Chapter 43

RAGHAV'S POV

I reached the terrace where Veer bhaisa was already waiting for me.... aaj toh pakka vaat lagegi bacha Lena bhagwan.... agar unhe Pata chala ki mere dimage mai kya chal raha hai then he will definitely kill me.... please godd help me

With careful and slow steps I stand behind him and sigh taking a deep breath encouraging myself a little. Sometimes I don't understand how Veer bhaisa manages to be so dangerous.

Sensing my presence he turns around with cold look and stern eyes....

"You're late" He stated making me more nervous then I already am.

"S-sorry" after a minute I apologise knowing well he hates excuses. And even if I explain why I'm late it turns out to be an excuse only at the end.

He just glared at me for a long time, and I'm sure my feet must be shaking by now. Trying hard to control it, I asked carefully

"Bhaisa, why did you ask for my presence?"

"Don't you know?" He stated coldly. It's always hard to have a private conversation with bhaisa, and it's harder when I'm at fault.... I try to say the same, which he said to me before, or you can say that try my best to ignore the upcoming topic

"Mr. Waghmare's dea---"

"It's definitely not for that. And you yourself are well aware of it. So better tell me why do you think that Siya will leave you?" He said, coming to the point, making me close my eyes, taking a deep breath.

Veer bhaisa has always been like this, he will notice every slight change in family members from the start before anyone else can.

"Did you hear me or do I have to repeat myself Raghav?" he didn't ask, it was more like a statement which hid the further line 'and if I repeat then it will not be good for you'

"T-th-that.... b-bha-bhaisa " I started but was interrupted by him who growl like an angry lion glaring at me with his death stares and I started shaking there and then,

"SPEAK CLEARLY WITHOUT SHUTTERING"

and that was the last point. I fall down on my knees, crying feeling so helpless and tired. I can't live without my wife, nor can I now let go of my baby.... it's becoming difficult for me to even think about life without Siya, and it's more difficult to live a life where I think of killing my own child. I'm so exhausted and tired I can't act like I'm strong when I'm feeling like the weakest person in this world when it comes to my wife and now to my baby too.

Bhaisa hugged me, rubbing my back, trying to calm me down

"Shhh... What happened? Beta tell me. Tell me what happened that made you cry so much, huh???.... Don't cry and tell your bhaisa he will make all things right, ok.... you trust your bhaisa right he will make everything like it was before you will be fine like before ok shhh now tell your bhaisa.... I'm here right. Shhh now stop crying and explain to me everything. What is bothering my strong lion? Tell me, hmm."

He said to me like he used console me when we were kids. He used to make me stop crying when I got hurt. He has always been a father figure to all four of us, the most responsible and perfect person that has ever come in my life till now. For him family is his first and utmost important priority.... he knows every single thing about every single family member. He can't tolerate any bad person near us he always make sure of the safety of every single member, we are really blessed to have him....

"B-bhaisa.... bhaisa Siya.... Siya will l-le-leave m-me.... I-I I-i d-don't know what t-to d-do.... I-I'm s-so helpless.... bhaisa I... I can't live without her.... I-I w-will d-die if she lea-leaves me"

Saying that I started crying again. I myself don't know how I manage to cry this much but just the thought of losing her is killing me already. Ever since I heard about her pregnancy I'm living after killing my heart thousands of time just by the thought of her being away from me, by the thought of killing my own baby. All this make me so stressed, and helpless. I'm in a hopeless state is really the worst feeling I have ever experienced

"What are you saying, Raghav.... tell me why will Siya leave you huh!! She loves you right, and just because she is pregnant doesn't mean that she will die like.... Jevika. Why are you getting scared, huh!! You see when god is with us, then we are always safe.... you yourself see how successfully Akshita comes back to us, right.... not everyone dies and leaves us because of pregnancy beta you have to understand that"

Jevika. She was my classmate and our family friend who died because of her early marriage and early pregnancy. Even though she didn't have any complications in her pregnancy but as she was just 20 at that time, she died while giving birth. She was a nice girl and we were close friends too. You can say that after her death I become more cold to outsiders thinking they will leave me just like her at the end of the day.... and I don't need any other friends when I have my brothers with me.

" bhaisa.... b-but Siya.... Siya has complications in her pregnancy"

"What!!!" He asked me with wide eyes and confused look

"Yes, bhaisa.... she has com-compications"

"What you mean Raghav say it clearly" he asks while whipping my tears

"Bhaisa, when we agreed to accept this marriage and the first time our family met each other at that time, Harshad shared a secret with me that shouldn't be exposed in front of Siya ever....

FLASHBACK

"Raghav, we want you to rethink your decision. I don't want you to blame Siya later on. And ya, this shouldn't ever be revealed to her. If it's does, then she will be broken" said Harshad, being nervous

"What are you taking about??.... please be clear" said Raghav

"A year ago Siya suffered from PTSD and depression and that time, the doctor informed us that in the future, this will affect her pregnancy.... i-if she takes even a little stress or tension, then the pregnancy will get complicated and it can be life-threatening" said Harshad

FLASHBACK ENDS

They never wanted her to know it because they were well aware of how much Siya dreamed of being a mother. They shared it with me so that I could rethink my decision about our marriage. And because of this, I never wanted her to get pregnant....  I considered adopting a baby too because I never wanted her to get pregnant....

Unknowingly, tears run down my face. I was behaving pathetic but bhaisa was listening to my words with his full concentration.

"Bhaisa, I'm so... so scared because of this reason I can't even imagine her being away from me what if this baby leads her to her --- n-no n-n-no I...I-i-i ca-can't let this ha-happen s-she ca-can't leave me n-no p-plea-please b-bhaisa i-i ca-can't let th-this happen I can't let her go far away from me.... t-this baby i-it will take away my Siya n-no I can't let it happen... I can't yes she will stay with me she won't leave me ever I won't let that happen she can't leave me I need her more I don't know anything else I just want her in my life... I don't want anyone else, no one. Yes, she will stay with me forever. No one can separate us she is mine... she will not leave me. I don't want anyone else. I just want Siya.... I just want Siya in my life. I don't want anyone else, not even this baby. I-i d-dont care. We will go for abortion. We will abo--- (SLAP)"

"DARE YOU SPEAK THIS SINFUL WORD AGAIN YOU BLOODY MORON"

I stand still with my face on my left, looking down with tear filled eyes.... when I heard the slow, angry, and dangerous voice again

"Look at me, Raghav...."

His voice and tone really make me so scared, and I know once I look up, I will face the worst, but I also know that if I didn't, then I would meet yamraj. But I deserve it I deserve it my fucking damn self deserve his slap. I again fail to protect myself from the harmful useless and negative thoughts. Once again, this dirty thought came into my mind....

"LOOK HERE RAGHAV DON'T MAKE MY ANGER WORST"

AUTHOR'S POV

Veer held Raghav's face and made him look directly in his eyes, which is blood red and that dark angry look. He slapped Raghav again, which make hin losses his balance and fall on the ground. He bends down to Raghav's level and makes him look at him again, griping his face in tight grip.

"What did you said huh!!! What will you do.... here, look up in my eyes... why are you averting your eyes now huh!!.... you were very confident while saying those rubbish words. Now what happened? Say that again.... not anymore, right.... come in your fucking right mind.... now you are able to understand what rubbish you spoke a while ago.... didn't expected you'd say such low words. I never expected that"

And then a sob escape from Raghav and Veer's eyes soften that time.... it's the third time in his 38 years of life that he slapped Raghav when Raghav was at fault infact it's the third time in Raghav's life that he, his moral and his thinking were wrong.... otherwise till now from childhood to adulthood Raghav always followed Veer. Veer is his ideal, father, brother or you can say Raghav's brain too.... no Raghav did make a little mistakes but that was a kind of mistakes that we can let it slide but not this.... Veer is the main reason for Raghav's every single behavior if Raghav do right then it is taught by Veer because Veer always assures that any of his brothers should never go on the wrong path and if they do then he knows how to bring them on track.

That's what Veer did this time too he cares and loves all his brothers a lot, but you can say he is little biased towards Raghav because ever since childhood, Raghav was like Veer's tail.... always following him around. They both don't need words to express their love for each other.... they share every problem that they never shared with Ekansh, Sameer, and Vansh but that doesn't mean that they both don't share anything with them or don't share a good bond with them.

Raghav is so close to Veer that they are like two body, one soul.... and Veer has never seen his brother so helpless, disturbed, and behaving stupidly, which clearly shows how much distracted and aimless Raghav is right now. But that doesn't mean Veer will let go of this matter easily.

"Raghav you are talking about abortion do you even know how much a baby suffers during abortion, did you think about how much Siya will suffer if you take away her beautiful opportunity of being a mother, to get the pleasure and satisfaction of holding her child, feeding her baby, hugging it close to her soul.... did you think about how much your baby will cry if he/she will die even before meeting his/her mother and father, his huge family..... how much your baby must be excited to come in this world and live a beautiful life with you, Siya, and all of us....

You know your baby and Siya started to get attached to each other. They, can feel each other now.... don't you want to get attached to your baby.... don't you want to be a father? I can clearly see your answer, it is written on your face.... then why get scared of this assumption of a doctor.... he just said that it's possible he didn't confirm it right?... he said that is because of past trauma because at that time she was unhappy and was not confident even she was immature and too young.... but now it's almost 5 years of that incident and only 1 out of 5 women get affected by this and die but we shouldn't think negative"

Raghav looks at him with the most hopeful eyes like a hunger of years got fulfill hearing him. That made Veer smile a little and continue making him understand

"And you know what the probability of such complications is less. You know why? Because she is the happiest person, she is confident, she has a huge family, she has a loving and caring husband Raghav.... what di you think that she don't know you?.... She knows that her Raghav will not let anything happen to her.... she knows it well that you will not do anything to the baby, that's why she is running around freely and letting me handle your stupid self.... she knows that your weak inner self can never be strong enough to kill the baby.... it's just that you are not thinking straight Raghav try to think straight.... try to move away these stupid negative thoughts it's affecting your mind....

Nothing like that is going to happen.... it's not going to happen ever. Why will god take away the gift that he has given to you.... now be happy we all are here with you we all will protect her from every problem and you know right you don't need to be scared when your Veer bhaisa is standing behind you.... now remove these stupid thoughts and accept that innocent soul. I'm damn sure you are gonna love it the most."

"Let me tell you, Raghav, the feeling of being a father is really, really, something indescribable feeling.... you will feel like you have gotten to another heaven....

If you get a son then you will feel like to give every single happiness to him, give your everything to him, you will be ready to die for him, you can be strict towards him, you will love him too, you will want to make him like a version of yourself. You will die for him,you will kill for him.....

but if you get a daughter then let me tell you something quite clear brother that for your daughter you will make the whole world bend down infront of her, you will be ready to kill for her, you will give her every happiness of this universe, you will become a baby and she will be the mother, she won't be the complete version of yours instead she will be half version of your, half of Siya, half of maa sa and half of dadi sa. You will die or kill for her one smile, you will remember every single step taken by her, you will be the most fortunate person alive when a shree (laxmi) will play in your arms. Being protected and giggling throwing her beautiful smile and giggles that will be music to your ears.

And let me tell you Raghav you can't be on your knees infront of your wife it's okay because Siya never ever wanted you to be but infront of your daughter you will break every single rule and promise you had ever given to Siya and will be on your knees being her most handsome king and she will be your princess.... mark my words brother because even I myself may experienced same feeling with you in the near future"

Said Veer, the last line with a wink at Raghav who was looking and hearing every word of Veer with peaceful face and a smile. But after almost five minutes he again made a confused face.

"Wait.... what do you mean by you may experience the same feeling with me in the near future???" Ask Raghav in pure confusion

"That means you are completely ready for the baby??" Veer asks with eye brow raised even after knowing the answer well. Raghav replies with a beautiful smile dancing on his face

"I'm ready, bhaisa.... I want to become a father...."

"Now tell me why you said that.... wait.... does it mean bhabhi....wait, dont tell me whatever im thinking is right... Oh my god, bhaisa, you will be father again? " He answered his own question

"Yes, your are right. Your bhabhi maa is pregnant too...."

"Yess I'm also going to be a father, and you are too..... wow, that's so amazing" he said suddenly, dancing and hugging Veer, who tried to run away from him, saying he didn't like hugs

"Wait, wait.... why are you so happy? It is because I'm being a father again or it's because you are going to be father???" Asked Veer after moving almost ten feet away from him

"It's because you cleared all my negative thoughts and showed me rays of hope.... ahh how stupid I was. I didn't even think of doing researching about it such an idiot I am.... let it be, but first bhaisa I'm going to be father for the first time and Siya is pregnant for first time please guide me. What should I do and what should I not do? ... how should I behave? How will I know when Siya is having mood swings?? When she will be having pain.... oh my god I need to complete all my work prior. Otherwise, I won't be able to present with her all the time.... I think I need to renovate our chamber too.... then we will make a nursery godd I will make thousands of anklets for my baby girl so wherever she will go I will search her everytime an-- "

"Areee aree wait Raghav wait stop your 'doing this for my babygirl' train an--" But Veer was cutter off by Raghav

"But bhaisa aabhi aapne baby boy ke liye kya karna hai woh toh sunna hi nahi?" He said with pout and Veer smacked his head slowly, making his Pout bigger and rub his head.

"Don't cut me in-between, and you can tell me everything later on too, but

first you should give a gift to your Siya right?.... and also incase you are forgetting then let me tell you that it's only 2.5 hour remaining for the baraat of your saale sahab so if you don't want to face the anger of your lovely Siya then run there now"

And then Raghav remembered that they are here to attend the wedding of his wife's brother.

"That I will for sure.... and I think I should give the biggest gift to my jaan when she is giving me such a beautiful gift.... I'm telling you bhaisa, baba sa once told us on the day of yours and bhabhi ma's wedding that wife is pure blessing and it's true my Siya is pure blessing for me she is a pure favour on me..." he put his hand on his left side and said with a pure smile

"My jaan.... my siya.... Huff, I need to go to her.... I need her. Bye-bye bhaisa, I will meet you later on. Say congratulations to bhabhi sa too, and don't worry, I will not expose your secret until you expose it"

He said while running away from there in search of Siya.

Raghav came running towards their room to see it's empty, then he ran towards all his brothers rooms to see not even his brothers are there, let alone of his sister-in-laws....

Now he gets where everyone else is. He runs towards the place from where baraat will start....

"Even though the marriage is held in this palace but they still come with baraat, what is the need to do that?" said Raghav, searching here and there

"Yes, there she can be...." saying he ran towards the direction where he saw all the people were surrounded and slowly slowly, everyone moved backward as Krish sat on the horse and there Raghav stopped running.... it's like his feet stop forever he just wants to look at that direction only where his Siya is doing Tilak on Krish's forehead.

Sameer and Vansh are carrying her high so that she can reach Krish and on the other side, Harshad elwas carrying Samiraa who is making Krish wear his paghadi.... Shree was sitting along with Krish on the horse.

SIYA RAGHAV SINGH RAGHUVANSHI

RAGHAV'S POV

I went towards them as soon as Vansh and Sameer put her down safely, making me take a breath in relief....

I smiled at everyone innocently before taking her hand and running away from there not too fast. Without giving much attention to their shout and calls with Siya running behind me asking me to stop but I'm very much interested in abducting my wife from the crowd.

"Maan what are you doing?... Where are you taking me?... stop.... wait let me atleast match your speed with this annoying lengha..."

her irritating tone made me look behind and to see her holding her dress a little up trying to match my speed with an annoying expression or maybe with the cutest pout on her face. It makes me laugh a little at her difficult situation.... I stopped for a second so that she could meet my speed and then she smiled when we were together and started running again...

"Where are we going?" She asked me, but even before I could answer, I heard Vansh's voice calling me, and without paying any attention to that, I carried her in bridal style, moving away from there, but this time I'm not running....

"What... Maan, what happened to you? Why are you behaving like this?" She asked me while securing her hands around my neck.

"Are you talking about this.... it's just that I am thinking of trying to behave like my wife. I know I know it's a little kiddish, but it's from my heart..... and what can I do all such ideas are of my wife only na..." I said, teasing her while she glared at me, showing her angry eyes making me laugh loudly. After a while, I stop laughing. Sensing a gaze on me, well aware about this sweet gaze, I look down at my jaan

Who was already looking at me... and I thought to tease her a little more, that's your mistake, Raghav .

"Why are you looking at me with this sweet gaze Jaana I know I'm handsome, I have good looks, I'm the smarty, I have a charming smile, silky soft hairs, beautiful eyes, perfect beard so it's common for girls to halt their eyes on me.... you know they will put their life on stake just so I can spare them one glance with my charming smile.... but I never did that because this handsome, charming, dashing, perfect man belongs to you and only you my janna"

"I guess you are forgetting to add some words. Let me add it for you" she said with (extra) sweet smile

"Sure, you can add more in this list"

"Sadu, akkdu, gabbar, sada hua muh, Bandar si shakal, ladai ka pitara, jhadu se baal, bakre si dadhi, Mandak si aankhe, toteh si naak, and Mr. lack of common sense along with...... along with kadva karela maharaj.... bolo kadva karela maharaj ki jai hoo... jai hoo 🙌" she said and started laughing loudly and I looked at her in disbelief.  Like how can she say such words. I'm the most handsome man, girls will die for me and here my wife is roasting me like I'm some kind of a papad that's meant to be roasted.

But a smile make it's way on my face when I look jn her eyes where not only her face but also her heart is laughing and it's satisfies me the most it gives an unknown peace to my heart.

I took her to our room and safely put her on bed, but she got up the moment I made her seat there...

"Where are you going?" I ask

"To change, it's really hard for me to even breathe in this heavy dress omg, it is because of didi who said you are the sister of groom, what will people think etc etc... I wouldn't even wear this. You can keep 'My wish to take photos in this dress' an exception" she said and gave me a naughty smile, making me shake my heads

"You are the only unique piece, you know... you are sent for me, this unique piece is for me there is not anyone here like you there is only one Siya Raghav Singh Raghuvanshi." I said while back hugging her and kissing her neck

"I know that too" she said proudly and freed herself from my hold.

"Now come fast and help me change otherwise we will be late"

She asked for my help and I was there on my knees to take her Order.... wow, what a wife I get.

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