Chapter 11

HENRY POV

"Daddy, what's pre....pre uhh what's the word." Alfie asks looking so confused. OH MAN.

How does one answer this type of question for their children, what do I even begin to tell him.

"Well Alfie a pregnant person is someone that delivers babies from the baby factory where they make babies, that means that you are going to be a big brother again." Jace bless his heart answers this delicately crafted question cos I'm so glad that I didn't have to answer that.

I cant wrap my head around the fact that I'm pregnant with actual living children inside me. How does that even happen in real life. What is going to happen to me now, does Jace even want to still be with me, does he want more children. He thinks I'm a freak I just know it. He is going to break up with me. I can't even look at him right now I've been quiet since we heard the news. I don't want him to break up with me. Tears start coming to my eyes and I try holding it back but it all just start pouring out. I feel arms wrap around me.

"Hey I know what you are thinking and its not true, I'm absolutely happy about this. I'm happy that we are able to have kids of our own. I know you are scared, I'm scared too but trust me as long as we are together its going to be okay.

Everything is going to be fine. I know it's too soon to say but I love you and I love our little family, I love everything about you and I love the new additions to our little family and I regret nothing. I know you don't just see this kids as mine, Alfie, Aaron and Anaya, they are ours. And hopefully when these two little beans inside you come out to meet the real world we will finally be complete. We all love you and there is nothing I would change."

When he is done with what he has to say I don't hold in the tears anymore, it just comes out, I fell like he is reading my mind. He is bringing out all my insecurities and countering them.

"You don't know how much it means to me that you said that, I've never felt good about myself, I've always felt like a freak and a failure ever since I was in my home town and since I left there not much has changed but since we started going out and you introduced me to your family, I started believing in myself and although I still feel the same I've gotten better at believing in myself but then this pregnancy news just solidified the fact that I'm a freak, I mean who has ever herd of a man getting pregnant?

How am I even going to give birth, where are they even going to come out from. I can't push it out. this is all so confusing and I don't know what to do." I stopped talking when a sob broke put in my throat. Jace just hugged me tighter. I squeezed his shirt cos I needed something to hold on to. The doctor came in and gave me a prescription of the drugs I would need for my pregnancy.

"These prenatal drugs are to be taken religiously, they help balance your hormones, this one especially." he pointed to one on the list that is starred.

"This is estrogen, as a man you have low estrogen levels and a high testosterone level, these are hormones, the estrogen helps in the natural development of children in women but because you are a man you need this drug to increase you hormone levels. During the course of your pregnancy, your cervix will increase in size to accommodate the growing size of the foetus in your womb which means that your hip will get wider. the hormone also helps the development of breasts and the production of milk so don't freak out when your pectorals starts to swell or milk comes out of your nipples its part of the effect." I look at him shocked.

"Does that mean that I can breast feed my kids." He thinks about it for a bit.

"That is possible, yes."

"How am I going to give birth? I know its not possible to do it naturally I mean, is it?" He has an amused smile on his face.

"Well no, its going be a caesarean section for this because you don't have the tools necessary to do this naturally." When the scared look on my face doesn't change he tries to reassure me.

"Look Henry I know your fears and let me just tell you its going to be fine so go home and take care of yourself and stop worrying. Jace is going to take care of you trust me he is the best. Now get out of here." I and Jace start picking up the sleeping kids, Alfie was awake through it all but was playing games on my phone so he didn't give much trouble. We start leaving the room. As we get home we take the kids to their room and put them to sleep, doesn't matter they will soon be up so they can have lunch.

I and Jace go to our room. We have a lot to talk about. I trust him completely and I'm ready to tell him all he need to know about me. We are in this together, but I'm still scared of how he is going to react when I tell him about my past, I don't want to be rejected buy I have to trust him and trust that he is going to want to still be with a looser like me.

When I got in the room Jace was waiting for me, he looked nervous but I don't know why. When I shut the door and came into the room properly he stood up from the bed and hugged me. He held me tight like he was scared to let go. When he eventually did he looked at my face and smiled.

"I'm happy about today believe it or not, even though it had unexpected outcomes, I'm just so unbelievably happy. We have to prepare, right now you are 3 months in we have 6 more months to get ready." Just looking at him and how happy he is makes me happy too, I never thought that I would be this lucky to find someone that sees past my self hate. Even I'm not taking this well, but he is already making plans. I hate to have to ruin his fun but we have a lot to talk about.

"Jace we need to talk." When I said that he tenses.

"Uh-oh. That never means anything good, when someone starts a conversation with WE NEED TO TALK, it never ends well. Sure what do you want to talk about, I can handle it." I laugh because why not, his reaction is funny. I keep on laughing while he looks at me weirdly.

"I have to get it off my chest, I've always wanted to tell you the truth of my past but I was afraid you will think horrible of me. All my life i was loved by my parents up until the day that I came out to them, I always they would love me no matter what but I was wrong." I then proceeded to tell him the story. I told him everything, how I was mistreated by people I had known my whole life, people that were supposed to love and protect me. How I was betrayed by my boyfriend of that time and how he allowed them to destroy me without doing anything to help.

I told him how I almost took my life the first and the last time, although the thought was there, I only had to attempt it once.

"I was lucky when my friend and only family Emilio saved me even though he was a stranger then. He got me out of there, changed my life and gave me new beginning. I will never forget what those people did to me but I want to thank them. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have what I have now. A great family, people that actually care about me. I love you Jace, I love your children and even though I just found out about these jelly beans in my belly, I love them just as much. I hope this doesn't change the way you feel about me."

Jace looks at me with tears in his eyes, I wait for the rejection but all I see is acceptance. Next thing I know, I'm in his arms and he is hugging the life out of me. I'm so happy that I got this off my chest, I feel so much lighter.

"Baby why would you think that this will change the way I fell about you, I think I love you even more now. I know yo think that it's your luscious ass that attracted me to you but you're wrong." When he said that, I couldn't stop giggling cos I remember when we first met, he couldn't stop looking at my ass. He laughed with me but continued.

"I saw something in you I just didn't know what but now I know. You are strong, the strongest person I know. Everything you've been through just made you stronger, none of that broke you and you should be very proud of yourself. Now you are going to give birth to 2 strong children just like their mommy and you will pass down that strength." I couldn't help but giggle at the mommy part. Sigh I'm going to be a mommy.

"Well since we are all confessing, aren't you curious where my kids mother is." I shake my head no.

"Well I sent her away from my kids. She was toxic, she was only after my money and attention. When she started giving birth to the kids and I started giving my kids more attention as she wasn't even going to do it, she beat them. She beat them when I wasn't around but when I would come home she would pretend that everything was fine in my presence." I cover my gasp with my hand in shock, how can a woman be that wicked to their kids.

"My own kids where scared of their mother, Alfie was the worst of all, anytime I told him to meet his mother for anything, he will beg me, saying that he has been good, he didn't do anything wrong." he took a breath and continued.

"I didn't understand then but it was all clear when I came back home early when I went to work because I forgot something. I caught her trying to push him down from the stairs, I confronted her about it but she denied everything even tried to manipulate me but it didn't work for her this time because I had my suspicions and I told a maid to watch her every move and she did. It was then the maid told me that this was not the first time, most times madam will kick him until he fell unconscious. I couldn't believe that this bitch that was supposed to be their mother was treating them this way. It was then I told her to get her things and leave, I almost had her arrested but decided against it. What do I tell my kids when they ask for their mother and i tell them that I had her imprisoned for child abuse. I threatened her into leaving and didn't give her a dime because she signed prenup."

"I haven't heard from her since and I hope to never see her again. For the sake of our kids, because they are ours now and you are not going anywhere." He finished with a smile and hugged me again. And then we kissed, the pace was changing and we welcomed it with open arms. I'm sure you all know what happened next.

Happy times will soon be over and then comes the drama. Fair warning I'm not good at suspense, id much rather write it all and get it over with so bare with me. THANK YOU.

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