Chapter 5
The Perfect Spiral
âHey man! Whatâs up?â
âWeâre just hanging out.â
âYeah, I stayed over last night.â
âYeah, in her bed. Knox, chill, nothing happened.â
~Why does he even care?~
Wes sighed heavily, running his fingers through his hair. âYeah, I know, she just needed someone. Relax, dude!â
âAndy... was... busy. Seriously, Knox, you need to chill. It wasnât like that.â
~Why is he getting so defensive? Itâs not like Knox even cares. Heâs probably just fishing for information to tell my brothers.~
The tension in Wesâs voice sharpened until it snapped. âYouâre so damn entitled, Knox,â he barked. âNewsflashâthe whole world doesnât revolve around you.â
There was a pause, the sound of Knox saying something on the other end, but Wes didnât wait. He ended the call then tossed the phone onto the bed like it had burned him.
He stood there for a second, breathing hard, then sat down heavily on the edge of the mattress, elbows on his knees, fists clenched. His whole body radiated heat and frustration, jaw tight, eyes dark. Yeah, he was pissedâand I had no idea if it was more about Knox... or me.
I couldnât help but check out his abs, which flexed with every angry breath. ~Damn, I slept with that. Well, not like that, but you know what I mean.~
Wes sat down beside me, his shoulder brushing mine, and took my hand gently in his. âIâm sorry about how Knox talked to you,â he said.
I gave a half-hearted shrug, trying to play it off. âItâs not a big deal.â
âHeâs always been like that. Even before the fame. Always thought he was the center of the universe. I love the guy, but sometimes? Sometimes I really fucking hate him.â
âI know EXACTLY what you mean,â I said, before correcting, âI mean, I donât LOVE him. I like him sometimes, but usually hate him.â
Wes glanced at the time and sighed. âI should go,â he said, like he didnât really want to. He stood slowly, hesitating for a moment before leaning in. His hand cupped my jaw as he kissed meâsoft and warm, the kind of kiss that lingered. âIâll see you soon,â he murmured, giving me one last look before heading for the door.
We were acting like such a couple. I wasnât ready for that. I didnât want to dive back into a relationship.
~Relax, girl! He just stayed the night to comfort you. Chill!~ I scolded myself, trying to stop the internal dialogue.
As the door closed behind him, I heard a soft giggle. Turning, I found Andy standing there, arms folded, a teasing smile on her face. âYou moved on fast...â
I rolled my eyes at her and stomped towards the living room, adding a touch of drama to lighten the mood. âYou know itâs not like that. I used to have the biggest crush on Wes in high school. It was so weird to kiss him, but heâs a really good kisserâlike, really good! Plus, it was just fun. Heâs on the same page, Andy, itâs all good. But when we go to Savannah, you cannot mention this to my brothers. They will castrate him, and nobody wants that.â
âI think heâs always had a thing for you. Youâre just oblivious. But Iâm glad youâre getting over Drew. To be honest, you deserve much better, even if it is a fling. Enjoy being single!â
~Single...~
Iâm single.
My heart began to sting at the thought that I didnât have Drew anymore, even if he was a total cheating dick.
Tears began to trickle down my cheeks, and I closed my eyes, allowing myself to cry. I needed this. I felt worthless. What could I have done to stop him from cheating? What did I do wrong?
Was I bad in bed? Was I not there for him enough? What was wrong with me? Why did he do this to me?
A rush of emotions overwhelmed me as I began to cry harder. I flipped onto my stomach, letting the pillow muffle my sobs.
Andy came in and pulled me into a tight hug without saying a word.
âItâs going to be okay,â she whispered, her hand rubbing slow circles on my back. âYou donât have to hold it in, not with me.â
I sighed and wrapped my own arms around her, returning the comforting hug. Sheâs been through thick and thin with me.
***
The next few days passed in a blur. I kept myself busyâpacking, pretending to be excited about the trip, and dodging reality every time my phone lit up. I ignored Wesâs texts and calls, partly because I didnât know what to say... but mostly because I knew if my brothers found out, it would turn into a full-blown disaster, which I did not need when I was about to be home for Thanksgiving.
I did feel guiltyâWes had been sweet, and he clearly caredâbut heâd known what it was. Just one night. A rebound, a comfort. Now it was time to get back to normal, back to reality, and definitely back to boundaries.
Between Drew and Wes, my phone was blowing up so much I stopped looking at it when it buzzed. But then, my phone rang and I saw my brotherâs name flash across the screen. I hesitated before answering.
âWhy is Knox so pissed at you?â he asked, no greeting, straight to the point.
I blinked. âWhat?â
âHe said you told him you didnât want to go to his game. Now heâs been in a shit mood for two days. He wonât shut up about it. I thought he was gonna put his fist through a wall, like after we lost that game junior year.â
Iâd thought skipping the game was no big deal. Clearly, it was more than that to him.
I told him Iâd seen Knox that dayâthe day I accidentally called him. âHeâs probably just pissed I donât worship the ground he walks on like everyone else seems to.â
My brother moved on. While he babbled about flights and pickups for thanksgiving, I barely heard as I thought about Knox being angry.
Why did Knox care that much? Why did it mess him up so badly?
Later that day, there was a knock on my door. I opened it to find Wes standing there.
âHiâ¦â I said, feeling so awkward that Iâd been ignoring him. I was ready for him to rip into me, but he seemed totally normal.
âThought you might like a ride to the airport?â
âOh⦠Sure. Thanks, that would be great. Weâre almost done packing.â
As we walked toward my room, he said causally, âEven ghosts need rides, right?â
I could feel my face turning red as I stammered out an apology. At a loss for words, I turned back to my suitcase and continued packing, mindlessly grabbing whatever was closest. I tossed in a handful of underwear before realizing that Wes was watching me. I glanced up, my eyebrows raised in question. âWhat?â
He gave me that familiar smirk. âJust imagining what you look like in that.â
Instantly, my face heated up. I let out a nervous laugh and retreated to the bathroom to gather my toiletries. He followed me in.
âAre you going to pretend that didnât happen?â Wes asked, leaning casually against the door frame.
âPretend what didnât happen?â I countered, feigning ignorance.
âCome on...â
As I turned to face him, Wes moved closer, his hands on either side of me on the sink, effectively trapping me. âYou know, Alex, youâre cute when you blush,â he said, grinning. His gaze was so intense that I could see my reflection in his eyes.
Slowly, he moved even closer, his hands sliding along the sink towards my hips. He gently touched my hips but didnât let go of the sink behind me.
He leaned in until I could feel his breath on my ear. âMaybe I need to refresh your memory,â he suggested, âsince you seem to have forgotten something I canât get out of my mind.â
He moved his head so that his lips were barely touching mine, his eyes hungrily watching my lips. Subconsciously, I allowed my tongue to slip out and wet my lower lip, and his eyes followed the movement.
âYou have a gift for teasing, sweetheart,â he whispered against my lips. I was frozen, unable to move, but the truth was, he was the one with that gift.
âI think itâs the other way around, Wes.â I was surprised at how seductive my voice sounded. I hadnât even thought that sentence would come out of my mouth, let alone in such a seductive manner.
I knew I should step away. Between Drew and my brothers, this thing with Wes was messy and confusing and way too soon. But my body didnât get the memo. My fingers itched to grab his shirt and pull him into me.