Chapter 204 I dont deserve her love

"Unfortunately, there’s no cure for it. The only thing you can do is... go all the way with her." Zaki said but to his surprise, Sei just looked at him without any change in his expression. He just looked as though Zaki’s supposedly heart stoping advice didn’t even reach him.

Thus, looking at his lack of reaction, Zaki could only facepalmed as he tried to confirm if he even heard what he just said.

"Did you hear what I said?" He asked with his voice a little bit louder. However, the next words that came out of Sei’s mouth almost made his dear spirit left him.

"What are you trying to say?" Sei asked firmly and a little bit too seriously, looking unsure about the exact meaning of his words. A question that effortlessly made Zaki to just heaved a deep sigh.

"I am trying to tell you to just go and make a baby, you get it?!" Zaki burst out of frustration but then Sei’s reaction towards his words was completely off again. All of the sudden, he looked as though what Zaki said just made him went gloomy instead of being excited.

"I can’t do that." He said as his eyes dimmed. Causing Zaki’s shoulders to just fell with disappointment.

"Sigh... I don’t know what to say. I personally think that you don’t have to hold back this much. I understand what you wanted to happen but you both are sleeping in the same bed, you both already confessed your love to each other and she’s your wife." Zaki replied and Sei’s gaze just fell towards the darkness outside again.

"Yes, she’s my wife. But I can’t deny the fact that until now she’s still just my contracted wife. I can’t do any wrong move anymore. I won’t do something improper to her just because of my uncontrolled desire. I want to fully submit my complete self to her first." He said and Zaki fell completely and unbelievably dumbfounded. It was because, this is the first time Sei spoke words this long without stopping.

God! That’s exact fifty words in one go!! Whoah, did he just set his very own guiness world record?!

Additionally, Zaki almost couldn’t believe that Sei actually said those super cheesy kind of words with such unbreakable determination. As though what he was saying was sacred and pure promises.

That moment, while Zaki was still trying to calm himself down for him to be able to talk again, Sei suddenly talked again.

"She saved me not just once but twice. She gave me her heart even though she’s not allowed to see me. She always cries for me even though I couldn’t even tell her my name... she accepted me without hesitation despite me telling her my darkest side. Honestly, the more I look at her, I can’t help but feel like I don’t deserve her love. That’s why I wanted to become worthy of her love. Our strange and abnormal encounter, the heartless rules and contract between us... I want to fix it all. From now on, I wanted to give her the best of my everything." He continued before he simply turned and stepped out the door. Causing the still stunned Zaki to just fell speechless for a long while before he finally snapped.

"That’s more than a hundred words right? Amazing... you want to fully submit your complete self to her first, huh... what a man. Hmm... Well, a king submitting himself to his queen sounds not that bad after all." He then said as he touched his chin.

That moment, Zaki finally smiled with relief. It was because this was the first time Sei finally voiced out what’s within his heart. He knew that the fact that their marriage was a mere heartless contract with heartless rules from the beginning will never change. He can’t also ignore the fact that Davi might still be thinking a lot about her mission of bearing his child. Their relationship, even though they were so in love with each other that there’s no more cure for it, there are still doors that is needed to be opened for them to stay together with no reservations. Sei needed to show her his complete self or else their relationship will never be whole.

Zaki somehow realized that Sei was thinking much more seriously about their relationship a hundred times more than he expected. And even though he wants a nephew to come as soon as possible, he can’t deny that Sei’s decision was the best for now. It was because he realized that if Sei touches her right now, she might think that he’s doing it simply for the sake of the mission stated in the contract.

After thinking about it for a while, Zaki started walking back to his bed when he suddenly he halted. And his eyes widened while he instantly turned back to the door as he opened his mouth.

"Wait, does this mean, he wanted to dissolve their contract now? That’s why he wanted to go and find a ring right here right now, right?!"