Desire Unveiled

After I slept for a few hours, Lily, Kate, and I sat in our room and talked. Lily told us about Rob. She explained to Kate what she had told me before.

She liked him from the very beginning, but as she saw his interest in me, she didn't do or say anything earlier. Now, the liking between her and Rob was mutual, and I thought it was a good thing.

Kate, on the other hand, was confused. She liked Tim, but she was afraid of her feelings. She acted strangely around him; he made her feel vulnerable, and she didn't like it.

But she was hooked and wanted to explore their relationship.

I was interrogated. They both wanted to know everything about Drew and me.

I was proud of myself that I still managed to keep my secret about my first time with Drew or our sex in his car or the locker room...

I only told them that I felt a connection with him when he helped me bring their drunk asses back to the dorm the other night. That it was just the spur of the moment yesterday at the party.

I assured them both that I was okay with being his booty call for only one night. I wasn't anymore, obviously, but I wasn't going to tell them that I had wanted something more.

Lily sighed and looked at Kate and me. It was already almost nine in the evening, and we were close to calling it a night. She still looked concerned.

“Becca... I have one last question. Rob said some strange things to me... He saw that my brother was wasted, which I must admit was surprising even to me. But that’s not the point... Rob said that he saw Logan kissing you and that you pushed him and ran away from the room.”

My eyes widened. It had been dark in the room, and many people were there, and still... Rob managed to see it. I wondered how many more had seen it.

Drew had seen it, I knew that for sure, but he hadn’t said anything.

“Erm... well, yeah... He grabbed me and kissed my neck... but as you said, he was wasted.”

“Oh God! I can’t believe him! My brother is a huge pain in the ass! If his bitch hears about it, you will be in a big mess!”

“Lil, he was drunk. Maybe he confused me with his girlfriend?!” I was trying my best. Lily and Kate glanced at each other and started laughing. Just great! Thank you, girls. I pouted my lips at them.

“Yeah... you’re hotter and far more beautiful than her. I am sure that he knew exactly who he was kissing. Just be careful, okay? Rob mumbled that when he saw my brother the other night in the parking lot and the way he looked at you, he knew that he had lost the game.”

“He saw that my brother has the hots for you…”

“I think I know now why Mel...,” Kate said, and Lily glanced at her, continuing her sentence.

“Why doesn’t the bitch like you so much? She sees you as a threat. I am sure she also noticed how Logan looks at you. I am glad that nothing happened between you and him, Becca. Because if that was the case while he still was in a relationship... I am afraid to even think about it.”

My cheeks flushed. They didn’t know about Logan and me. I wasn’t planning to tell them. It was too overwhelming. I was even ready to admit how I’d cheated on Rob with Drew, but not this.

“Yeah... I just hope that I will get over this stupid crush and soon, before it gets the best of me,” was all that I could manage to say.

Lily and Kate nodded. We ended up going to sleep at almost midnight, but I was happy that we’d talked. They had helped to ease my mind, and I was grateful to them for it.

***

That week started well. I made progress with my assignments, and my grades began to improve. There wasn’t any sign that someone else had seen Logan and me at the party. I was happy about that.

But there were rumors flying around about Drew and me. It might have been a big deal if we were continuing to see each other, but we didn’t. He didn’t contact me, and I did the same.

I accepted that there wouldn’t be anything between us—only my memories. I was sad about it, but I tried my best to adapt to my new reality. I guess I did a good job.

A few weeks went by without anything particularly noteworthy, and it was close to Thanksgiving Day now. Kate and I were planning to go home; we wanted to see our parents.

We were excited because they also wanted to announce something to us. We were curious to know what it was. Kate and Tim weren’t 'together,' but they saw each other a lot.

Lily and Rob started dating, but they were taking things slowly. I didn’t see Logan or Drew much, but when I did, I acted nonchalantly. I always greeted them, even made small talk sometimes.

I saw that both of them would check me out when we passed each other in the hallways, but neither did anything. I even got used to it.

Before Thanksgiving, there was a party, more like a bonfire. I persuaded Kate’s roommate, Nina, to go with us. Kate would probably be too busy with Tim; Lily would be with Rob at the party.

I wanted to go, and I honestly hoped to see Drew. I had made up my mind about Logan; yes, I had this unpredictable urge to be near him, but I ignored it as much as I could.

He was with Melanie, and they looked happy together, so I needed to let it go. And there was Drew. He occupied my thoughts, despite my best efforts.

My heart started beating faster when I saw him in the hallways or on the field when they were practicing. I was sure that he felt something for me. I refused to think otherwise.

I knew that maybe I would be hurt by having these hopes, but I couldn’t help having them.

We went to the bonfire party, and we had fun. Kate and Lily hung out with Nina and me. Nina was fun and so adorable, especially after she had tried her first cocktail.

We danced and laughed like crazy. I tried to find Drew with my eyes but wasn’t successful. I saw some guys from the team, but he wasn’t with them. I didn’t see Logan either.

“They are hanging out a little further. We can’t see them from our spot here,” I heard Kate whisper. She looked at me, and I could tell that she was concerned about something.

“Why are you still with us? Won’t Tim be upset?” I asked.

“Nah. It’s okay. I will find him later. I was planning to have fun with my friends. Who knew that Nina would be such a funny person?” Kate laughed and looked at Nina. She was dancing with Lily, making some crazy movements with her hands and moving her hips to the rhythm.

“I know, but I think we should blame the alcohol for that.” I grinned at the view of Nina.

We danced a little more. Lily left us to be with Rob. Kate started to throw glances in another direction, where I presumed Tim was. Nina refused to drink more, but she was pretty drunk already.

Since I didn’t have a reason to stay until the end of the party, I thought I should take her home soon. I hadn’t had anything to drink at all since I was the one who drove us here.

“K...Kate, stop looking for your precious boyfr...friend. Go and be with him!” Nina mumbled to Kate as she noticed the desperate look on her face. Kate smiled a little at us.

“Will you two be okay on your own?”

“What? Are we kids or what?!” Nina pouted her lips. God, I love this girl!

“Yeah, we will be good. Go, Kitty Kate!” I turned to Nina. “Nina, maybe we should return to the dorm? What do you say?”

“I… ~hiccup~… think that’s… ~hiccup~… a good idea.”

“Let’s go then.” I laughed and took her hand. I didn’t want to lose her in this crowd.

“I’ll walk with you,” Kate said. “Where your car is parked is in the same direction as where I saw Tim.”

The three of us walked through the crowd. People were having fun; there was music and laughter. A lot of couples were making out. I tried to avert my eyes, but I was also searching for someone.

I searched for Drew. He wasn’t here, but that didn’t mean anything. I was sure if I saw him, he wouldn’t be alone.

Kate noticed Tim and waved goodbye to us as she went off. I looked in her direction and saw Logan and Melanie. They were talking with their friends. Logan caught me looking, and his lips stretched in a small smile as he nodded to me.

I smiled back and waved at him. Drew wasn’t there, which even made me sigh inwardly in relief. Maybe he wasn’t at the party at all?

I made my way with Nina to the place where the cars were parked. Almost immediately, I noticed Drew’s Lexus. It was parked not far away from my car. My chest tightened. So he was here.

I just didn’t know at this moment how close he was.