Chapter 23

Chapter 23

M–Lucias

I looked at the way Emilina just stared at me. Her eyes are covered with tears and I know that she’s so hurt by the fact that I’m not telling her what exactly happened. I know she’s worried about me and wanted to help me in every way she can, but I don’t want her to be involved with anything that’s happening in my life. All I want is for her to be with me and that’s all.

Seeing that she was hurt and sad, I sighed and caressed her face but still I’m not going to tell anything to her. She shouldn’t know anything about this and she should live without stress in her head. As I caressed her face, she lowered her eyes but said nothing. She must be angry at me for not saying anything or explaining anything to her about this sudden situation.

“Why don’t you go and sleep?” I k*ssed her head. As soon as I said that, she looked up at me and wiped her tears..

“Are you asking me to go and sleep when something like this happened? You think I can sleep when I don’t know what’s going on in your life and you are hiding all the things from me? What did you take me for? It’s easy for you to say but it’s so hard for me to endure”

She moved my hand from her face and took a few steps back. I can’t blame her. I won’t blame her either for this anger. Even I would be so mad if she acted like this without telling me anything but how am I going to tell anything to her? She will be worried about death. I sighed and pressed my l*ps together thinking what to do.

“Lucias…. Please…. Don’t be like this” she again hugged me buying her face against my chest. She’s crying. I rested my chin on her head and hugged her back while my mind was busy thinking what to do and how to explain all these things to her. She’s innocent. I once broke her heart which had affected her so much although she didn’t mention anything to me. I’ve done wrong things to her.

I rejected her and simply ripped her heart apart with my words but she’s still here with me without leaving. She wants to stay with me, live with me as a family and I know it. I also want the same thing as her but my life is more complicated than she would ever imagine. However I have no idea of losing her ever again. I won’t let her go away from me ever again because only I know how much I suffered because of my own bad deed.

“Lina, treat my wounds” Instead of pulling any other topics, I muttered k*ssing her head. She broke the hug between us and roamed her eyes all over me before she

Chapter 23

nodded at me. Next she took my hand and walked upstairs.

“Would you take a shower and come?” she asked.

Of course… I need to wash all this blood from my b*dy. I walked inside of the washroom of our room and switched on the cold shower as I walked under it. My skin was pierced by the cold water droplets. I lowered my eyes and watched the way blood mixed water dripped down through my legs and moved through the floor. I closed my eyes using my hands to comb my hair back not wanting to fall it through my forehead.

How can I die like that? I don’t want to die when I got what I always wanted back in my arms. I always wanted Emilina to get her back. I was successful and she didn’t come alone, she came with a son for me. She had my son and now I can’t die. I don’t want to die and leave them alone. I should f**king live for them and I will live for them no matter what kind of hard challenges that came to my life. I cleaned myself and left the washroom wrapping the towel around me.

When I came, I saw Emilina who had also taken a shower and was taking all the medicine we had in our house out of an emergency. I kept this all here because Luan is always playing and some kinds of accidents could happen while playing. Who thought I would be the one to need this.

“Sit here, she muttered. Her eyes were red and she had been crying for sure.without saying more, I sat on the bed letting her treat the wounds on my forehead. Her hands trembled but she was holding it back as she treated them. Once she was done, she looked at me and sighed. I knew she had so many questions in her mind and so many painful thoughts. I should answer her questions but I can’t do it.

“I’ll make something for you. Wait…” I’m glad that she didn’t ask me any questions because it will only give me a hard time. But right now, I didn’t want to eat either. I’m not hungry at all. I just want to be with her and that’s all. I shook my head and pulled her to me by her hand as I laid on the bed with her on me.

“I’m not hungry..” I traveled my hands on the back of her delicate b*dy. “Lucias… just” She tried to say something but she stopped it on her own as she hugged me tightly again. I know that she was scared. And I hate myself for letting her go through something like that.

My blood boils whenever I remember that bastard threatened to kill Luan if she didn’t sleep with him. I’m so f**king glad that I came at right time if not, she would have let him do anything to her in order to protect Luan. Every mother would do that, won’t they? I stared at the ceiling above me while caressing her

back. My mind was not in a good state, so was my heart. This is just the beginning of everything and the future will be more dangerous.

“Is this… all because of me? Because we got back together?” Her sudden question was like a hard punch to my heart. It was painful. I tightened my hands around her waist and closed my eyes. I would be a liar if I say nothing was because of her. Yes…. she was right, everything happened because we got back together.

I don’t deny it but that doesn’t mean I would tell her that. I don’t want her to think that she was a burden and everything happened because of her although she was right. I sighed and fl*pped on the bed pressing her beneath me. She’s so f**king delicate and soft. What would a man expect from a woman more than this? I sl*pped my hand under the skirt of her nightdress and touched her smooth legs. wrapping them around my torso.

“Nothing was because of you, Lina. It was all because I did something stupid… You are not a reason” I said, making her stare at me as if she was trying to rip my soul and take the truth out of my mouth. I will tell her one day but not now. She’s not ready to listen to anything I am going to say.

“Are you lying to me? If you are lying thinking I would leave you again after hearing the truth, please don’t! Just tell me the truth. I want nothing but the truth, Lucias.” she cupped my face with a sad smile. She’s not going to leave me? I’m f**king glad… I’m so happy to hear her saying it. I don’t want her to leave me.

“Can we talk about this later?” I asked her, she averted her eyes from me and remained silent without an answer which revealed that she was still not in a good mood but that’s fine I’ll make her feel good, I ignored whatever her answer was gonna be as I k*ssed her l*ps.

She didn’t k*ss me back immediately, however, slowly she responded to my k*ss while snaking her hands around my n*eck and pulling me closer to her more. Kissing he was one pleasurable thing that I would die for. I removed her nightdress from her b*dy swiftly and broke the k*ss between us as I moved downwards on her k*ssing her chest and breasts.

“So you have energy to do this?”

As soon as I pulled her n*pple between my teeth, I heard her cold voice. I had to look at her and force a smile. Since when did I have no energy to do this? I always had that f**king energy when it comes to having S** with her. Even if I had no energy, she could turn me on by doing something so small.

So yes… I will always have the energy for this with her. I won’t let that energy leave

“Lucias! How can we even think about doing something like this? There’s a dead b*dy in our house!” she hissed at me. f**k… I almost forgot that. No, it doesn’t matter. I’ve already linked my beta about this. Derek will come and clean everything.

“Derek will deal with it.” I said snatching the sheet away from her and pressing her beneath me again. I removed the towel I had around my waist and parted her legs wanting to slam myself inside but Emilina filled me as she sat on the top of me. She’s beautiful… How can I ever get over this beauty?

“Let me…” she mumbled with a shy expression and slowly put my hard length inside of her with a seductive moan. f**k… she’s so tight….

I groaned as I held her waist tightly while she began to rotate her hips leisurely. f**king hell… why is she so good and tight? I felt she was driving me crazy… This is not the first time we are doing this. Ever since I took her here, I did this and I couldn’t even hold myself even for one night because she had been giving me the pleasure that I couldn’t forget. I closed my eyes and tilted my head back moving one of my hands to her breasts. I tortured them gently while she tortured me with pleasure. This is the way I could forget all my burdens and stress. She makes me forget everything.

“Faster…” I growled as I moved her hips using my strength.

Her sweet moans are filled in my ears and she’s in pleasure. Her long hair brushed on my thighs because she was tilting her head back while her hands were on my abdomen. She’s moaning and her moans made me even harder inside of her. This is not enough… I need more. I grabbed her from her waist and pressed her on the bed again as I began to thrust into her harder and faster.

“Ah- mmmph… Luc….Lucias… oh” Emilina’s moans are driving me crazy.

“You want more?” I licked her l*ps as she nodded her head. With that, I sped my actions until her b*dy began to tremble with pleasure.