes and stared at him. He was standing before me, with a cup in his hands, and he was smiling.

“Rum.”

“Just rum?”

“No. Cola too. Why are you here? And where is your company? You looked really into each other.”

“Nah.” Drew shrugged his shoulders and stepped closer to me. He pressed his hips against mine.

“What do you think you’re doing?” I looked him straight in the eyes.

He pulled me by my waist towards him with his free hand. He licked his lips, and I followed his tongue with my eyes.

If I wasn't out of this kitchen in the next few minutes, I would find myself in Drew's room. I wanted him without question. But since I saw him with another girl, it just felt wrong.

I placed my hand on his chest and pushed him away from me a little. He stepped back but didn't stop smiling.

“You're not in the mood. Okay. I will wait. I am a patient man. Let's go dance now.” He grabbed my hand and led me back to the living room.

I followed him. But in the room, I pulled my hand out of his grip and said that I needed to find Lily. He shook his head with disapproval, but let me go.

I noticed Lily and Rob almost immediately. They were dancing close to each other and looked very intimate. Honestly, I was happy for them. But once I saw them, I didn't have any reason to go to them.

I guess it was my cue to leave. I turned toward the exit and bumped right into Logan. He was watching Lily and Rob too.

“Can you explain to me why my sister and your boyfriend are dancing together?”

“Maybe, because he's not my boyfriend anymore. They look cute together if you ask me.” I stepped back from him and was ready to leave, but he blocked my way. I was starting to feel annoyed.

“What? Why did you break up with him?”

“Because it was the right thing to do. He’s my friend and nothing more. Rob is a good guy and will never hurt your sister if you’re worried about her. May I go now?”

“Do you really need to?” Logan was drunk, and Melanie was nowhere to be seen. Just great!

“Yes. I want to go home.”

“You’re so beautiful… Why do I need to resist you? I want you, Becca.” This time, it had reached the point where I had had enough.

“Are you fucking kidding me? Stop acting like a jerk, Logan! I don’t deserve this! Not after what you said to me!” I felt anger building in me, but he didn’t seem to care.

Logan stepped toward me and pulled me to him. He started kissing my neck. Hell, I had wanted it before. But now, I wasn’t so sure about it. Especially as he was drunk, there were too many prying eyes, and there was also Drew.

Melanie should be somewhere near, and I didn’t want her to see this; I would be the one to blame. I pushed him away.

“Let me go!”

He stumbled a few steps back. I used the opportunity to rush out of the room. When I was almost near the exit, Drew stepped in my way. He had a frown on his face and was looking at something behind me.

“He’s drunk, isn’t he?” Drew asked me about Logan. It wasn’t hard to guess. I turned my head and looked back at Logan. He was standing there, and already a few girls were excitedly talking to him. I suspected that he had hardly heard anything that I’d said. His gaze was still on me.

“Yes. Where is Melanie? Why did she leave him like that?”

“She took Phoebe to the bathroom. That’s her friend,” he explained to me as my eyebrows furrowed in confusion. Ah, it was his girl for the night.

“Your booty call became too drunk?”

“She became desperate and drunk because I brushed her off. For another girl.” Oh. I guess he meant me. Did he think that I would feel flattered by that?

“What are you going to do now?”

“You tell me. Is it my room or yours?”

“Why do you think that I want that?”

“Don’t you?”

He leaned in and peered at me. I had feelings for him. That was the truth—the most honest truth in the world right now. It was my reality. I had feelings for the most infamous womanizer at our college.

If I were going to pursue this relationship, I would be the one to regret it. He didn’t want to talk about us. He didn’t want to be seen with me. His nonverbal communication was crystal clear and still... I wanted to follow him.

“Yours,” I replied. “You said that your bed is more comfortable. I want to check it out.” To hell with everything.

Drew’s face lit up with a huge smile. I smiled back at him. He was like a naughty child, and he was beautiful. There were no doubts as to why I was so attracted to him.

He started to lead the way, and I was ready to follow him when we heard Logan’s voice, and both of us turned around to face him.

“Man, where are you going? And where is Phoebe? I thought she was yours for tonight. Mel told me that the girl has liked you for a long time... But I think you already guessed that by yourself... She’s your groupie…” Logan was unsteady. He tried to focus his eyes on us.

“Phoebe is with Mel. She’s drunk, and your girlfriend took her to the bathroom.”

“My girlfriend?” Logan’s eyes snapped in my direction. Drew saw it and scowled. He was starting to feel angry.

“Yeah, Melanie. She will be here soon. I think you need to go and sober up a little. When did you manage to get so wasted?”

“I was having fun. We won, Drew! We beat those motherfuckers! Let’s go, drink with me!” Logan reached and clapped Drew on the shoulder. Drew brushed his hand off and stared at him.

“I am good, thanks.”

“Then you, Becca. Come with me. I need company!”

“I was leaving already. Bye, Drew.” I stepped back from them and turned to walk out of the room.

As I took a few steps further, I saw Melanie. She hurriedly went to Logan. Good. She will take care of him. Why did he get so drunk? He didn’t seem like the type to me. Ugh. I shouldn’t give a damn about it!

“What are you doing?” Drew caught me by my arm when I was ready to walk out of the front door.

“Going home?” I said.

“Nope. I don’t think so,” he said, stepping closer to me without releasing my arm.

Drew placed his hand on my cheek, and in the next second, his lips were on mine. His kiss was so soft and gentle that I opened my mouth, and his tongue immediately slipped inside. I didn’t want our kiss to end, but he stepped away from me with his usual grin.

“If you continue to respond to my kisses like that, I'm afraid we won’t be able to make it to my room. And I will fuck you right here because I'm already hard, and I don’t have much patience left…”

“Then what are you waiting for?” I asked, closing the distance between us and placing a hand on his groin.

He wasn’t kidding. His cock was hard. I felt my desire building. I ran my hand up and down over his dick through his jeans, and Drew groaned.

In a flash, he scooped me up in his arms and threw me over his shoulder. I started to giggle. He took me to his room, closed the door, and set me down.

The laughter died in my throat. We were standing near his bed, staring into each other's eyes. I saw lust in his eyes, and I was sure he saw the same in mine.