My Unsettled Feeling

I didn't know if it was because I had worn my heart on my sleeve with Drew or because of Mrs. Jones's words, but the next morning I woke up in an excellent mood.

Kate and I exchanged gifts, and I shooed her off from my room. I hopped into the shower, then put on my jeans, a T-shirt, and a jacket, and went down for breakfast.

Mrs. Jones was already in the kitchen. She gave me a cup of coffee, for which I was very thankful.

I prepared small gifts for her and Mr. Jones. She thanked me and handed me a box of chocolate candies in return.

I decided on a sandwich and an apple, and left the kitchen with a plate and a coffee cup in my hands. I walked to the porch and sat on a small bench.

The air was breezy, but the sun was shining, so I didn't feel cold. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of the sun's rays on my face.

“Good morning, Rebecca,” Logan greeted me.

I opened my eyes and stared at Logan. He was coming back from a run, I supposed. His T-shirt was glued to his chest with sweat, and every muscle was on display. I ogled him without thinking. He chuckled.

I blushed, and my gaze shifted to the cup in my hands.

“Morning, Logan.” I waited for him to go into the house, but instead, he sat beside me on the bench.

“Becca, I am sorry about yesterday. I overreacted when I found Drew in your room. I honestly don’t know what came over me… Or I know, but I don’t want to admit it.”

“Logan…”

“I overheard something yesterday, and it made me angry. I was jealous, Becca, and that drives me insane. I have a girlfriend, damn it! I shouldn’t have acted the way I did, and still.”

“What do you want, Logan? Really? Your and Drew’s behaviors are confusing me. Both of you have girlfriends. They are here with you. So, tell me, Logan, what is it?”

“It’s simple. I like you more than I should. I am also in a relationship with Melanie. So, this whole situation with you is messing with my head like hell.” Logan hung his head and hid his face in his palms.

“Logan.” I placed my hand on his thigh. “Look, I don’t know what it is between us. I am attracted to you, yes. It’s almost uncontrollable. But I think I like Drew. Like really like him.”

“Well... wow... him and I, we are very much alike, Becca. I am sure that he likes you, the way he’s acting, it’s just obvious. I guess he just chose what was easier for him. If only I didn’t have a girlfriend, Drew wouldn’t even be in the picture right now…”

“But he is, and you aren’t single, Logan.”

“Yeah... Does he know about... about what happened in the bathroom?” Logan lifted his head and looked me straight in the eyes.

“No, and I want it to stay like that. It’s not something I am proud of. And I am sure you feel the same, too.”

“I owe you an apology, though. I acted like a jerk—that time in the bathroom and then at the party. You deserve much better than that. I just hope that Drew will decide what he wants and soon. If he hurts you, I will kick his ass. Be sure of it.”

I smiled at him. He placed his hand on mine, which was still on his thigh, and gave it a little squeeze, entwining our fingers. We sat in silence, shoulder to shoulder. It was a perfect moment.

It was the first time since our first meeting at the party when we talked, truthfully, without any hidden motives. Gently, I pulled my hand from his and turned to my plate.

I didn't eat either the sandwich or the apple. I took the sandwich and offered it to Logan. He raised his eyebrow.

“I think after your run, you should eat. I'm sure you're hungry.”

“But it was your breakfast.”

“Nah. I'll be okay with just the apple here. Come on, Logan, eat it. You can't say no to my offer.”

His eyes sparkled. A mischievous smile appeared on his lips. “Girl, you shouldn't say something like that to a guy who likes you.”

“Maybe, but I feel safe because the guy has a girlfriend. Even if I like him too.”

We stared at each other. I didn't like this turn in our conversation. It was as if both of us couldn't stay away from each other. We needed to flirt. It wasn't right. I have feelings for Drew.

I was confident that he would make a decision, and soon. Then it means that I should keep my distance from Logan. I don't want to be like some undecided chick.

Logan noticed my stiffened body and stood up.

“I need to go shower, Becca. I need it. And you, you should eat your breakfast. I'm sure that my mom will give me some food. Maybe not as delicious as yours, but edible.”

Logan winked at me and walked to the house. When I sipped my coffee, it was already cold. The rest of the day went by without any problems or misunderstandings.

I was hanging out with Lily and Kate; Logan joined us in the evening. He said that Melanie wasn’t feeling well, but he averted his eyes from us while speaking. I was sure that he was lying.

We watched a movie and then played some video games. When Melanie finally showed up, I was playing with Logan. We had been laughing while Kate and Lily tried to beat us but ended up bickering all the time.

She scowled as soon as she realized that I had been paired with her boyfriend. Melanie spent the whole game watching us. As soon as we won, Logan and she left the room.

Mrs. Jones prepared a very delicious dinner, and we ate it together in the living room. After dinner, I helped her with the dishes. She smiled at me approvingly.

“I like this attitude much better, Rebecca. You’re a stunning girl, and with a genuine smile, your face lights up even more. I hope your trip to the lake will go smoothly, and you will enjoy your time there.”

“Are you going to Drew’s lake house?” I turned my head from the sink and saw Melanie, who stood in the doorframe. It was the first time that she looked me straight in the eyes.

“Yes,” I answered her calmly, holding her gaze.

“What the hell?!” She turned and rushed from the kitchen.

Soon enough, all of us were listening to her and Logan’s raised voices, even if they went to his room. I felt pity for Logan, but at the same time, I was surprised that Melanie didn’t know about the girls and I going to the lake house. Why did Logan keep it a secret?

The next day started even better than the previous one, but I couldn’t speak for Logan. Lily and I enjoyed our last day at her parents’ house.

Kate went with Tim on a date and spent time with him until late evening. Logan was moody, and he and Melanie weren’t speaking with each other. At lunchtime, Drew’s car pulled up in front of the house.

He brought Phoebe here, as Logan was going to drive Melanie and Phoebe to their hometown, which was about an hour’s drive from here.

Melanie said goodbye to Mr. and Mrs. Jones through clenched teeth, and she only jerked her head in our direction without saying anything. Okay, someone was pissed.

I was waiting to see how Drew and Phoebe would say goodbye to each other. Actually, I’d rather not see it.

Melanie sat in the front seat with folded arms over her chest. Logan loaded the bags in the trunk and went to sit in the driver’s seat. He and Melanie didn’t exchange a word. He took his phone out and scrolled through it.

Phoebe was sitting beside Lily and me on the bench. She sighed upon observing them and got up. Drew was still in the house; he went there to say hi to Logan’s and Lily’s parents.

“Well... it was nice to spend time in your hometown, Lily. Your parents are lovely people,” Phoebe said. “Drew’s parents... Most of the time, I didn’t see them. They were always busy. But I guess it’s okay if you have your own successful business to run... Well, it’s not that I was complaining.

“Their huge house was at our complete disposal. Drew and I made the most of it, you know.” She glanced in my direction—from the nice girl to the bitch, way to go! I didn’t show her that her words were affecting me. I smiled.

“Yeah, we know, Phoebe. Drew’s a passionate guy. I just hope he didn’t wear you out.” Yay! One point for Becca! She scowled. I guess I hit a nerve.

“Drew? I think it’s time to go!” she called out to him.

A few minutes later, Drew walked out of the house. He was all smiles. We were standing there in silence when he glanced in our direction and shrugged his shoulders.

“Ready?”

“Yeah, babe. Still, I'm so upset that you couldn’t drive me home... I was hoping to introduce you to my parents.”

“Maybe next time.”

They walked together to Logan’s car. Melanie and Logan were both now glued to their phones. Poor Logan, how was he going to survive this ride? Suddenly, Lily’s hand clasped my arm.

I turned to her in surprise and raised my eyebrow.

“Don’t look, Becca.”

Yeah, like that would be possible, especially after her warning. My eyes darted to Phoebe and Drew. They were kissing, his hands on her waist, hers around his neck.

The kiss was passionate, like they couldn’t get enough of each other. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. As I slowly opened my eyes and looked again, they were locked in an embrace.

I guess it was his way of showing me that he chose her. I shook my head. I wasn't going to stand there and cry my eyes out. He didn't deserve that. He didn't deserve my feelings.

“What time will we be leaving tomorrow?” I asked Lily. She wasn't looking at the car, and she was concentrating on me, as if she was afraid that I would crack up at the scene before us.

“After lunch. Mom wants us to have lunch together before we leave. Why?”

“Can we go somewhere and hang out?”

“What do you have in mind? Something in particular?”

“Nah. I just want to have fun. Maybe we could dance a little, or sing, or both.”

“I know just the place. Will you be okay if it's just us? I'm not sure that Kate will be free.”

“Of course. When can we go?”

“Where do you want to go?” Drew's voice caught me by surprise.