Last Chance Confessions

BECCA

I saw Lily first. She was sitting on the couch in the living room, dressed in a light pink dress. She looked marvelous and fresh. Our eyes locked, and she smiled at me.

“Becca! John told me that you came, but I was so busy with dinner, so I didn’t get a chance to greet you.” I went inside the room and sat near her. Thankfully, she was alone.

“It’s okay. How are you? How do you feel now being a wife?”

“Great. As if I was destined to be John’s wife forever. I honestly can’t wait for tomorrow. I want to speed up the time and be in Hawaii already.”

“Someone is excited!” I laughed, and she joined me. “The wedding was very beautiful. I had a lot of fun.”

“Yeah, it was. We heard so many well wishes. I am happy that the people we love the most were here to share our happy moments with us. Thank you for being there for me. I know that it wasn’t easy… Considering Drew…”

“And Teresa… I didn’t expect to see her. You never said that she was invited.”

“Teresa? Why was she a problem for you? I thought you were able to solve your issues with Logan…”

“No.”

“Really? He said that you two talked and were able to find common ground. That he hopes you will stay in touch with each other…”

“When did he say that?”

“Today. When he came home with Kelly, he said you stayed longer because you were busy with Liam. Was that a lie?”

What should I tell her? If I failed tonight, I would prefer for no one except him to know about it. If I succeed, it would be a pleasant surprise for everyone.

“No, it wasn’t. Liam is a great guy. I am glad that I had the chance to meet him.”

“Who is a great guy?” Drew’s voice made me jump. I had no idea that he was already here.

I turned my head to the entrance. Drew and Logan were standing in the doorframe. Like a flashback, I remembered Mrs. Jones’s words that they will always choose one another.

What if Drew still wanted to be with me? What if Logan says no to me just because of his friend? It was highly possible. Shit!

“My brother.” John appeared behind their backs and walked into the room. The atmosphere became tense. I tried to catch Logan’s gaze, but he was avoiding looking at me. “He was a real gentleman to Becca, never upsetting her. Unlike you.”

“John!” Lily said, getting up quickly. She walked to John and placed her hand on his elbow.

“What? I heard them. Logan isn’t thrilled with Drew’s behavior, either. Why do we need to act as if everything is okay?”

“It’s not your fucking business what I do or say.”

“Drew, that’s enough!” I got up, strode straight to him, clasped his elbow, and pulled him to follow me. I glanced at Logan. It was the first time he met my gaze. Fuck! What was he thinking?! I couldn’t understand what I saw.

Once we were outside, I took my hand from his and stepped a few steps back. I was glaring at him, while Drew was the epitome of calmness. Why wasn’t I surprised?!

“What do you think you’re doing?”

“What? I did nothing wrong. We are all adults. We can solve our issues together. Or are you trying to tell me that we need help from others?”

“Help? Do you know how many times I’ve heard the question, ‘What did Drew Milton say to you’? Everyone saw that you said something to me and that I wasn’t happy about it!”

“Okay, he stated the obvious. What else?”

“He’s Lily’s husband, and you need to respect him, especially when you are at her family’s house.”

“Okay. Will you feel better now, if I am nice to little John Dencen?”

“Fuck, Drew! You’re getting on my nerves! You’re acting like a child, and I am sick of it!”

“A child?” He stepped closer to me.

“Yes! Because only a kid couldn’t hold his tongue!”

“Damn, Becca, do you know how hot you are when you’re angry?” I couldn’t believe it! It was like he was deaf!

“Don’t.” He took a step closer to me. Reaching out and placing his hand on my hip. “Drew, take your hand off me.”

“Why?” His other hand landed on my waist. “I know how to touch you, and you will be purring like a kitten in a few seconds.”

“I said, take your hands off me, Drew.” I wasn’t yelling, but I was stressing every word. I was angry.

“Becca, you just forgot how it feels…” His hand slid from my hip to my butt. “But I remember. I remember what it means to be with you, how it feels when I am touching you, and your body is reacting to my touch. And God, how much I want to kiss your perfect lips…”

I saw in his eyes that he was sincere. I saw the desire in them, but my eyes weren’t reflecting his. I know that he’s attractive, stunning even. I know that I would feel good if I agreed to have sex with him. He would do anything for me to reach my limits.

Drew was an experienced guy when we were in college. God knows what he was capable of now.

Honestly, I had no desire to find out. My relationship with him wouldn’t have any future. I know it for sure, and he will see it too; he needs to see it because I want Logan. I have wanted him for a very long time already.

“Drew, please, take your hands off me.”

The door to the house opened, and I immediately turned my head. It was Logan. His eyes landed on Drew’s hands on my waist and my butt. I saw him narrow his eyes. He clenched his jaw.

“Dinner is served. We're all waiting for you two.”

Please, Logan, look at me. Please, I don't want him to touch me. I'm begging him with my eyes. But in a few heartbeats, I realize that it's useless. He's already made up his mind. I'll need a miracle to make him listen to me. More importantly, to make him believe me.

I brush Drew’s hands off me and rush to the house. When I enter the living room, I see that everyone is already seated.

John and Lily sit near her mother and father. Logan sits across from them, and it means only one thing. I'll be sitting in the middle. Between Logan and Drew. Just like the good old days.

I sit and glance at Logan. He's looking down at his hands on the table. Drew comes to the table and sits near me, saying that he's sorry. I haven't been that uncomfortable for several years. I want to disappear.

Lily’s mom needs only a few minutes to realize that we're all tense. With the help of her husband, they're able to change the atmosphere. We start talking about the wedding, the guests, and the gifts. About the moments we like the most.

I even started to enjoy myself, and the food was delicious. John was relaxed, and I guess it was all because of Lily. She helped him. Even Drew was acting normally. But I couldn’t relax. I wanted time to go faster. For all these people to go to sleep. I wanted to be alone with Logan and try my luck.

Logan was ignoring me. He talked to everyone except me. He never helped me with wine, serving only his mother and sister. As if I didn’t exist. It troubled me, and it became harder with every moment to hide it.

Alicia took a few dishes and asked me to help her. All the men went to sit on the couch, discussing football. Lily sat near her husband; she was tired but tried not to fall asleep. It was adorable, though.

“Rebecca, may I ask you something?” Alicia asked as soon as we placed the empty plates on the kitchen counter.

“Of course.” I leaned my back against the wall and stared into her eyes. It wasn’t a coincidence that she asked me to help her. She wanted to talk to me and me only.

“How do you feel about my son? Because I see how you look at him.”

“I love him.”

“Really, Rebecca? I thought you were better than that.”

“What?” I was confused by her reaction.

“You ruined his life. Before meeting you, he knew exactly what he wanted. He wanted to be a professional football player, but he also wanted to have a family.

“He wanted to have someone who would always be by his side, cheering for him at his games, taking care of him when he got home from rough practices.” She folded her arms across her chest. “I never thought that Melanie would be that person. I never really liked her.

“But soon, when I saw how he looked at you, I realized that you were even worse. You played with my son’s feelings. Only to choose his best friend instead of him.”

“Alicia, I started dating Drew, when Logan was still together with Melanie. He told me that he wanted to stay with her.”

“I know. But did you even realize why he was spiraling after his breakup with Melanie? Because he wanted you, and you weren’t his!”

“I know that now, but it was so long ago. I don’t feel anything for Drew. While I am sure that I want to be with Logan.”

“Rebecca, don’t do this to him. Let him forget you.”

“Alicia, all I want is to talk to Logan. If he doesn’t want to have anything to do with me, I will step aside and won’t bother him. But if there is even the tiniest possibility that he would want to be with me, I have to try.”

“Rebecca, I am asking you not to do this. You made him miserable. That’s who he is right now, and it’s only because of you.”

“That’s insane…” I shook my head in disbelief. “I know that he could be happy with me. I am sure of it.”

“I heard your life is in New York…”

“I would follow him. I am ready to do it.” I took a few steps and stopped near her. “Alicia, I made this mistake a long time ago when I pushed him away. Not realizing that I would be the one who would be suffering. I promise you, if he tells me no, I will leave him alone.”

She stared at me. I held her gaze without averting my eyes. I knew she was worried. Everything she said to me was the truth. I guessed as much. But if she could see what triggered all this mess, she would be able to understand how strong we could be together.

“Okay.” She nodded her head at me, still not smiling and not softening her voice. “I know you are a good girl, Becca. I know my son liked you and probably likes you now.

“But please, if he says no, don’t insist. Don’t use the feminine power that you have over him. It’s your strength and your curse. You attract men, and you make them lose their minds.”

“I never did…”

“Becca, I know that I am right. Logan and you were attracted to each other. But your charms and your beauty played a joke on you, making Drew fall for you. You were happy together with him, but it was only temporary… I am glad that you know it now and sad that he still has no idea about it…”

“Unfortunately.” A sad smile appeared on my lips, and she finally smiled back at me.

“Don’t make me regret my decision, Becca… If Logan wants to be with you, there will be consequences, and I hope you will be ready. But if he doesn’t…”

“I will step aside, and you will never hear about me in addition to Logan.”

“Good. I am glad that I decided to talk to you. Matthew was against it, but I told him that you are a smart young woman, and you will understand me.”

“Thank you.” I turned around and walked to the exit.

“Becca?”

“Yeah?” I turned my head and locked eyes with hers.

“Don’t tell Lily about our talk and your upcoming talk with Logan.”

“That's the plan. She's going on her honeymoon, and I want her to be happy and not worried.”

“You're a good friend.”

“I'm trying.”

With that, I walked out of the kitchen, full of determination to try to change my life, to be happy with a man who had been there for me for a very long time.