Mine to never have

Dimitri Point Of View

I WAS IN MY OFFICE with Lance and Gabe almost ready to leave for my meeting when Gemini raced in, panting uncontrollably. She looked frantic, worried even, and I knew for sure something was going on.

Gabe moved closer to her side, placing a hand on her back trying to calm her down.

"Calm down Gemini, slow breaths. What's wrong?" Gabe asked, causing her breath to steady a bit, then she spoke.

"Alpha," she called, almost whispering.

I moved closer to her, anxiety almost swallowing me up. Causing my head to spin harder than it did this past few days. "Gemini speak! What happened?" I ordered her as her Alpha.

I moved closer to her. "It's Rubi... She has gone crazy and she is attacking Luna." Gemini finally said, terrified. My heart clenched instantly at her words.

Rubi! it had to be her stirring up more drama.

I knew how crazy Rubi was, she tortured enemies to her grandparents pack for fun. She was a real psychopath, not to mention she comes from a strong bloodline of Alpha werewolves. Isabella was just human, I was afraid for her safety if Rubi was spiraling.

Fear and anxiety were running down my spine, I could feel my body shifting to my lycan wolf. Luca was begging to be in complete control. It doesn't usually happen but sometimes often, just once in a blue moon, especially when I feel something bad is about to happen, Luca pushes himself to try to be in control but I resisted him.

"What happened Gem? Did she hurt anyone?" I stopped, thinking about the worst that bitch could do. I needed to go and get my mate.

"Isabelle!" my eyes widened with determination.

Immediately I dashed out of my office. I couldn't bear the thoughts that clouded my mind. I moved hastily to the hallway and the sight of things left my jaw dropped open.

There they were, almost half of the pack gathered around, most of them had a little smile on their face. Some had an expression saying, 'Serves her right.' I looked at the two ladies and boy, and what I saw gladdened my heart.

My little mate was on top of Rubi beating the living crap out of her. I stood there among my pack just watching in awe of her strength, I decided to let the scene play out for some minutes. But then I saw it.

She was crying. My mate was in tears.

Isabelle was the one winning the fight but she was crying.

Something was wrong with her. She was hurt.

I moved into the fight, pulling her into my arms. Her perfect blue orbs met with mine and I could see the pain and vulnerability it carried as it looked at me. She was hurting, I could feel it.

I needed to shield her away from this chaos. I dragged her away from the crowd before they saw her like this.

I pulled her into my Chambers, closing the door behind us, as she resisted me violently, she looked so pissed as she tried walking out but I pulled her back in.

I have never seen her this way before. Not even at her maddest moments.

She resisted further. Pushing me away from her. "Let me go, Dimitri. She doesn't know who the bloody hell she is messing with. I'm going to kill that fucking bitch, you'll see!" She growled, still trying to push her way from my embrace. God she was very angry and very strong too. She carried a strength fit for a supernatural being.

I could feel her body vibrating in my arms and emotions steaming up in that voice of hers. I knew it wasn't just about Rubi that got her this way, it was something much more deeper than that, and pouring out the whole rage on Rubi made it much easier to cope than dealing with the real pain. I have been there before. I knew what it was like to carry so much rage and resentment against the whole world.

'She needs us.' I heard Luca say and I couldn't agree less with him. In all her efforts to pull away from me and get back to the almost lifeless Rubi. I pulled her into my arms, holding her still against my heart. It felt like the right thing to do at that moment. And it was. I ran my hands down her back, stroking her soft and gently so she calms down.

She was still and she didn't say a word. She was relaxed. I could feel the heat spark between both of our bodies, igniting a wild fire that even I couldn't dare to tame.

I slowly brushed my fingers into her hair, calming her down. And it was working for some time but in less than a second, she was back to her hyper self trying to get back to Rubi.

She was damn strong. I grabbed hold of her wrist, pushing her down on the bed to subdue her. Both of us fell down, with me on top of her.

"I said calm down Isabella." I tell her, as I was on top of her, her gentle eyes boring into mine and mine into hers.

Just then I saw how on earth she was able to beat Rubi up like that as she kicked me in the guts. She was too fucking strong and feisty. She laid under me on the bed while I pinned her hands to the bed in a cross-like way. It didn't stop her, she used every ounce of energy in her legs to kick her way through. But I wouldn't let her win.

"You are just too stubborn for your own good. Just stay fucking still!." I wrestled her legs still, while using my legs. Just then I realized what our situation was really like. I guess she just realized it too.

It looked really incriminating with her laying underneath me, her hat messy on the bed and her hands pinned right above her head. Both of our chest were rising from all of our wrestling and I could sense the strong sexual tension around.

She stopped moving. She just laid down beneath me looming above her. Her eyes held mine. I could feel her heated breath fanning against my skin and her scent intoxicating me.

Luca liked this very much, he craved having her so close to him. So close that he could breathe in her air. And fuck, I couldn't help but admit that I was also enjoying the view from up here. The view of my mate.

This was the brightest that had made me happy in days. There we were. I could feel my other member begin to grow larger and bigger like it suddenly developed a mind of its own, deep within me I knew I had to let her go now. I don't think I would be able to control myself or whatever may happen next. But in the end I guess it was already too late for that because my desires were stronger than my will. And all I desired right now was her.

I tried to pull away but couldn't. My eyes began to wander down her face, to her neck. I could feel her heart beating hard against her chest. I eased my hold on her as my hands began to wander across her face, tracing her curves till it landed on her soft cherry lips. She didn't blink or object. slowly my nose was touching hers and our breaths became one.

Oh goddess, how the hell was she able to turn me completely on without even doing much. I wanted her. I wanted all of her so bad. Then came the thoughts of logic, she doesn't belong here in my world. She doesn't belong here with me.

I began fighting Luca who was having a hard time taking a quit. I could feel my body aching, it was clear I was losing to him.

I quickly let her go, rolling over to the other side of the bed with my back against her. I didn't want her seeing me like this.

My eyes had started changing its color. My throat began to clench hard to Luca's voice. I was transforming

"Dimitri, are you okay?" I heard worry and concern laced in her voice. She sat up, looking at me but I turned my back to her, not wanting her to see me in this way.

She can't see me like this!

She shouldn't see me like this. She is mundane, she will see me as a beast. I couldn't stand the thought of her being terrified of me.

The thought hurt me but it was the truth. The humans and our kind never saw eye to eye. Different stories but similar ending, they all see us like monsters and fear anything that doesn't look like them.

With what seemed like a whisper, I said. "I need Lance, help me call him... Please." I added hoping it would send her away as I bought myself some time to subdue Luca.

Then I felt a peculiar sensation on my shoulder. It moved around my neck and down to my chest. I looked up to find her. Isabelle. Her palm on my upper chest brushing it softly. The burning pain I felt from Luca was slowly fading away. Her face was against mine, as I could clearly feel the warmth of her head on my shoulder.

Her entire presence brought serenity to my existence. It was as though it was magic.

She was the magic.

I turned my head to face her and our lips were just inches apart. I saw the incessant heaving of her breasts.

Tempting. Incredibly tempting, I thought.

Without taking my eyes from her in a low breath I asked "What are you doing?" I could still feel Luca's presence but he wasn't fighting me. He was also calmed.

I felt like I was intoxicated, yes I was. Every single bit of her intoxicated me, her eyes, her body, her beauty, the peculiar scent which only she carried. She was like a drug that I craved. I felt her breath fanning against my skin, it was like a damn breeze to me.

"Be still, you'll be fine." her sweet voice ever sounding melodious to my ears.

She's mine, just mine. My words brought both excitement and unhappiness to me. She was mine to never have.

My hands moved like they had a mind of their own to the side of her lips, which was busted. It honestly seemed like the only thing that was injured by Rubi. She winced a bit at my touch.

"Ouch!" She hissed.

"Sorry." I withdrew my hands.

"Don't worry, it's okay. It doesn't hurt that much and you should see how badly she got messed up." She said with a smile.

"She is going to pay for hurting you, I promise." I assure her. I was indeed going to make Rubi pay for this with her life. I warned her not to mess with my mate again or I would kill her but she chose to disobey me, now she is going to bear the consequences of her actions.

"Why is that?" Isabella asked, looking into my eyes, as if searching for a piece of a truth.

"Why is what?" I asked her back, I wasn't quite sure what she referred to.

"Why is it that you care so much about me?" She rephrased her question catching me by utter surprise. I didn't know what to tell her. I couldn't tell her the truth and that she was my mate, fated to be mine by the moon goddess. I'm afraid that may sound too weird and confusing for this human. And if I went with that I would have to explain to her what I was and by the end she would be terrified of me. So I chose not to say any of that

"Because you are my... Guest." I muttered. She chuckled a bit.

"Ahh..." she hummed, "but I recall the other night you calling me your prisoner and not your valued guest." She chortled. And I let out a small smile, I did recall that too.

"Doesn't sound like something I would say now, does it?" I asked her back, feigning innocence. She smacked me against my shoulder.

"But you need to know that you are my Guest in this mansion. You aren't a prisoner and although I rather you not, you are free to go whenever you would like." I sighed. I needed to say that, she wasn't a prisoner here and keeping her around was only for my own selfish needs. She was free to make that choice to leave or stay herself.

"You want me to stay?" She asked me surprised.

"Yes. I think the people around have gotten used to your company." I replied to her. Her eyes searched mine hoping for something more. The only truth was that I wanted her to stay because I needed her around. My heart burnt for her.

"Hmph, okay then. I will stay a while for their sake." She smiled, looking ahead and my eyes were stuck on her beauty. It was cozy being with her like this.

Then the doors to my chambers opened, pouring in Lance. He wasn't alone, he was with Rubi.

While I was with Isabella, I had communicated to him through our mindlink to get Rubi to come and apologize, or I would kill her myself. It seems like she finally gave in.

I could feel Isabella suddenly get flushed with anger after seeing Rubi again.

"What do you want?" Isabella was in front of Rubi, staring at her furiously. She seemed ready to go for another rematch, and so did Rubi.

I quickly went behind Isabella, giving Rubi a knowing look that she understood more than anything. If she acted out I would end her life right here.

"I came- to apologize for what I did. My actions today were unforgivable but I hope you can forgive me." Rubi forcefully said, waiting for Isabella's response to her clearly staged apology.

"No!" Isabella coldly said. "I do not forgive or accept a forced apology. I can tell just by looking in your face that you aren't even a bit sorry and if you had a chance you would do much worse. So no, you can shove your apology." Isabella sneered. Rubi scoffed with a bitter glare.

"One day I am going to make you regret ever messing with me and taking what's mine." Rubi screamed in rage. I nodded, signaling to Lance to take her away. Lance nodded as he dragged Rubi out of my Chambers but she resisted with all her might.

"You remember this you whore! I'm going to ruin and take away everything you love!!!" Rubi spews threats as she is literally dragged away by Lance. I am really going to kill for talking to my mate like that.

"She needs some real help. She is completely insane." Isabella finally spoke after Lance left with Rubi.

"Yes, I will handle her. I think you should go and get some rest. I forgot to tell you, there is going to be a ball at the Mansion." I say. With all that happened I forgot to mention this important detail. The ball was an annual celebration held, inviting Alphas from all over the world. And this year's ball was going to be special.

"Oh so there is going to be a party." She summarized.

"Yes. It will be all through the night so if you would like you can just remain in your Chambers." I say.

"Nonsense! And miss out on the fun, are you kidding me." She laughs. "I will be there. Save me a dance, will you." She says to me assuringly, as she leaves my room. I was looking forward to having that dance, but for the meantime I had a problem I needed to attend to. And the problem bore the name Rubi.

I marched down to the underground dungeon underneath the castle. It was so deep into the ground that no one could hear the screams or pleas of anyone down there. It was the perfect place to torture someone.

I approached the dungeon with a burning torch in my hand. As I approached, I could already hear the whimpering cries of my dungeon's new guest, Rubi.

I met her in her cell, branded in chains on the floor. Immediately she saw me she rushed up to me, but could only go as far as her shackles let her.

"Dimitri," she cries. "I knew you would come and get me. Please take me out of this filthy place!"

"Rubi! I warned you, I told you if you dare mess with my mate I wouldn't kill you. And still you had the guts to defy Isabella, you made her cry. I told you anyone who attacks her attacks me and still you disobeyed my warnings!" I roared, causing her to tremble.

"I'm sorry Alpha. I made a mistake. Please forgive me, spare my life." She knelt, begging at my feet. It felt nice hearing someone beg, I had missed this feeling.

*I am not going to kill you, that wouldn't be much fun. I'm going to let you rot in this dungeon until the echoes of your name are long forgotten and your life has lost all meaning. These dirty walls will be your new home, goodbye Rubi." I say, turning around and leaving her in the comfort of darkness.

*Please! No, come back! Dimitri please! This is all because of that wench, please Dimitri! I promise you are going to regret this." Her screams echoed, but it fell on deaf ears. I will show no mercy for whoever stands in the path of my mate. I will protect her. No matter what may come, I will keep her safe.

***Author's Note***

Please if you like this book leave a comment and vote. I need to know if there are any things you like or don't like, I'm open to your feedback...

Anyways the next chapter is up so continue reading, things just got more real. The next few chapters hold two monster appearances, a heartbreak and the truth so stay tuned I guess.....

Chapter Soundtrack: Cozy by Lauv and Jeremy Zucker (this song feels right for this chapter because that's how Dimitri feels having Isabella close.... It's cozy)