Rekindled Bonds and Bitter Warnings

BECCA

“You love me?” I was dumbfounded. I had a hard time realizing what was going on here.

“Well, I was in love with you. You knew that. But right now, I’m talking about loving you as one of my closest friends. You’re like family, Becca!”

“Kate, right now, I don’t see any reasonable explanation for your words.”

“Okay. You were my best friend. Life happened, and we drifted apart. It happens all the time, I know. So I had huge expectations for your visit. I was hoping that we would be able to catch up on the past. We would be friends again…”

“But what I saw at the party before the wedding… If you are with him, the whole world will disappear around you.”

“And?”

“I won’t be in your life if you are with him.”

A nervous laugh escaped my lips. It was crazy. No logic, no rational sense.

“Kate, are you high or what?”

“I am pregnant, Becca. It’s the third month, and my emotions are going haywire... I am so scared of losing this baby, too, that I am on edge almost every minute of every day…”

“Wha...? What do you mean ‘too’? You were pregnant before?”

“I have had three miscarriages. This is my fourth pregnancy, and it’s the longest so far. According to the doctors, everything is more than okay... But I am a fucking wreck.

“I have always been too emotional, saying stupid things without thinking. Now? It’s a fucking disaster! I have been fighting with Tim. He slept on the couch for two weeks... and only after the wedding, he returned to our bedroom. I’ve made peace with him, and I was so happy about it...

“Now, I am ruining all of my chances to make things right with you.”

Three miscarriages. Three. While I had known nothing. How was that even possible? How did we become like this? I stepped towards Kate and wrapped my arms around her. She hid her face in my hair. Her body was trembling because she started crying.

“Shhh, Kitty Kate. Don’t cry. Your baby doesn’t need this. You need to stay strong and be happy.”

“You’re such a good person, Becca, and you have always been a great friend to me. I don’t deserve you.”

“Don’t talk rubbish,” I laughed and heard Kate join me. “Let’s go to the living room and talk.”

“Sounds good.”

The next hour, we spent talking about our lives. Mostly, Kate was the one talking. Tim and she had been wanting to have a child for a very long time already, but as it happens these days, it wasn’t that easy.

Kate had problems with her cycle even in our teenage years, so she always knew that it wouldn’t be an easy task. Also, considering this, she was shocked at how difficult it was. The happiness of finding out that she was pregnant quickly changed to grief.

All of her miscarriages happened when she was barely one month pregnant. So now, Tim and she were extremely anxious and careful. I hoped that this time, she would give birth to a healthy baby, and their family would finally be complete.

“Becca, how do you feel about Logan?” Kate was sitting across from me on the couch. It was almost 7:30 pm, and Tim should be home any minute.

“Honestly? I love him, and it scares me so much… When I first met him, I was drawn to him like crazy. I wanted to be with him or just be near him… I slept with him when he was still with Melanie…”

“You did what?! When?!” Kate stared at me with her mouth open.

“When we were here on winter break, Melanie left for home. We thought it would help us, and it actually did. This tension between us became easier, but this attraction and need to be close to each other didn’t go anywhere.”

“When I was with Drew, I was completely faithful to him. Logan was my best friend, and that’s all… But deep down, I knew I had feelings for him. That I care about him more than I should. That I admire everything about him…”

I turned my head away and stared off into the distance. Kate was silent. It was very unusual for her, but I guess she learned her lesson. She was waiting for me to continue.

“I don’t regret being together with Drew. I was very happy with him, and I loved him. Just… Logan and I are like two pieces of one puzzle. It’s not normal, this urge that we feel with each other. We should have understood it earlier. Who knows what could have been right now?”

“Becca, even just listening to you… I understand how strong your feelings for him are…”

“And also my fear that something might go wrong, and my heart will be destroyed.”

“He’s different when you are around him. The way he looks at you gives away his feelings… When you were dancing at the party… I hadn’t seen something that hot for a very long time.”

“What was hot?”

Kate and I turned our heads and saw Tim coming into the living room. We didn't even hear him get home.

“Becca and Logan.” Kate smiled at her husband.

He came closer and sat down beside her on the couch. He kissed her lips and turned his head to me. Tim was silent for a few seconds, watching me. He changed, becoming more serious and more mature.

“So, it finally happened.”

It wasn't a question. I raised my eyebrow at him.

“You know, for one day, I have heard that too many times.”

“Because it was obvious to anyone who had a chance to watch Logan and you for more than a few days. Don't forget that I was friends with him…” Tim hugged Kate, and his gaze became distant. Yeah, he was sad about losing his friend.

“He is coming here. For dinner,” I said, and Tim instantly returned his gaze to me.

“If he's only going to do it for you, then I don't need it.”

“I just talked to him. He’s sad that everything went like this between you and him. Don’t you want to try to make everything right?”

“I want it, Becca. I have for a long time now. But no matter how many times I tried to reach him, he wouldn’t even listen to me. I’m not sure that he will come tonight.”

“He will, Tim. I assure you. Logan is missing you.”

“We will see. I need to change; I’ll be back in a few minutes.”

“Becca and I are going to prepare everything. Take your time.”

Tim left us alone. I looked at Kate and saw her grimacing. I instantly became worried. Was she not feeling well?

“Kate, are you okay? I can do it all by myself. It’s no big deal.”

“I feel very nervous, and because of that, I feel dizzy.”

“Stay here, Kitty Kate. I will do everything.”

A few minutes later, the table was full of food. Tim returned to the living room just as I finished all the preparations. Kate and he weren't comfortable.

The time was close to 8 pm, and Logan wasn't here. Honestly, I started to feel nervous. I was sure that he was serious about his desire to make things right with Tim. Was I wrong?

My phone buzzed in my jean pockets. I took it, expecting to see Logan's name, but it was Drew. I smiled at Kate and Tim, who were sitting on the couch talking in hushed voices. I walked to the hallway and then outside the house. Only when I was on the porch, I answered the call.

“Hey, Drew. How are you?”

“Rebecca, it's very nice of you to answer. A few rings ago, I thought that you wouldn't pick up your phone.”

“Why shouldn't I?” I bit my lower lip, looking into the distance. It was 8 pm, and there was still no sign of Logan. Where the hell was he?

“I don't know. You were acting very uptight with me yesterday.”

“Because you were acting like an asshole.”

“Damn, Rebecca. You’re calling me an asshole, while all that I want to do is come to you, kiss you, and then fuck you until you lose your mind.”

“Stop, Drew. I need to tell him. He’s getting carried away even if I haven’t given him the slightest hint that I'm interested.

“Okay, let’s try this another way. You promised to have dinner with me.”

“And?”

“You’re backing out?” His tone of voice became curt. I hate doing this to him.

“No, Drew. I will go with you. When and where?”

“Tomorrow. I will come pick you up at 7 pm.”

“Okay. I am staying at Tim and Kate’s place.”

“I know. See you, Rebecca.”

Drew ended the call without waiting for my answer. How am I going to survive this dinner with him? And especially, how will he react to Logan and me being a couple? He needs to know, that’s what I am sure about. I don’t want to hide it because he doesn’t deserve these secrets.

“Are you waiting for me?” I almost jumped for real. I wasn’t expecting to hear his voice, not when I was so lost in my thoughts. Besides, I didn’t notice a car pull up.

I slowly turned around and locked eyes with the one and only Logan Jones. He was wearing a simple blue t-shirt and light blue jeans. It looked perfect on him, hugging his biceps, muscles, and highlighting his delicious abs.

My lips stretched into a big, happy smile. It was still hard to believe that this man was mine now. That he wanted to be with me too.

“Well, yeah…” I walked up to him and wound my arms around his waist. “One minute, I even thought that you wouldn’t show up at all.”

“You have so little faith in me, Rebecca?” Logan’s voice was working better than any aphrodisiac. I started to feel needy, and I wanted his hands on my body and his lips on mine.

It looked like I wasn’t the only one who felt that, though. Logan bent his head down and kissed me. Sweetly and tenderly. I closed my eyes and just enjoyed the feeling.

“Babe, can I make you leave this house and come home with me after dinner?”

“I’ll think about it.” Yes, yes, a thousand times, yes! I should have stayed at his house in the first place. “Let’s go inside. You’re late, and dinner has already been served.”

“Of course.” Logan took my hand in his. My palm was so small in comparison to his. I feel protected near him. Nothing wrong can happen while Logan is by my side.

“Are you ready?” I kissed his forearm and glanced at him.

“Yeah. Tim and I have been friends since we were kids. I don’t want to lose him.”

“I love you, Logan.”

“Love you too, Becca.”

Logan kissed the top of my hair. I placed my hand on the doorknob and opened the door. I was the first to go in; I turned my head and watched my lover. He was a little tense, but honestly, it was understandable.

I squeezed his hand, giving him courage and trying to convey my love to him too. Logan smiled, stepped inside, and closed the door behind him. Well, I hope this dinner goes well.