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-Two months later-

It’s been such a relief to me that I moved out from Jerral’s place. Knowing that I can’t be with him or start a new life with him, I can’t continue staying there although he’s kind enough to let me stay without expecting anything from me. He was a good man and he should have a good future. He shouldn’t think about me. and waste his time. Because of all those things, it felt relaxed and good to move out. After all, I am a single mother and I should be taking care of my son alone.

I know that Jerrak found this place and he’s visiting me from time to time in order to assure my safety and Luan’s safety. I can’t blame him for that or ask him not to come here since he was such a good person who helped me when I had no one in my life. However, he’s really close with Luan and his presence makes my son happy. But I know I can’t continue this either. Jerral should start a new family on his own and when that happens, I don’t think he can visit us like this and I don’t want him to either.

I sighed and threw my thoughts away. I’m living my life peacefully. I don’t need anything other than my son. And luckily, I have him in my arms. When I turned. and looked at Luan who’s playing with his toys, my heart suddenly began to ache as my mind stubbornly recalled me about Lucias.

Every time I get thoughts of Lucias, it hurts me without stopping. It’s been two. months since I haven’t seen him. He didn’t come to find me either. He must have completely given up on me now. But that’s fine… That’s totally fine because I didn’t want him to come and find either. There’s no use of it.

I don’t know what he’s doing and what’s happening with him. I don’t know if his health has worsened or not. I know that I shouldn’t be thinking about him like this but I couldn’t stop myself from doing so. I feel so devastated. I hurt him with my words and made him go away but now my heart is worrying and crying thinking about him. It felt as if someone was clutching my heart so tightly when I looked at Luan’s face while my mind was filled with the images of Lucias who simply possessed the same features.

“See, you are crying again? You have no reason to cry when you are the one to push him away this time. Stop crying, ernilina! I’m so tired of your cries and sobbing all the time‘

My wolf sounded sad and annoyed. I know that all my emotions are affecting her and she also feels it painful when I think about Lucias and cry but I’m not doing this intentionally. I’m hurt and I just don’t understand anything. Yes, it was true

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that I pushed him away this time but it was because I have realized that we can’t be together again with him married to someone else.

I should stop dreaming about him at least now. Before, he crushed all my dreams. with a few words from his mouth and he can still do it to me. Just like he crushed all my

dreams, my trust I held towards him was also crushed. I still love him. I still love him just like the first day I did but I can’t bring myself to trust him again.

I’m afraid to do it. Why am I repeating all these thoughts again? I sighed and closed my eyes burying all these feelings and thoughts deep within my heart. I don’t want to think about this anymore.

“Baby, let’s take a bath and go out. You and me” I went to Luan as I picked him. up. I haven’t taken him out in a while and I need to take him to the park. The park is a bit far away from the place I’m living but that doesn’t matter. I’m taking him out today. With that, I went to my room and entered the washroom wanting to wash. him. Once I was done, I took him out and changed his clothes before letting him stay on the bed with two of his toys so he could wait until I took a shower.

I hurriedly grabbed a shower and got ready to go out.

I decided to walk to the park as I came out of the house. Walking is better and it’s still two in the afternoon so I have time for a walk. And today is even a good day to go out as the weather is perfect. Not too cold or hot. Everything is perfect. I walked through the pavement of the road holding Luan’s hand.

He was looking everywhere around him with curiosity. No matter how many times. I’ve taken him out for walks, he would always observe his surroundings with such a curious look on his face. He’s kinda cute when he does it. My boy is always cute… the cutest boy alive.

I arrived at the park and saw there were a few children playing there. Gazing at all the children and their happy parents, I sighed and led Luan towards the swing. He loves this more than all other activities in the park. Once I made sure he was safely sitting on the swing, I began to push it gently and slowly, listening to the way he giggled when the swing went high. His smile could heal my broken heart. He’s slowly healing me from all the injuries that his father caused me. I’m happy that I got pregnant and gave birth to this baby. After all, I am not alone.

“Baby, shall we go there?” I pointed at the slides.

His eyes sparkled. He glanced up at me with a smile and nodded. Wah.. how cute. My heart is yours… I felt crazy to see how gorgeous and adorable my son is. I picked him up and put him on the ground as he jogged towards the slides pulling,

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me with his little hands.

As I watched him play, I felt someone’s presence behind me along with a certain. scent. My heart went numb and then began to beat crazily. I turned and saw Lucias. He was standing right in front of me while his sharp and cold gaze swept on me. Why is he here? What is he even doing?

Countless questions popped up in my mind and I felt scared. I’m with Luan and that means he’s going to see my son. I clutched my dress and turned as I tried to get Luan and leave but I yanked my by hand but then I was simply pushed away. My heart was hammering inside of my rib cage as Lucias went to Luan.

What is he going to do? How could he just push me away? I felt utterly helpless when I saw Lucias and Luan having eye contact. I don’t know what they are feeling but I’m scared to think about it. They both have the same kind of blood running through their veins and it’s obvious that they will feel the bond. Luan won’t be able to understand it since he’s so small but Lucias can.

“Luan, baby… let’s go home. I’ll take you here again”

I had to move in the middle of them wanting to get Luan from the top of the slides and leave as soon as possible. How did this man even appear here? He’s just like a ghost! Heating me, Luan looked at me but he shook his head as his eyes. again fell on Lucias. I chewed the inside of my cheek harder. I have no words to express how helpless and scared I am right now. I didn’t even bother to look at Lucias because all I wanted to do was to take my child away.

“Mommy… there… I want to go there” Luan threw his hands towards the playground climbers. There are already two more kids climbing it. I took him here. to play and I don’t want to ruin his happiness but this man!

Where did he come from? How did he even find me? I had to look at Lucias whose eyes are still on my baby. A possessive yet angry thought appeared in me seeing the way he was looking at my son. Luan is mine and only mine… I gave birth to him alone. So he will be mine alone!

“Can you move away?” I said, wanting to move closer to Luan so I could put him on the ground. But Lucias paid no attention to me. He just casually picked up Luan and walked past me, leaving me dumbfounded. Did he just pick up my child? Did he just carry my son and ignored me?

He just casually walked past me! I gritted my teeth and turned as I hurried my steps after Lucias who looks dangerously handsome when I look at him from behind. There’s no need to see his face, his perfect figure is enough to show all the

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“What do you think doing?” I caught up with him and grabbed his arm as I hissed at him. He still spared no glance at me.

Oh… you are ignoring me? He came to me and took my son and now he’s ignoring me? Does he think I would let him corporate with it? “Here you go, climb past. those toddlers. They are no match for you” My l*ps parted in shock. I almost choked on my breath with his words. What advice! He’s just trying to make my son toxic! When Luan began to climb, I grabbed Lucias‘ arm again.

“Can you please leave without pouring your toxicity on my child?” I pinched his arm harder. This time, Lucias looked at me. He glanced down at me but said nothing. He was silent but his emotionless eyes said it all. He was angry at me and wanted to punish me. Like he can!

I didn’t maintain eye contact between us as I pushed him aside. His intentions are unclear to me. I don’t know why he’s here. What if he’s here to fight for Luan’s custody? What if he’s here to take him away from me? Those thoughts in my mind are so painful.

“You have no right to come here. Don’t come in front of him again!” I said raising my hands to support Luan but I was not so tall for that. He had climbed somewhat high already. But Lucias supported him and made him climb even higher. He’s not listening to him, is he? I had to face Lucias again but before I could say anything he spoke.

“Why? Why can’t I come in front of him? He’s mine!”

“I never knew I had a son! After f**king hiding his presense from me, don’t you dare to mess with me. I can take him to me and leave you f**king alone!” He moved his face closer to me.

“I’m fighting for his custody. You are going to lose him too”