Chapter 19

Chapter 19

“How can I f**king pretend that I didn’t meet you? Not after I found out that I have a son. I’ve already lost two years of his life because you never let me know about his existence and now you are f**king asking me not to follow you and our son? What kind of man do you think I am, Emilina? You think I f**king can walk away when I see his face? I did everything because I had f**king reasons. I hurt you and I won’t deny it but you can’t just literally throw me out of my son’s life!”

“What’s wrong with being with me? You clearly know that I f**king love you, Emilina! You know it but why are you forcing yourself to believe that I don’t? I rejected you but did I ever ask you to leave? I rejected you because I had no choice but when I came to find you, you were f**king gone! You ran away on your own and you had my son. Now you are trying to punish me by using him. Of course, it f**king hurts when you say that you don’t need me to be his dad. And you keep doing it.”

“In the first place, you are not in a position to say that he doesn’t want me to be hist father. He will choose it himself. And that child is mine. I fucked you and got you pregnant, not any other fucker! Either you like it or not, I’m involved with his life. from now on. If you don’t want to be with me or accept me, you can fuck off Emilina. I’m not going to follow you ever again trying to get you back to me. I’m his father and that’s it! Without me you wouldn’t have become a mother! Without me you wouldn’t have a son!”

I stared at Lucias with my trembling heart. The veins in his forehead and n*eck were visible as he shouted at me. What is he saying? Every single word he said made my heart ache. But what did he even mean by that he did it to save me? Save me from what? From whom? I stood there as my whole soul was consumed by the confusion along with bewilderment.

I failed to understand anything he said because I was too hurt and shocked with his words. I stared at him as he finally shut his mouth and looked away from me. We are arguing. Arguments between us were the least expected thing to me when I was dating him back then. He never raised his voice at me or tried to argue.

He’s challenging me already. He wants to be with Luan. but him being with me and Luan will do nothing but make me his mistress while Luan is his illegitimate child. Why do I have to be like that? He’s calling me selfish but he has no idea how selfish he is right now. He’s not doing justice to me.

If he wants me again, he should fix everything and come to me but what he’s trying to do is keep me with him while he has a wife in another house. I closed my

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eyes and shook my head refusing to accept anything he said. If he wanted to save me, he should’ve done it in a different way rather than rejecting me on the happiest day of my life. He broke me when I was happy.

“What do you… mean by that you did it to save me?” I asked him. I know he’s angry and controlling his emotions because he’s with me but I wanted to know the meaning of it. Why did he have to save me?

I was perfectly fine and I didn’t have any enemies either. Is he pulling an unreasonable reason between us to show me that what he did was right? He can say as many reasons as he wants but I can’t forgive him for rejecting me! I’m his mate! If he ever wanted to reject me, he could’ve done that before our wedding. Before we walk into a deep relationship. He accepted me wholeheartedly as his mate but then after our wedding he changed. His change humiliated my whole life!

“You will get to know it one day. I don’t want to explain anything to you. Do whatever you want but I’m not going to stop visiting him or being with him.” Lucias said casually.

He doesn’t want to explain to me? One day I would know? What exactly happened to him? Why didn’t he say a word about anything? Why couldn’t he share all his burdens with me? I was always there for him. I loved him and I did everything that could make him live a stress free life because he was a man who had countless duties since he was the alpha of everyone but still he decided to hide things from me which is clearly a disrespect towards me. Keep all the things aside but I loved. him.. he knows how I loved him.

“Are you threatening me, Lucias? Are all these threatening to snatch my son from me?” I didn’t hesitate to ask the biggest question in my heart.

I took a step closer to him and looked up at him. His eyes are on mine, staring deep into my soul as if he wants to rip it out of my b*dy. Only he could do it. I never thought I would be fighting with the man I loved the most over our very own child. I always dreamed about having kids with him and I knew he would love them but never have I dreamed about fighting for their custody.

“Do you want me to do that? If I fight for his custody, I won’t stop until I get him from you. I will not let you win and you know it for sure. Do you want me to take you to the court where every single man and woman supports me? No one will ever take your side, Emilina. Look at him, he totally looks like me and I don’t even want any tests to prove it. Only his face is enough! So, I’m asking you, do you want me to do that? Take you to the court and tell everyone you’ve been hiding the future alpha?”

What can I say? How can I be brave meeting all these painful facts? I know that he will win. I know he can do it. It would be easy for him to take my son from me and. give me a hard time. He has everyone to support him while I have no one. This is. why I’m always helpless.

However, his words stabbed my heart brutally. I lowered my eyes not wanting to face him anymore. I would be a sinner if he told everyone that I hid future alpha. Everyone would hate me and I would be humiliated but why? Why can’t I just live a peaceful life without other people’s trouble? I want to be with my son alone.

“So you are asking me to be your mistress?” I finally looked up at him with defeatedly.

My question made him sigh. Why is he sighing? I clearly know that this is what he wants. If he wants this, let him get this. I don’t want to lose my child. I don’t want to lose him because of my pride or anything. It’s better becoming a mistress than becoming a woman who lost her son. My eyes slowly moistened when I thought about it. He wants me to be with him while he continues his marriage with that woman. I hate this! I hate to be like this but I have no choice.

“Not a mistress. Why are you keep saying that f**king word, Lina?” He cupped my face.

He can try as much as he wants to prove that being with him while he has a wife wouldn’t make me a mistress but the fact is I’m becoming one because of him. I didn’t say anything but stare at him as my vision slowly blurred. Why is this so painful? Why is my life so miserable? When I was living peacefully, we met again and now I’m suffering. He’s making me suffer. Lucias wiped my tears away as he k*ssed my forehead. I know that he’s trying to make me feel okay but nothing can make me feel okay anymore. I’m deeply hurt.

“I will marry you. We will get married again, Lina. I’m asking you to give me some time for it. It was never my will to marry her in the first place. I had no choice. Please… understand me. I don’t want you to think of yourself as a mistress. You are my mate. Just listen to me… you can’t raise a child without his father. You know it already. The more the child will grow up the more you will find it difficult. So why can’t you just be with me? I promise you that something like our past won’t happen again. I love you. I’m not lying. I never lied when I said I love and I will never. All I want is for you to be patient for a while and give me time to turn everything normal.”

I nodded at him. I was so tired of arguing and trying to defend myself. I was so tired of explaining to him why I don’t want to be with him and I’m just so tired of this drama. He wants me and then lets him have it. After all, he always gets what ha

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wants. He never fails when it comes to accomplishing his desires and goals. Right now, I’m one of those. He wants me to be with him.

As I nodded at him without thinking or speaking more. Lucias hugged me against. his chest. I felt him resting his chin on my head. I love him and I want to be with. him but not like this. Not like his mistress!

My fate is such a hilarious one. How does it feel to become your own mate’s mistress? And when you were married to him for a day? I am doing this because I’m helpless. I have no choice. I don’t want to lose my son either. I want him. He’s my everything. But I failed to control my sobs. Why did we fall into this kind of situation? We good and we loved each other.

were

We even got married but suddenly just like a hurricane, everything changed so fastly tearing us apart. I still don’t know what was the reason for everything but I hope he has a valid reason for everything. He should have a fair reason to reject

“Don’t cry… I promise to give you the life I couldn’t. I promise to take you back to where you should be. Please forgive me for what I did. Give me one more chance. If I still bring us to where we were before, I will let you go. I will let you leave me and you can take him with you too. I won’t bother you or try to follow you again if something like that happens.”

Lucias cupped my face and made me face him again. My tears increased because of his words. He’s letting me go if he couldn’t bring us to the back where we loved each other? He can do it.. He can love me again and be with each other happily but he will never be able to bring down the pain he gave me.

So how is he going to do it? How is he going to bring us to where we were before? And how can he do it when we have a problem and it’s his wife.