Mr Masters: Chapter 28

ALINA MASTERS

1984 – 2013

Wife and beloved mother.

In God’s hands, we trust

I stand at my wife’s grave for the last time.

Spencer and Sebastian are by my side and we’re dressed in our black dinner suits.

It’s my wedding day.

The guilt I feel is heavy. After today Alina won’t be my wife anymore.

Brielle will.

I lean down and brush the dust from her name. I rearrange the pink lilies I’ve just placed in the vase. I touch her face in the small oval photo as she stares back at me, unblinking.

I step back, put my hands in the pockets of my suit, and I stare at her.

“You ready to go?” Spence asks.

“Yeah,” I murmur, distracted. “Give me a minute, will you?”

They both turn and walk back to the car, leaving me and I swallow the lump in my throat as I stare at the headstone.

‘I’m getting married today, Alina,’ I whisper through tears.

“I’m sorry that you didn’t get to find your true love.” I lift my gaze to look at the surrounding graves. “I’m sorry I couldn’t love you the way you deserved to be loved.” I close my eyes. “I’ve been punishing myself for it for years. You deserved so much better than who I am.” I frown. “Was,” I correct myself.

“I was so angry at you for killing yourself. For leaving the children.”

I smile. “They’re beautiful. You should see how much they’re flourishing. You’d be so proud of the young people they have become.”

I drop my chin to my chest and frown. “I’ve been seeing a therapist who’s helped me see the error of my ways in all of this. It was never your fault.” I wince like I’m in physical pain as I push the words past my lips.

“I can’t live in the dark anymore, Alina,” I whisper. “She’s my light, my love, my soul mate. Her name is Brielle, and I knew from the moment I met her that she was the one. You’d like her, I know you would. She loves the children as if they were her own.”

I clench my jaw.

“But they’re your children, you’re their mother. You will always be their mother.”

I sniff as I stare at her photo. She stares back at me void of emotion, just …like she always did.

“They miss you.”

Tears fill my eyes again.

“I’m going to bring them to see you soon, I just haven’t been strong enough to do it yet.” I toe the dirt with my shoe. I regret so many things that I haven’t done to honor her memory.

“Thank you for giving me my children.” I screw up my face in pain and I swallow harshly, feeling the sting of it in my throat.

I turn to see Seb and Spence leaning on my car waiting for me.

And I know I have to do it, I have to say goodbye to my wife for the last time. Tomorrow, she will be the children’s mother, Brielle will be my wife.

I bend and brush my finger over her image, and then I kiss the cold, hard stone.

“Goodbye, Alina. Rest in peace, angel.”

Julian rocks forward onto his toes in anticipation and I smirk. We are holding hands and facing each other as the Priest reads our marriage vows. He can hardly wait until this ceremony is over and his eyes dance with mischief.

Who knew that Julian Masters would be so excited about getting married?

I know I certainly didn’t.

He gives me a slow sexy smile promising me carnal things and I blush…I know that look. For goodness sake Julian, don’t look at me like that in the house of God.

Willow and Emerson are beside me and Sebastian and Spencer and Samuel are beside him, we stand before all of our united family and friends, and the church is filled with love.

This is a happy day, for all of us.

“I will.” Julian smiles as he slides the gold wedding ring onto my finger.

He rocks forward onto his toes again as if happy with himself and I giggle.

“By the powers vested in me, I now pronounce you man and wife. You may kiss your bride.” The priest smiles.

In slow motion Julian lifts my veil back and folds it over. This is it, our whole story is coming to a beautiful climax, right here right now.

My eyes fill with tears at just how intimate this moment is.

With his beautiful big brown eyes locked on mine he slowly leans in, holds my face in his hands, and he kisses me tenderly. It’s the most perfect kiss he’s ever gifted me and my feet lift off the ground. “I love you,” he whispers.

I giggle against his lips, and the crowd all laugh and cheer.

I turn to see my mother sitting in the front row. She’s so happy and smiling with her hand over her heart, and I smile right back through my tears. She told me all along that the love of my life was waiting somewhere for me.

And she was right.

He was.